Fresh Eyes ~ New Fruit

I really had to ASK about the title, this morning. Sometimes, there is just a hecticness, or a chaos in the air around, the atmosphere. But, thank GOD the Grace. I have learned, over the years, that often, HE is in the midst of THIS working diligently. He is many times, performing GREAT and mighty miracles, and healings. FOR He, is a WONDERFUL and LOVING GOd. The years end, of the calendar year, always just appears more crazy. As a child, I used to love the wonder, of holidays. But, quite frankly, they have just changed. But, JESUS has not changed. Thank GOD for THAT!.



This morning, I came upon HIM, and though usually I see HIm in the garden, Yes, it was the garden, but there was another surprise, for me. My best friend, giving me MORE LOVE. 🙂 SNOW!!!!!!!! Do you recall the blog, not that long ago, on snow? It was called, LET it SNow! 🙂 🙂 🙂  Well, in the garden today, there is SNOW, EVERYWHERE!!!! I do MEAN EVERYWHERE! It LOOKS like a WINTERWONDERLAND!  And Jesus looks at Me and He says, “Hi beautiful!! How are you this fine day? Remember your DREAM? ”  I smile. Instantly knowing to what He refers. And I say, “He did not miss the snow, and neither did I. Tears of JOY Fall! Just as HE promised 🙂 WE both laugh with Glee. “That’s right,” He says. Smile. “Wanna play in the SNOW together ?” He Continues.  As the song, You are my Hiding place, Comes on….


Tears….  He says, “There is ALWAYS Healing HERE. My arms, ARE never COLD. THis world, is ALWAYS warm for YOU. It is ALWAYS HOME. My GOAL and JOB is to LOVE you. YOur JOB is to receive that LOVE. Also to let me use you, share and give it out. So proud of you. Both of you. ALL of you. ”


Tears Fall. I tell Him, “I am laying it ALL down, sometimes, EVERY single moment. With every breath. It is not just her, I miss. But, I refuse to focus on that. I choose YOU. Because, YOU deserve that. Thank you for the Grace to heal, Be real, be broken, grieve, just be me, cry, forgive, live, joy, pain, sunshine, rain, storms, and everything.”


All the Sudden, I am hit with a Snowball. Such JOY….. I laugh out loud. Quite literall, and LOUD. Can’t get mad. 🙂 Okay, I get it…. More JOY. I love you Jesus. #Mybestfriend 🙂 LOVE. Your LOVE, really, does…ALWAYS win.

The scene changes, and I suddenly view, JESUS and ME. WE are sledding down, a HILL. It is covered with rainbow SNOW. Wow, what a beautiful sight!!!! Sparkling with a bright light. Everything here, sparkles and shines. As the sing HERE plays GLORIA… YES. IN effort to Praise HIM. Yes. 🙂 Beautiful. In an effort to Praise HIM. 🙂 THis is as AWESOME adventure….NOTHING is impossible for GOD… NOTHING. and EVERYTHING is an AMAZING adventure! 🙂








Do you BELIEVE you are LOVED? If so, who do you believe, LOVES you?



THis SEASON, I encourage YOU, seek GOD on THIS. To TRULY examine HIM on this topic. My husband mentioned yesterday, that when we moved to, this state, He read the bible. FOR the VERY first time, HE read it cover to COVER. I mean, HE had read a FEW verses. But, He actually sat down, and READ the entire THING, EVERY single BOOK. It took A LOT of dedication. I marvelled at it ALL. To ME, it showed HIS dedication to GOD. When Sarah went HOME to Jesus, He did not read it, for a while, to be honest. So, I was quite glad, HE did that. It was like, HE had it stored up, for a winter of discontent. And, GOD knew. Because, as my husband likes to say, “God shops at Costco. wink . He give you the tools you need. For the trials, you are going through. smile.



Faith. Hope. Love.



The absolute GREATEST will ALWAYS BE LOVE….. NO matter what. ALWAYS show LOVE. ALWAYS. ~



IN His Grace,



07 Dec 2018

The Hope Tree

Funny that, I would be awakened. At 316. Isn’t is John 3:16 who says, “God so loved the world, that HE gave HIS only son. So that whoseoever believes in HIM, shall not perish, but have eternal LIFE? I’m fairly certain of that address. It is pretty engrained in my memory. I remember, seeing PILLARS as a child that houses this verse. There was a tornado, in my “home” town. Clarksville, TN is where I grew up. Such a beautiful place. But yeah, as a kid, I sure did NOT appreciate that. I mean, sometimes I saw it. But, you get it. I remember thinking when those pillars remained, how significant. One has the Lord’s Prayer. The other, houses John 3:16. The whole Sanctuary, is just BEAUTIFUL, because of these 2 pillars. To me, it is like a mom and dad. Those that HOLD us, and GROUND us, and root us, in LOVE.




The scene Begins Here…..


Jesus is sitting under this HEAVEN made TREE. I have never scene anything like it. It has rainbow leaves. Yet, because, I do spend quite a lot of time HERE, it just FEELS like HOME. And I think, THIS looks familiar. So Jesus says, “YOU have scene it! Then He laughs with PURE Joy. He said, YOU have scene it, just NOT on EARTH yet. ” wink .  I can’t help but say, “OH, that’s it!!!!.” Just like Him, I am in full JOY mode. 🙂  So I sat down, as He patted for me to. I asked Jesus, what do you want me to write about. He said, “Your style is going to change some.” So I am thinking, “My writing style?” He can read my thoughts, so He just smiles at me. LOVE .  Yes, THIS is what REAL LOVE looks like. The best brother, I could EVER have. He knows the deep desire for connection. He placed it, within me. WE ALL have this. But circumstances, often shadow it, and twist and turn it. Only He can undo those tangiles.



He says to Me, As He sees my TEARS…. “It is okay to LET it GO. This is a SAFE place,” He continues. “I am NOT looking for perfect my precious child. This is where, HEALING continues. HOPE is renewed. Burdens are lifted. FREEDOM comes. JOY surfaces. THIS is HOME. My arms, are ALWAYS YOUR HOME. ”



MORE tears FALL. Night time, is the hardest for me. I try not to complain. But, it JUST is. I very RARELY sleep through the night. I wake up, and I just crawl into HIS arms. BECAUSE, it is my SECURITY. It is my HOPE TREE. And in our lives, it sure has felt, like hope deferred. But feelings can just lie, to US.



