Hallmark v/s Horror

Hey you guys!!!!! In my best Goonies, voice. Laughing….

And, I believe they said IT on the electric company too. Today, Jesus says it, to US. Yes, THIS is US. Life, is a HALLMARK film, with pockets, of horror. Not by my design. I would choose the FIRST one, never the second. At least, NOT on purpose. But God.

As the song, “He knows MY Name” comes flowing in. It is like a boxing match between the beautiful and serene. And, of course, the complete opposite, to extremes. JESUS is the referee. Every single sport, same. Fun and games? Well, yes and NO.

Why? It is simple. JESUS says. Remember games, as a kid? What kind did you play? Is there a favorite, coming back 2 you, today? My favorite, then…WAS Hide and SEEK. It seemed WE would play, with every kid, on the block. It would get DARKER around US, yet WE did NOT care. We just wanted to keep on playing.

No ONE worried about horror, interrupting. There was simply, JOY…every single TIME, WE found someone! And, THEN, there was a tinge of disappointment, when WE were found. Do you REMEMBER? I do…I do…bet YOU do too. It SEEMS like it WAS a simpler time. And I guess in some ways, it was.

But in OTHER ways, there was just as much congestion and traffic jams. Not to mention, here and there in atmosphere; SMOG. In every city, there is pollution. There WAS then, and now. Yet, the solution, is the SAME. For EVERY single, math equation in LIFE, JESUS actually IS the answer.

He requests to BE invited, into our messes. He humbly seeks to be PART of “our universe.” And, when we ALLOW Him IN, yes there IS CHANGE. There IS most definitely a REARREANGE in furniture.

I used to, when i “GOT into TROUBLE” get sent, to my ROOM. While IN there, I encountered a lot. I would rearrange the furniture, and clean up the space. Eventually, my parents would forget about ME. And when it got dark, I would realize the door…opened. I would then, go find them. and I wanted to BLESS them. I truly wanted to make them smile.

The desire, was to calm the fire of disobey, and disarray. Yet, rarely was there a great response, in kind. Most of the time, it was a blow off, it seemed. So, the next day, though I tried…cycle, continued. I cried a lot. I felt disconnected, from the others.

Especially my brothers, though we could play games. That WAS our safe space. Did you play Monopoly? How bout Clue. Or Atari? Nintendo, then? Games were NOT about winning. They were about connections. Each game had a specific direction.

From heaven 2 EARTH, with JOY…

This entry jumped a bit. Jump rope, roller skates, and ice skates. Fun galore. THIS is what is IN store, from heaven 2 earth.

Yet, WHAT IS it WORTH 2 you? To ME?

What is the EVERYTHING here?

When I was a child…I thought like a child. I fought like one too. Now, I bless the children around US. There is a CHILD in me, and a CHILD in you.

1 Corinthians 13:11

Many Blessings to you,

Elea and Fam

14 Mar 2020

Waiting for Warmth

Hi everyone. It has been a while, since writing in this neighborhood. Smiles.

I began writing at 439, this morning. It is now 6:10 am. And, I am only now, bringing it forth, by GRace. And it is funny, because instead of mad, I am beginning to laugh. And yall, THAAT has been a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time coming.

Quite frankly, it has been a combination of things, today. One challenge, is the NEED to FOCUS. You SEE LAZER focus on JEsus, is simple. In some contect, it means you WILL get interrupted. Is that hard for you? Do you FEEL your time is precious, or fleeting?

In life, it is often tough, to appreciate each moment. Because, it seems EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is VYING for our time. Some, lie and manipulate, JUST to get it. Yes, that is this world.

WE only RENT time, while our heart beats. WE definitely do NOT own it, NOR can WE control it. Contrary to a popular belief, that it BELONGS to US. Because yall, like it or NOT. EVERY single solitary thing, including TIME, has been given to JESUS.