And He looks up, at me, and says, “I know THIS is not comfortable, in so many ways. But, in others, YOU know, it is right. Let me explain. The discomfort, will fade, because, the truth is, YOU know, what must BE. You know where your HOPE is. That by our Father’s Grace, I must be the KEY to EVERYTHING.  There is such beauty, in HIS eyes. I truly get LOST in them. Just as Debbie Gibson said, as a kid, I would listen and sing. As would I to Susan Ashton, Michael W. Smith, Steven Curtis Chapman, Amy Grant and countless others. I listened and sang to ALL kinds of artists. Even artists now, I listen, sing and pray for them. LOVE. This is how WE can LOVE. A phrase keeps coming to me. “Be the Miracle.”



Jesus sees me, thinking, and He says, “YOU are. JUST by being YOU. WE created YOU ALL, as miracles, and with many miracles within. ” He smiles. He says, There is such beautiful POWER in you ALL. It just has to be pointed, in the right direction. It works BEST, when you ALL work together.” But, even 2 of YOU, make a BIG difference. Suddenly, I see this beautiful familiar face. Jesus smiles. SURPRISE!!!!!! I hear her say, “Hi Momma!” I am so glad, you came to the garden today! Tears. She says,” I know Mamma.”  She goes on to say, but hey guess what, THINGS are GREAT here!!!!! Classes are AMAZING. It is quite busy, in the most beautiful way. So much is coming FULL CIRCLE.” She says, I only had a minute to come by. But, I wanted to come, and give you a hug and a kiss. I LOVE YOU. And, I LOVE daddy David too. Remember THAT. Good things, are coming. WONDERFUL ones. And just like Jesus taught us, He will get you through the tough stuff.”



So I look at Jesus, and say, “That was HIS idea huh? ” He says, “Actually it was Mama and Papa. LOVE But, YES.” WE laugh out loud. Smiles.



Then WE talk about a song. The first one that was playing as I sat down. it is called “Ball and Chain.” The lyrics that stand out to me are these….

“ALL of US have a HEARTACHE. ALL of US, have been STAINED. ALL of US, YEARN for FREEDOM, but THERE’s ONLY one WHO can BREAK, THIS BALL and CHAIN.” (Susan Ashton)

He says, “It is TRUE you know. I AM the ONLY one who can BREAK, EVERY single CHAIN. AND, they WILL fall to the ground, MY LOVE wins. Remember that. As you SHOW, and SHARE my LOVE, GRACE and MERCY, you will see. There is NO DARK, I cannot go, and shine the LIGHT. WE can GO together, and YOU will be SAFE, within ME. YOU’ll SEE.  You don’t have to SUFFER in Silence. ”



That song comes on “Suffer in Silence” (Susan Ashton)  “You don’t have to suffer, Suffer in Silence. I know that the pain can seem like an ocean, but I’m just a word away. ”   So MANY years, I did just THAT. I suffered in silence, YET, HE never left my side. He patiently waited for ME. In fact, HE Never TOOK HIS hands  off my LIFE. I will never forget, the day, WE began to speak again. I was about to be pregnant with Sarah. But, I did not know that. I just knew, I needed HIM. I had become such an ANGRY and bitter child. My heart aches, just thinking of that time. Father, forgive me. Help ME, forgive ME. I was entitled, and quite selfish. And, I had a lot of unforgiveness in my heart. I left the place, where, I was officially born. Because quite frankly, I was TIRED of EVERYTHING there. There were things I loved, and people too. But, I desperately NEEDED something different. And, I sure did FIND it. And how….but GOD.



Who sent ME on that JOURNEY? One word. JESUS. But, I did NOT know then. I just knew, I had to GO. Everyone, tried to talk me OUT of it. I do MEAN EVERYONE. But, I was determined. In some ways, I was just kind of hell bent. But, REALLY I wanted to learn to BEND towards HEAVEN. Because, I knew, if I could do that, things would BE BETTER. Somewhere inside, I had this spark, that just refused to go out. It sure did flicker, and man, it seemed DULL at times, the flame, but it never stopped. Some call it a LIFE force. But, I know, it is HIS LOVE. I know it, because, my heart has stopped before. It is the ONLY time, that the flame, actually did not burn. And it was just for 5 minutes. Grace. Oh my the Grace.. I still carry that scar. But God. His LOVE has marked me.



Jesus says to ME, as I reflect and REMEMBER…. “Memories can be hard to handle. A rollercoaster for you. So let’s so THIS my way. A little at a time. Like taking a bandage off, of a wound.” He touches my heart. JOY, AWESTRUCK WONDER and LIFE fill me, with HEAVENLY electricity and charge. FORGIVE again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, and LIVE again. MORE Grace be upon you. I look up in the sky, and I see shooting stars, and rainbows, and butterflies. I look to the right in the garden, and I see Safari animals. Jesus says, “You know what THIS is about.” I smile. “I keep my promises,” He says.



There was this one situation, weighing on my heart. He knows, I do not like confrontation, or stirring up trouble. But sometimes, it is just inevitable. So, He assures ME, and REassures ME, it is ALL good. “I will give you the words to say. She knows your heart, and mine. It will ALL work out fine. BREATHE.”   I sigh, in relief. And before I can ask HIm. He says, “And those other things, just a matter of timing.”

#comingVERYsoon .  LOVE.


Again, the SONG “Be still and KNOW” comes on. This seems to be a theme. LOVE  He listens with ME. He says, “In the stillness, there is renewal. There is reflection. there is Grace. There is Peace. I am HERE MOST, in the still ness. All the things, you NEVER got to do, can happen, HERE. ALL the wonderful, beautiful, just GLORIOUS adventures, happen HERE. REST in ME, beautiful ONE. I have so GOT this covered. YOU will NOT FAIL.


Psalm 46:10 BE STILL and KNOW, HE is GOD !!!!!!!

In His Grace,






04 Dec 2018

DRessed for Rehearsal

Often, I have no intention of writing. It just kind of spills out on the page. And today, I woke up at 3 am, knowing something. One week from today, life will change again. Tears. I trust God completely. As the song, on the radio, is “My Father’s Hands” (Susan Ashton). Any time I have an ounce of doubt, i hand that over to HIM, and say thank you, for cancelling THIS out. Not because, I am better than someone else. Lord knows, I am NOT. It is simply something, I HAVE to do. And, that I GET to do, by HIS Grace.




I keep asking HIM, Am I ready for THIS. THIS BiiiiiiiiiiiiG thing? And you know HIS answer? “You were made for THIS.” You were made to SHINE my LOVE. Tears. Part of ME, honestly just still doesn’t feel ready. But, do WE ever feel completely ready or even worthy, of letting JESUS use us? so, that I give to HIM to. Yes, just like a stuffed animal, I can’t hold onto. Just like I willingly, gave so MUCH else. He knows. WE have given HIM, EVERYTHING, He has asked for. and, would do it again. Because honestly, it is HIS anyway.



Back to the title of the entry. My husband and I, have ONE major common ground. It is the FUEL that keeps us togethere and going. it is JESUS. That is not something, I say lightly, or from a place, of religiosity. It is a FACT. WE would be NO MORE, without HIM, and in specific, HIS Grace. The tititle, has to do, with what, WE saw. As kids, WE both watched our “families” perform. As adults, we still well, batlle the images at times. Because, in so many ways, it was just horrible. I want to be clear, neither of us, holds any blame. Because, WE know, that YOU can’t give what YOU do not have. Meaning, THEY did what THEY saw. They put on a show, because, they were raised that way. But neither, He nor I, liked it We did not enjoy, looking like, WE were one thing….and BEING another. Have you ever experienced that?



I would bet, that many readers have. Because, there were a few generations, that did this. God used it for good. There is no question. It is just time to stop, and to be more real…



To THIS day, it HAS been something, THAT EVEN though, WE try hard, to BE authentic, diligently break the mold, and do it differently; WE fight. Yet, WE can also REJOICE, and as this song on now “Be still and KNOW He is God” (SCC) . In that stillness, there is healing. There is the reminder, that YOU, nor ANY other single soul, including ANY enemy, will mess up the plans of GOD. They will go forth!!!!! THAT is GREAT news!!!!! You might go through challenges, and difficulties. You will feel like a winner, and at times, a loser. Jesus did too.  And He FEELS with you. That helps me, to REMEMBER that.




Humbling can happen, when WE receive, and when WE give up, or it feels like something is taken. But, NOTHING, is ever really stolen from GOD. Remember, it says, the enemy comes, to steal, kill, and destroy. It never says, he can. It never says, he has that power. It says, he comes, to try. So, WE speak Grace Grace again. WE thank JESUS for victory. The VICTORY He provides to US. Because, HE LOVES US. It IS THAT simple. BECAUSE WE are LOVED, there is HEALING available, and true FREEDOM.



I have times in LIFE, where I miss what WAS. People say, ‘You would not be human , if YOU did not.”  I don’t just MISS what was with Sarah. Contrary, to popular belief… But, just like the last song said, “I just Showed UP for MY Own Life.” (Sara Groves). I can’t stare at OLD reflections. I have to trust GOD, that HIS LOVE shatters the yuck, and restores the GOOD. He always told me, “The fruit, will SPEAK for ITSELF.” That has NEVER been untrue. In EVERY sense….it ALWAYS does.



So ARE WE dressed for REhearsal? Well, this is NOT a performance, like a play, or a film. Yet, it WILL be forfront, and will likelely show UP on stage. It is a REAL and LIVE TRUE PERFORMANCE of HIS LOVE. As the SONG on, “Beyond Justice to Mercy.” (Susan Ashton) This is a FAVORITE of mine, from when I was a child. I sang it, over and over. As I listen to it now. I remember well the lyrics. “THOUGH the distance seems so far. The love that USED to hold our hearts. LONGS to take US BEYOND Justice, to MERCY. Going, MORE than Halfway to FORGIVE.”





As I am listening to THIS….



I see Jesus. And He is taking me through a HALLWAY, of forgiveness. I see MANY faces. And there are check marks. I ask HIM, why the check marks, He nods, and says , “YOU have forgiven them.”  There is another hallway to the left. It is darker. I ask, is that a forgiveness hallway too. He says, “YES, But, it is NOT yours. But you will notice, it has a connector. You see how all the hallways connect?” I stood in awe as yes, they ALL connected. It reminded me, of the scene from the kids film, “Monster’s Inc.” For those, of you, who have scene it. They have doors, that lead to rooms. Well, this was similar. The hallways, were either light or dark. And, JESUS is the door, and the KEY. I tell HIM, about my thoughts, regarding the film. He smiles. He says, “I remember, when WE watched that. The VERY first time, TOGETHER.” Tears. I cry. He knows why.



He says, “You know, she is doing great here. ONE of my VERY best TEACHERS, and student too. wink YOU both DID so well. YOU still ARE doing so well still. WE know it is NOT always easy. Tears. I tell HIM, “I just don’t feel qualified. He says, “Well YOU are not qualified. But, I AM, and I live in YOU. Smile. WE are better together. Always.



Let’s practice… You always said, “Practice makes Permanent, and I make it perfect” He says. He taught me the first part, through a beautiful little angel butterfly. WE were watching a show, called Calliou, and they said something. They had said, “Practice makes perfect.” And Jesus said, “Practice makes permanent, but I make it perfect.” #beautifulmemories



. The next thing I know, there is this HUGE stage. It is beautiful too. Jesus goes to sit, in what looks like a judges seat. Though, He gives me that look. The one, that reminds me, HE is CHEERING me ON, not actually judging ME, per se. So, He sits there, and I see HIM. And He says, “Whenever YOU are ready, My LOVE.” I look to the right, and there are beautiful flowers, all colors, of the rainbow. To the left, the same thing. In Front of ME, Jesus is sitting there, and He is waiting patiently. I begin to sing.