Though the clock in heaven is different. Jesus showed me one time, that it always says twelve. Heavenly crews are on CONSTANT clean up duty. Because have you noticed, this world can be pretty dirty. Laughing…because is THAT not the understatement of the century?

The title of this BLOG came into process, in 2018. For those of you, who follow this NEVERENDING story… THAT was the year JESUS made me whole!!!! There was a promise made to me, in 2015. And that year, in July it was fulfilled.

Have you ever had promises fulfilled to you? Or, have you LIVED a life, full of so many broken promises? Because, for ME, this particular ONE, was and IS Key. Waiting for warmth… that was ME. In some ways, it switched. On July 12, 2018 the warmth came. And now, I am aware of the cold. Yet, it does not, SWAY me, as it once did!

YAY for that!!!! So grateful to God, for Grace to heal.

WE ALL have that available. IT is a BEAUTIFUL gift! Yet, who receives it with joy?!?!

I know, it has been an adjustment, HERE to wake up to Grace.

Many are still waiting for warmth. Our hearts go out to them. WE pray for them….often.

Yet, WE are NOT the Saviour. WE never EVER will BE….

When people make comments, like such and such is literally “Jesus” , often the meaning is… JESUS is the heart, of that person.

And should that NOT be the goal. TO surrender our STUFF, to JESUS? Because, I can PROMISE, that is when the REAL healing, begins.

There is so much to say, on this topic….

But for now, I will tell YOU….

That obeying right away, to JESUS leading… is a path to FREEDOM, never knowing that, at a young age. Yet, suspecting the truth. Turned down, everytime, that page of the book…of LIFE was opened. But GOD.

The song on… “What’s my age again” (Blink – 182) When I looked up, the number 182…in the bible. It had, and HAS very much significance to ME.

I encourage you, to seek about and find the wisdom. There is GRACE always to learn, grow and create… up to a point.

I feel today, the scripture, that keeps coming to ME, is

CREATE in ME (and US) a NEW heart (transformed, connected to HEAVEN, LIVING WHOLE)

and RENEW a RIGHT spirit in me. ( and ALL of US)

Psalm 51:!0

Love you all, and I will return, as I can.


Elea and Family

05 Mar 2020

NO MORE – Dark Heart

When I was a little girl, I LOVED the Care Bears. Like most children, I would look for things, that interested me. And helping others, was always of interest; still is. I remember thinking, hey THEY care. When…NO One else seemed to…

Have YOU ever felt like that? That NO ONE CARES?!?

For ME, this LIE was planted, very early.

I’m not sure, 100% what convinced me, to believe it. I just recall, that everytime, I spoke… NO ONE appeared to care.

Every single moment, I would SEARCH for care. I wanted to SHARE. Because, like the movie says, “SHARING IS CARING.”

What I would share, was often mocked or criticized. Often, it was dismissed.

So, THIS you would think, would STOP me, from trying to SHARE.

And sometimes, it DID temporarily…

It caused me, at age 14, to be so depressed. That began, and gradually got…so much worse.

I didn’t understand, that my life…in and of itself, was a reflection too.

It was a reflection, of the state of my heart.

And it was really fighting, wanting to CARE.

I began to say… “I don’t care. And, then… I had NO IDEA, how sad that made Jesus.



The MORE, I received, the REJECTION… the MORE depressed, I felt.

And when I tried to ask, for help… I was silenced.

How many times, does this happen? A child asks for a need, to be met. And, because it IS inconvenient, it gets ignored.

It causes, game playing, and silliness, like acting out. Because, there is a desire, for the need being met, that ignites the FIRE of FEAR.

I remember, as a child, I loved manipulation. Let me be clear, I was not trying to be evil, or even have a bad intent.

I simply, was TERRIFIED, my DEEP NEEDS, would NEVER be MET.

Can YOU relate to that?

Being afraid, that even GOD Himself, would not meet, your need.

I’m not talking about FOOD, Clothes, shelter.