He knows, the song I am singing, is NOT the ONE, I am using. But, He listens, and just enjoys it.  After I finish, He lovingly says, “Again.” Does not fuss at me, or criticize me, or yell at me. I said, ” I did not do the right song.” He said , “YOU can not and will NOT mess this up, my beautiful one.” Tears.

“And HE walks WITH me, and TALKS with Me, and tells ME, I am HIS own. And the JOY we share, as WE TARRY there, none other, has EVER known. ”

It begins….”I come to the GARDEN alone.”

He had come over to me, And Put His arm around me, when He told me I would not mess up. I thanked HIM. I asked HIM, “Why does this seem so hard for ME?” He says, “Because it is NOT how YOU pictured IT would BE. Tears. Oh how true that is.

He shows me, a scene from a film. It is the film, “Steel Magnolias.” In the scene, Sally Fields character, is crying in front of her friends. It is right after her daughter, “passes, dies, goes.” Whatever word, you want to use, she is not physically here anymore. And, this woman, quite frankly is angry. I don’t think she was mad at God. I think she just was ANGRY at the circumstances.



I went through THAT. I sometimes still do. But, I made a choice, and it was this. I chose to feel angry, but NOT Be angry. Jesus says, “You felt like this, and you wanted HER here. That is why, she told you BOTH, the message. Remember, Father sent her early on. She said, “It is critical to STAY surrendered.” She was speaking about, during the season, of BLESSING. “Wow.” I say. Tears I cry. Nothing happening, is a surprise to you. Thank you for the Grace, to carry US through. He smiles, and cries with me. “My pleasure, beautiful One. Truly, you are A gift to ME.”



Jesus smiles again. He says, “Remember singing this hymn, as a child with your mom and dad in church?” I smile. #happymemories. Time with MY VERY best friend. THERE is NOTHING like it. I am so thankful, that HE knows ALL sees ALL, and comforts us in process. Because, LIFE seems to be getting more surreal, not less surreal. And I am choosing, to TRUST HE, is the REAL deal in it. By HIS Grace, WE can BE. He will show up, and things will go, as they should.



My parents are with HIM now. I am grateful, most days, that is the case. Because, I know they are supposed to BE there. Same as MANY I, and WE LOVE, thankful they are safe and sound. God sends people into our lives. Some comes for reasons, seasons and lifetimes. Only JESUS knows, who will be there for a lifetime. WE simply have, to treasure, every moment. Time, is fleeting. In a blink, it is often gone. WE must pray and praise God, for the good and trust in HIM for healing , areas that have been tough or bad. He will, HE never EVER fails. and HIS LOVE absolutely, wins, EVERY single time.




If I speak in tounges of men and of angels, but have not LOVE, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. (1 Corinthians 13:1)


In His Grace,





03 Dec 2018

Let it Snow!!!

Hello 🙂 This entry, is about JOY. It is about joy, in ALL things. Joy, in suffering, trials, and JOY in the successes too. Snow, is beautiful, pure and precious. And, it represents, a cleaning. I remember, as a little girl, I loved to WATCH snow fall down. There was a just AWESTRUCK reaction, I would have. And, I mean…EVERY time, it snowed, I would just BE…OVERJOYED. There was something about it, that just made me, KNOW, LIFE was still good. Somehow, it would get better, and ultimately, I was safe.



Now, it was NOT just the SNOW. This, I know, now. I really LOVED making snow creme, and snowball fights, and sledding. It was the JOY, that needs to BE the focus here! I still marvel, at the GRACE, WE ALL had as kids. I was reading a book recently, and the author, spoke of being a latchkey kid. YES, that was me too. And my brothers as well. I remember growing up, the door was, ALWAYS open. Especially, during the DAYTIME. Now, that would be unheard of. In so many ways, it feels like, it was a “simpler time.” But God.



Was it REALLY a simpler time? Well, it was different. I’m NOT sure, if it was simple. I have learned, and AM learning, that different is good. That in order, to EMBRACE differences, WE must choose LOVE. And, WE are guaranteed, to get fussed at. It’s just an absolute certainty. BUT, we are also guarantied of the SNOW. You see, JESUS gave me another insight, about SNOW. And it means, SECRETS in the NATURAL from an OMNIPOTENT WARRIOR. I remember, that day. I was like, WOW!!!!! I love that JESUS 🙂 It was like, a little kid, had just gotten a new present.



There are some THINGS, you don’t know, until you do. And, some of those things, are tough to process and digest. Be it memories, knowledge, wisdom…..depending on where WE are. It can FEEL, like we “STOP in OUR TRACKS.” I had this happen yesterday. A song came on, while my husband and I were out. He was just enjoying his dinner. This song comes on….and ALL of the sudden. I’m on our glassed in porch, dancing for my Momma. The song, “I Miss you like Crazy.” And my heart is just aching. As ALL the other people, around me, seem to be noticing the cold. I can’t help, but notice, the old.




Eventually, I get the courage to share a bit about, the memory. Knowing, that I might not get the reception, that I’m looking for. And, My husband, just kind of nods. Grace. Oh my, is He a Grace kid. So, I quietly, begin to just break inside. Yet, on the outside, somehow don’t. And, I thank God for the healing. But, am reminded, how HARD choosing, to HEAL, can be. Tears. Yes, LORD….Let is SNOW….We need the healing. We need more JOY and laughter. Tears. This is NOT, what I thought, Happily EVER looked like. Again…but GOd.



DEEP DOWN, I know this is how THINGS must be. But, does that make it EASY? NO! It just doesn’t, my friends. Not sure anyone, ever gets used to being slandered, cut down, overlooked. But God. Grace Grace. His fruit, will speak for itself, EVEN when YOU….or WE cannot. His Fruit of LOVE WILL be present. EVERY single time, HIS LOVE wins.



So many people will mention, to me…”Your daughter is ALWAYS with you.” I have no doubt, that is true. By His Grace, she shows up. In ways, that ONLY HIS LOVE could. But, things are not the SAME. I can’t physically hold her, anymore. And, EVERY single day, I give that ACHE, to JESUS. I thank HIM, for His plans, and that HIS LOVE always wins. I thank HIM, for the joy, pain, sunshine, and rain. Because, He knew then, and knows now, every STEP. He knows, what I , and WE can handle, and what, WE can’t. Grace.



In a movie, I love…there is an important line. The mom, who ends up taking over, because there is a death, says it. She speaks, to the biological mom. She says, “You know, EVERY story, every hurt, EVERY wound.” It is in a film, called “Stepmom.” And, I can so relate, to feeling like, THAT character. But, I find comfort, in the fact that JESUS is the writer, director, producer, best actor, and so much more. HE KNOWS ALL those things too. So, even when WE think WE have just failed, or flubbed up…He knows. And, He is already in process, of making it right. But, oh my, does HIS process, LOOK different. Grace.



This WORLD will NOT hold perfection, or protection. That is found, in ONLY one place. HIS arms. His eyes. In Jesus. ALL of Jesus. Grace Grace needed, as ALL the stuff and yuck tries to stir up. Because, HIS LOVE will stand. That is the command. WE simply MUST LOVE. Love ALWAYS, LOVE often, LOVE even, when it is rejected. JUST LOVE. Because, it is in the LOVE, we can ENJOY the SNOW!!!!! SO, I say… “LET IT SNOW!!!!!”



I encourage you ALL, to engage, and share. The blog, is hopefully to get US all talking, and connecting. My prayer, is that, as HE brings the SNOW….the LOVE will grow. Because, WE definitely are BETTER together. That, is true. Especally, when WE are united, in HIS LOVE. ~~~~~~



I am often, my own WORST critic. Daily, I am still having to , give that up. Because, God says, “I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” And, those are not ONLY words. They are HIS words, of LOVE. So, every day, I am thanking HIM, for the imperfections, or what I see as those. Plus, I am thanking HIM, for the repair too. Grace to grow, heal, and at time be wrong. Thank GOD for that. His Love amazes me.


In the LIFE book….the bible 🙂 There is a book called , “Song of SOngs.” In Chapter 3, it says

On my bed night after night, I sought the one

Whom my soul Loves. ; I sought him but did not find him. v 1-2

Commentary says, the maiden was dreaming. That she was longing, for her beloved.

WE must LONG for Jesus this way….

When Sarah was born, I remember, seeing JESUS in her eyes. Others, would think perhaps, that was not possible. But, it WAS. She looked at me, just for a moment. And, I saw JESUS. I had been searching for years to find HIM. I had looked in MANY eyes, but there HE was. In this precious, litlle angel. And, I was absolutely TERRIFIED. It wasn’t terror, like from a  horror film. It was MORE like FEAR, I had never known. This covergence of HEAVEN and EARTH was there. It was so strange, yet beautiful too. The GRACE present, just leaves me, practically speechless.



Even NOW…it is tough to find words, to describe THAT day. Yet, unlike some I remember SOOOO much. Grace. His Grace is indeed sufficient. #LIVINGPROOF


Be encouraged today, that HIS LOVE succeeeds. 🙂 Even when it looks like, it did NOT, it did. THAT is His promise. SO, let it SNOW! And choose to be awestruck, by HIS LOVE today. ~~~


In His Grace,










18 Nov 2018

ADD ➕ ➖ Subtract ❤️ ~

551976_356879881087543_1016047998_n11250155_10153643998796223_3692579556315771082_nlarge612wpFrT0WL._SX258_BO1,204,203,200_10307200_10152921095957785_5214134257696538820_nHello!  I woke up this morning, hearing “Everything is gonna be alright.  Rockabye. ” It was a comfort to me.  A reminder, Im safe in His arms.  Love❤️ A very OLD song .  But God.  As I prepare for something NEW, yet Old, He does this with ME.  Have you ever walked, down   memory LANE?  Sometimes, it can be, a tough road.  It can be littered with stuff, that can pop up, and hurt . Or,  just get in your shoes, like a pebble that eventually blisters.  It starts out as an irritation.  Can you relate?  Please SAY, I’m not alone in this.. .Because, the last thing, a writer wants ,is to feel alone.  ❤️




JESUS has had to break me of this,  The FEAR of being alone.  Some callings, require, a certain amount, of “alone” time.  And well,  mine definitely does.  I used to be terrified of, ending up alone.  But, one day, I realized, by God’s Grace, that I’ll never be, ALONE. Because, HE is ALWAYS with ME.  In fact, HE, and ALL of Heaven too.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️  Now, that is Great news!





As the song… “Just Be Held” comes on.  Was just speaking about this, on Thursday. You’d think it would not, be hard, to practice what is preached, so to speak.  But, sometimes, it is. Because, to be honest, I still have, VERY hard days.  As “In the Eye of the Storm” plays.    This song a key for me.  Grace needed, just to breathe.  Because, somedays. Wow.  Tears.





The title, of this entry is about what, gets added, or Subtracted to our life.  A few years ago, someone told me, I was learning, about “Catch and release. ” I later had a memory, of playing softball ⚾️ ,as the catcher.  I would practice, with both my parents, separately.  Never knowing then, what I know now.  I was just grateful, for the time. I’m still, honored, by the memory.  But now, I see, God was teaching me more.  About catching the good, throwing out all the negative and icky stuff.  Subtract the yuck➖ ➖ ➖ Such a simple concept, by His Grace.  Just Love.  ❤️  ➕ ➕ ➕ ➕ ➕ ➕ ➕ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️





I realized very young, that I was an inquisitive child.  ❤️ My biological mother, said, “You ask “500 ” questions a day. ” Now probably not that many.  But, you get it.  It was a lot.  A BIG Lot!  I wondered about EVERYTHING! ! ! I kind of became addicted to “wanting to know. ” And there was some danger in that.  But, oh my, did I get Grace to try and figure things out.