Although, I have questioned that too…

What I AM speaking OF, is this…

Everywhere I searched, instead of CARE, I often found dark hearts. Hearts, that did not have, their needs met, and could NOT meet mine. Many of which, would NOT even try.

They said…. “YOU are TOO Much for ME. Or, YOU are NOT MY KIND of person. Or, one person… that is now with JESUS… said, “YOU NEED a LOT of LOVE.”

I am 43 years OLD, and every day, I live and breathe IS FULL of miracles. SO many reasons why. The number one being, that JESUS saved my LIFE. He SAVES it every single day.

Usually I listen to music, when I write. But today is a NEW YEAR, and I am doing something NEW. I am using NEW avenues. I am chasing Heavenly adventures.

I am CHOOSING JOY, a NEW. Last year was strange, in a lot of ways. There was a LOT of HAZE cleared out. And I saw HEAVEN deeply meet needs, that no ONE person ever could.

THIS year, I can stand and say…

THE ONE thing, that NEVER ever changed, with all of MY forest of feelings…

is JESUS. HIS LOVE for ME has been a CONSTANT.

I was taught, the ONLY thing constant is change. However, I believe MORE each day, the way, I first began. Before, I got discouraged, and depressed. I am not saying, I NEVER have BIG Feelings.

Sometimes, I have HUUUUUUUUGE feelings. I just do NOT allow those feelings, to CONSUME me.

Life is HARD, wonderful, beautiful, and even magical.

NOt necessarily….in THAT order.

But at 33, I was called in a new way. And just now, I am realizing, that was 10 years ago today…

And thank GOD for HIS Grace….

Even to receive…

I rejected, a lot more B4 I chose reception. The frequencies, for crossed LOTS. And man, was there much misunderstanding. BUT GOD.

I pray that as I, and WE share…

That JESUS bring Heaven…from there to here….and HERE to there. Smiles.

Sometimes, people won’t get it…and sometimes THEY will.

For the first time, in a LONG time… I do CARE.

I surrender, the yuck from the past. I TRUST God with it…

and, I know that there is REPAIR taking place.

In Jesus name.

I encourage YOU, to sit with JESUS. I encourage YOU to talk with HIM, and walk with HIM. Because, when the WORLD does NOT CARE, you can REST assured, that HE does.

I CARE about your heart.

I AM so SORRY it has BEEN torn apart.

Sending YOU LOVE today. I will NOT be afraid.




Choosing RAINBOW Instead.

Standing on the promise of LOVE.

As I rest my weary head.

Grace surrounds and abounds.

Mercy too.

For ME and YOU.


Eccelciastes 3:11 He will MAKE everything beautiful, in its TIME.

02 Jan 2020

Together 4Eva ~

Hi Everyone ❤️  I didn’t Realize it, but I guess I’ve been fasting my writing a bit.  And the first song to come on, is… “The Highway Don’t Care” (Tim McGraw)  Yep…  The lyrics are the Hyway don’t care, but I do I do.  And I just keep thinking bout my favorite 🔖 thing to say.  #Everydayinheavenisoppositeday.  And you guys… Heaven’s Hyway cares!!!!  You can REST assured of THAT!!! Jesus cares ❤️  About EVERYTHING concerning YOU!


I had another name, for this entry 🚪 ALL picked out, and it got changed.  Just rearranged… Like 💗 gone from my brain.  In Life… You find 🔍 out who your friends are, and JESUS is the BEST friend, you can HAVE!!!!  I had no idea, where he was going, with this entry.  But, I guess He wanted to tell you guys, about times, where I fell down, and got back up.