From a VERY early age… I began trying to be creative. Not exactly technical.  I fell more into, arts and entertainment.  Yes. Give me a stage, and I was home. ❤️  I loved to perform.  Because it brought people joy!  And somewhere along the way, the temporary  addiction of “wanting to know” became a NEED. It got like obsessive.  And I was not trusting God, with the plan.  This was in my late teens early 20’s.



I still Loved Jesus. I still Loved the whole Family of God.  But, I felt so disconnected. At age 23, my biological mother, went Home to Jesus.  And my world, dramatically changed.  I left my home town, to try, and find a new way. But, that didn’t last long.  Then, I left a second time.  This time, I did not return.  And, on this leg ,of the journey, I met my AMAZING husband. ❤️  And Sarah was born .





Add and Subtract.  Yes.  Love ❤️ does that.  It definitely does.  No question. Grace Grace.  Is it easy?  No way.  The song.  “At the Cross” ( Chris Tomlin). ”  At the cross, at the cross,  I surrender my life… ” Yes… That.  Every SINGLE moment, of EVERY single day. With every Single breath.  #unitedbytheloveofheaven ❤️



“Here my hope is found.  Here on Holy ground.  Here arms open wide.  Here you saved my life.  ” (CTomlin)



His GRACE is sufficient ,and POWER is perfected in our weaknesses.  Today, is NOT… My strongest day.  But, may HIS ❤️ shine ✨ brightest ,because of His perfect Grace.



Much Love ❤️ to You ALL ~


In His Grace,





10 Nov 2018

~Heavenheart ~ ❤️

10274071_10154554801292785_1555357345691557540_n-jpg111129685_656792487797902_6048249048155838229_n19693_491506860886978_1220456359_n1024_1069125859787707_7567550745995162315_nFor a few days now, I’ve been reflecting on what to write about.  I asked for a sign ➗ . It had to be one, that ONLY made senses to ME.  Because, that’s just how Jesus and I are.  We walk together and talk together.  Always.  It’s like this constant dialogue, never ceasing.  And, most of the time, it’s awesome .  But, sometimes, it can be challenging. I’ll explain a bit more ➕ on that.  ❤️



Everyone has things, God gives them, that are gifts .  In fact, today in Sunday school , that was a hot topic.  The main discussion was on service.  The question at hand, simple.  Are we, natural servants?  Then, Are we serving for God?  I’d hope the answer is… Yes.  But, honestly, it depends… where WE are… with God.  ~~~



One thing I have learned, about Grace is…. Everyone who is in Christ can be at the same place, because of Christ’ s Love.  Yet, also, AT very different places , because of the individual walk with Christ.  Jesus is truly, Grace personified. ❤️  And when WE take the time, to sit with Him, and get to know Him, it changes us, and His heart unites with ours.  It is a B E A utiful thing!!! ! ❤️ ~~~



Now, it is NOT however, ALWAYS, a super EASY thing, to do.  It takes consistently, making a choice… Daily.  In fact, moment to moment, for His ways and plans.  I want, the music of Heaven, instead of this world.  This world is way more chaotic.  Whereas that of Heaven is melodical and just precious, in every way.  But, not always simple to listen to.  Sometimes hurts my ears , and I have to press pause, on occasion. ❤️



Our job, is to Love.  ❤️  It seems like, a simple thing…




Today… Under the rainbow ☂ I sat, with my King. My favorite Lion. I could lay, with Him forever.  He makes Me Brave. Strong . He reminds me, to be silly. . Yet, astounds ME still, ALWAYS. This warrior, ⚔ is His child . Surrounded, by angels .  I can come HERE, broken feeling, beyond repair.  And, He says, “You are So perfect. ”




I’m looking ✉️ up at Him, like… “Huh? !!?! ? I sure don’t feel like I , AM perfect… In Soooooooo many ways… I have Never felt More messed up.”




Buckets of   tears   fall…. He catches them… ALL.  Yes, it could definitely, make a river, dear friends.  I wonder will they end. Grace.




He tilts my face up, and He says, “My idea of Perfect is You being YOU.  And YOU, are a PERFECT, YOU. Oh, how I LOVE ❤️ You.  Thank you, for being You. ”




Wow.  The precious and pure. Love ❤️ of Jesus.

To Him, We are perfect, just AS we are.  ❤️





We come, as always with repentant hearts , choosing to receive the Love ❤️, with Joy .  Thank you, Family of God.  Heavenly Father, Holy Spirit, and Beautiful Jesus, for Loving us, so much.  ❤️  We so appreciate you.  Grateful for wisdom, guidance, strength and everything we are given, in this journey.  We love ❤️ you.  In Jesus name, and blood. Amen.  ~~~



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The Greatest of these IS Love ❤️


In His Grace,

E ~





04 Nov 2018

Blood type C ➕ (GomustWE)

  1. 551976_356879881087543_1016047998_nimages12166887_10207993635856946_547456957_n11108861_1132512883430491_1931539974716697360_n184414_10151642914512863_1045860989_n10527370_10152605851838879_2057460581450348634_nResizeImageHandlerWhen I was a child… I was not super great, at math. At best, if i worked really hard, i might get a b ➕. On a test, with tutors, if i got an A, or an A ➕, it was, completely… 100% God. Because, yeah a math scholar, not my natural gift. If it was an English test, or Literature. Yes!! !!  ❤️ ~



Then, we fast forward to MANY years later…. When I meet my… Phenomenal Genius, husband. Yes, He is ✅ check..  an Aspergian Superman, by the Grace of God. He is Funny, and beyond infinitly smart. Stupidly smart, I might add. ❤️ To someone, like ME, that can bring challenges. But God… ~




You SEE. My blood type, is C ➕. It is Christ, ➕ the Heavenly Father and Holy Spirit. ❤️ I have Heaven, in my DNA. I am divinely made, to BE. So is my David, and WE are united, to be together, in unity, by Grace. ❤️ Beautiful. Yes. ❤️ Easy. Not always. My husband thinks, quite different 👑 than me. Yet, by God’s grace, WE can find 🔍 the same page.  ❤️




Today, the hot topic, was mission fields. And, we were reminded, that it is simple. Everwhere is, a field of mission. Because, everywhere needs, Love. ❤️ And that, mission begins, when WE open 👐 our eyes, each day.  ~


“We must Go “~~~ to quote Tim Hughes ” Live to feed the hungry, stand beside the broken. We must go. Stepping forward… Keep us from just singing, move us into action, WE must go. ” ~




A few years ago, at WMC, (Westminster Chapel) we did a project with Sarah. It was to make a piggy bank. It was a green one. Like a tourquoisy, green. I have a picture of her and me. We used glitter paints, and had a blast making it. It was to put coins in. We filled it, and gave it to the church. The purpose, for families, who needed food. I believe maybe, a food bank. ~~~




#beautifulmemories ❤️




This is what Jesus, does for US. He fills US, when we allow, Him to. My prayer that WE release the yuck, to Him. Today, WE receive the new. In Jesus name. I could use some good? How bout you?




We come asking, for something better. Choosing to give up, the bad. With repentant hearts. Heal us Lord. By your grace. In Jesus name. ❤️




In His Heart,




28 Oct 2018

Child of Wonder ~ 💫💌👓💫

19693_491506860886978_1220456359_njesus loves me brightarticle-0-18F3722200000578-71_634x360Where to begin today. Well, let’s start with this? Did you ever WONDER…if YOU…are WORTHY of LOVE?!?!? Because, for whatever REASON…I have much time to WONDER. Call it reflection, call it, really whatever word you like, in kind. Smile. Because, the simple FACT is…JESUS is ALWAYS on my MIND….



And, that means ❤️  LOVE is…. YET… I have TRULY battled, with THIS question. And, NOT just for myself….either. Grace needed. And, ” A little patience please.” To quote my FAV film, from this year… “THE SHACK.”




The SONG on …. “When I’m back on MY FEET (Michael Bolton) again” YES…that. TEARS. Not from sorrow. BUT … JOY. It is VERY SURREAL, to LIVE this LIFE. At times, it is hard to explain. Almost constant FIRE and ICE, it seems. YET… GRACE remains. Smile . I am…a CHILD at HEART. I am HIS child of WONDER, and hers too. How bout you? What do YOU wonder about?





Do YOU wonder about SILLY things…or BIG ones? Are you dreaming BIG or SMALL? The song, now…. ” YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING.”  (Jodie Watley) And I sit before my KING…listening to HIM…sing …and I sing… we sing…together. LOVE #singingwithJESUS ❤️





Sometimes in LIFE….it FEELS like the RUG gets pulled OUT. It FEELS like YOU are DOWN, for the COUNT. YOU are at a LOSS. Total. GRace comes in. ☂ Rain  comes down. Somehow….YOU are YOU again, when THEY said, it COULD NEVER BE. His LOVE….comes through again… ❤️ ❤️ ❤️



” Do you Remember” (Phil Collins) So loved THIS song…. Sang it over many. Always with a desire, for OTHERS to HEAL. Never knowing, the depths, of WHAT would come. For ME or THEM. Tears. The NEVERENDING STORY, of Heaven’s LOVE. The gift, goes on. .. ❤️





Grace Grace. Such GRACE in THIS place. To HEAL, to imagine, to create. Grace to get it right and wrong, in the SAME breath it seems. Grace to SEE our DREAMS come true. . Because, they are HIS DREAMS too!!!!! ” Don’t know MUCh, but I know I love YOU.” (Linda Rondstadt, and Aaron Neville) Exactly that…. I sing to JESUS. The song of my HEART, is He. My heartbeat too. NOt just a word, unto me. Soooooooooooo much MORE!!!!!!








Next song … ” I wanna TELL the WHOLE Wide World About YOU” (A’me Lorain) ~~~ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

THIS is how I FEEL about HIS LOVE!!!! I say THIS to HIM.



Picture this…



On the Bench. Rainbows  in the sky. Stars bursting ✨  ALL around. The bench is pink. It has green legs. I’m just sitting there, chatting with MY LOVE. ❤️  ANd, we are practicing singing too. There is HEALING taking place. He embraces ME. These words, with HIS eyes. His GAZE…a Mezmorize.





“HOLD ON” ~ ” TO ME….beautiful ONE. I have got YOU. and, YOU are doing so GREAT. Breathe. Rest. Recieve. Let my LOVE be YOUR waterfall. LOve ME…I will LOVE YOU. Just as WE always have. Different, but same. You know this refrain. LOve, beautiful one. Oh, how I LOVE you. Smile. lightning strikes , the ground beside me. I will fight for YOU. Be still.” ~~~ ❤️





Like a SCENE…from the  LION KING. I am in AWE and wonder again. Oh my BESTESET  friend EVER!!!!! GIves me a NEW day every day. LOVE. His ways, so WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYA!!!!!!!Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤️



In His Grace,


24 Oct 2018

Strength Meter ~ ⌛️ 🕐 💞 💔 🚆

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Today… I’m writing about, a tough topic, for me.  Strength.  People, are always saying, “You are Soooooooo strong. ” And my reply, ” I don’t Feel strong. ” So what is the strength meter?  What is yours?  I mean… Life throws Lots… At US.  As A kid, I’d look up… And think… ” Can’t WE catch a BREAK?! !?! ” As an adult that became a MUCH more ➕ angry. . Thought.   And EVENTUALLY… I would begin to 🎓 the critical lesson, of the IMPORTANCE of SURRENDER.




Oh that WORD SURRENDER ,cuts… Like a knife 🔪 for so many.  And honestly, still can for me.  But God….




What kind of challenges, and trials, can WE endure???

Health challenges…

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Spouses health challenges

Healed of Many Diseases.  Just diagnosed with Aspergers, and yet, doing amazingly well.



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Children health challenges…



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Sarah… Healed from AML Leukemia… And yet…

Jesus still chose to take her Home.  Because, it was Time 🕐  We know this.  But does it stop the pain.  No.




Parental Health Challenges…

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Both… Went Home to Jesus..



Sibling Health Challenges…



Do you see a pattern?

But God…



As the song… Oh my Soul… Comes on..

And the Lyric… “you’re not alone”

Plays ❤️




Life is Really tough…

And that… Is putting it mildly…

It is MEANT to Challenge US….



It is MEANT to BE an EDUCATION. I used to wonder, if I was born into, the correct family.  The right one.  It is FULL of teachers.  I mean, EVERY single 🌹 GEnErAtion has at least, 1 or more.  Usually many… Teachers. And so, I didn’t want to. I was pretty much, kinda hell beant against it. And I rebelled against it, for a VERY long time. Until one day, I remembered something. My precious Mama Sarah, who gave birth to me, said to me, “Katy, You teach in everything you do.  Your Life is your testimony. ” I will NEVER forget those words. In so many ways, they sort of, haunted me, for a while….




But, now. They truly, strengthen me. What is my strength?  Love. What is that name? Jesus. I’m not trying to convince others. I’m just telling you, I’ve been in really dark places.  He is the only rescue.  Period.  And, did I find out, the hard way.  But God.~~~




Last night. On the three year anniversary ,of my heart 💞 stopping for five 🕠 minutes ,we opened up, our sweet butterfly 👐 👼 angel’s ashes for the very, first time.  What I felt… Peace.  We had the tools.  There was quiet music, in the background.  Interesting to me, my husband, chose to sprinkle a bit, over a plant in the yard, that was dying.




I believe in New Life. I believe in New Growth. These ashes are about love, life, and so much more.  It was time, to do this.  We both knew it.  And, somehow, WE had the strength, and tools needed.  Did it feel good?  Well… It felt right.  We always said, “She’s His first and ours… Second. ” We truly never dreamed, we would be tested ,on that. Yet somewhere WE probably knew…




There’s another song…

“One boy… One girl.. 2 hearts beating wildly, to put it mildly, it was Love at first Sight.  He smiled She smiled.  They knew right away.  This was a love they had waited for all their lives.  And for a moment, the whole world, revolved, around one boy, and one girl.  ” ( Colin Raye)




We want to Thank Everyone… For ALL the LOVE and Support ❤️

It REALLY matters to US…

We have REALLY felt it…

We know WE are not perfect… And have definitely been VERY emotional. Please Forgive US, for ANY offenses that may have occurred… Known or Unknown.  We LOVE you ALL, so MUCH.  And,  WE so desire, the mending of Fences, with the Love, and compassion and understanding. ❤️

Faith.. Hope.. And Love… 🔑 🔑 🔑




The Greatest of these… Love… ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️


In His Grace,


E ~







19 Oct 2018

The JESUS show 📺 ❤️ 😇 💐🐛

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My favorite place, to sit with Jesus is… The Garden.  ~~~


Picture this : A 12 year  ~ old me, with my hair in ponytail.  I’ve been outside playing, climbing trees and jumping rope.  My body is tired, but resilent,  as most children ‍‍‍ are.  My clothes are dirty and grungy. And I walk in, to His garden.  I’m feeling like, I really should have, come under the waterfall.  You know, to clean off.

Then… I SEE Jesus.  And suddenly , EVERYTHING is CLEAR, and CLEAN.  I look down at my clothes.  Suddenly, I have this, beautiful dress on.  And, my old clothes are, being washed by “local angels. ”  I’m in AWE as, I see NEW clothes.

It’s like a scene, from Cinderella. You know the one, where the fairy godmother, gives HER New clothes.  But, the difference is, the NEW clothes Jesus gives, STICK.  So as I feel my hair, drawn up in this beautiful bun, like a ballerina.  I realize it’s TIME 4 Jesus Talk.  ❤️

Miraculously , I can hear Jesus.  Not just in quiet, but in noise too.  Because, the world gets quite ramboncious. I sit down, next to Jesus.  As He motions for me, and pats his hand on the bench.  Hmmm the bench.  I’m feeling a few nerves inside, like butterflies.

Without words, being spoken.  Jesus just looked my direction ↘️, and my clothes changed.  I got a NEW outfit, just from a glance.  The power in His eyes.  The LOVE ❤️ that resides there. ~~~



He begins to say,

“I know you’re feeling MANY emotions.  But, remember that surrender is KEY.  Rest dearone. Choose to wait but not, be weighted down, by the challenges around you. My Love is bursting through, EVERY barrier.  Remember , that I will NOT fail, you or ANY of my children.  You will NOT be dropped.  You are a treasure, unto ME.  You matter.  I’ve chosen you.  I call you by NAME. You are MINE. Choosing MY path, in FULL is a process.  You are doing well, and I see, every detail.  I hold your heart.  It is united with mine.  I am bringing healing, restoration and Freedom.  Receive, my beautiful one.  ”


I sit before my King.  I touch my crown.    I feel the rainbow sparkles, and it strengthens me.  His promises.  I cry, yet my Heavenly makeup does not smudge.  He holds me.  He reaches out, a jar to catch my tears.  He smiles….  ❤️


He looks up at me, after gently tilting my face towards Him.  And, then He takes a DEEP breath.  He blows, tenderly in my face.  And says,  “Refreshment, my beautiful. ” ❤️


He continues to say, “I have made promises, and I will keep them.  Because, I Love ❤️ you.  You will NOT ,mess this up, my beloved.  ”

I start to hand Him, my crown.  And He says, “No precious.  The crown must stay.  There is a beauty, for the ashes ⚱ coming forth.  Humility. The sparkle and ✨ shine, of MY Love. You are worthy, simply because I, say so.  I, the Lord have Spoken.  ”


I’m so Lovestruck, by every ounce, of His heart.

Today, the story changed a bit.  Yet, to He who holds, EVERY chapter, it is, THE SAME.  ~~~


Grace Grace… Unto princess Elea, from my King.  As He prepares me for a NEW birthday.   ~~~


My God shall supply ALL our needs.  Mine, Yours and ALL of ours, who belong to the King.  Thank you Jesus, Heavenly Father and Holy Spirit.  You are Love. ❤️ Through you, WE are LOVE.  Thank you for healing hearts, minds, and bodies.  Only YOU can. We come with repentant hearts, receiving.  With JOY, we celebrate you.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️


In Jesus Love,

~E ~


01 Oct 2018