Like a car, thst ran out of gas.  And He was my gas.  Here is a great one.  I was pregnant with Sarah.  About 5.5 months.  We were headed to a time share for respite.  My doctor said that was important. Well my love was pretty stubborn then.  Some things, are a challenge to change. But oh God is good.  He is a humbler.  I advised him to get gas.  I had wisdom, that there wasn’t a station ⛽️ for miles.  But, he didn’t listen.  Thank God for Grace.  He was so panicked woke me up, durning near 1:30 in the am.  I told him, it would be fine.  I assured him, God would not let us down.  And He didn’t.  God sent us help.  He brought angels to follow us, to to the gas station.  They didn’t even want to take the seed money.  But God.  #sometimesangelsaredisguisedwithLove ❤️

We ALL have challenges in life.  We have pain, wounds, difficulties, and trials.  We are promised to have these things.  But, by the grace of God.  Key word, 🔑 GRACE we can overcome them… Through Jesus.  There have been Soooooooooo many times, I’ve just thought 💬 of His name, and He has come through.  He is THAT powerful!!!!! He will show up, show OUT, you can count on it!!!!


This is a time, like NEVER before, that the LOVE ❤️ is flowing. And it’s an honor, to be and say…. Together forever WE are.  2 peas in a pod.  To quote a great film “We go together like peas and carrots. ” Anyone want to guess what film it is? 😊




Que… Jeopardy theme song 🎵 …


Okay… Time for the answer…


It was “Forest Gump”


I hear Jesus saying today,  Come up into my arms, they are safe.  I will take you to old, and new places.  There is healing here.  We can climb trees, do puzzles, watch movies, and so much more.  There is much to explore!  My arms 💪 are strong.  I will carry you, ALWAYS  and never weary.  For, I Love ❤️ you.  Will you let me drive for a while?

Funny, recently I had to go before God and apologize.  Because, not that long ago, I realized something. I had gotten upset, about Him holding my memories.  I felt like they were stuck.  You know like, when you’re trying to get something, to come out or something, and it just won’t?  Picture, trying to buy something from a vending machine, or pull out something from a file, and it’s just missing, but it was there once.  It’s often frustrating.  Yet, you know God has it ALL covered.  Because HE owns EVERY single book. 📚  So, again… I had to say, sorry.  And when I did…. Wow.


Jesus sure has been coming through.  I finally began to understand, why He held my memories.  You see, God sees EVERYTHING. He knows what WE can handle, and what we cannot.  He knows, just when to bring something back to us.  ❤️

Like just now, the song… “Drive” was on.  I thought about the first time I learned to do that.  My mom taught me.  She took me out in the middle of nowhere.  And I would often, get distracted.  But, I still love, to drive… Because she taught me.  #beautifulmemories ❤️

I hope this has had something in it, that blesses you, encourages you, and lifts you up.  This is a new season.  Lots of transitions, and changes.  And beauty, is coming forth.  ❤️

We are REALLY seeing the goodness of God.


In 1 Chronicles 16: 34 it says to ” Give thanks to the Lord my God, for His mercy endures forever. ”


And that’s absolutely true!  We do ❤️  We are so VERY grateful.


In His Grace,

Elea and Family










17 May 2019

Second Chances ~ Heavenly Glances

I have said this before, and I don’t mean to be redundant. But, LIFE on earth, FROM Heaven’s view is quite different. You have different discussions, and plans. Because, your heart, EVERY single day, MUST GROW more surrendered. It must BE MORE about JESUS, not LESS. If it is NOT, well, you can create your own, torment. MANY know what that looks like. And, there is a FINE LINE, between suffering, and just torture. SOME are LIVING in utter TORTURE. IT is SO VERY SAD. You know they are in that place, because, ANYTIME you speak to them, they almost always get…”defensive.” I sometimes get defensive. Usually this happens, when I have, chosen a negative choice, in the past. And, I have not yet…FULLY forgiven myself for it.

So, IF an individual is constantly defensive, that is a major clue. THERE is a LOT of UNFORGIVENESS present. Funny, I did not know, this is where God was taking this today. But hey…it’s HIS story, and He writes it. I have always just been the typist. Or in some cases, the psalmist, or scribe. Smiles. It really is an honor, to work with Jesus. He started out showing me something this morning.

I saw these shadows. They were not really dark shadows. Just kind of figures. And, they were near manaquins. The Lord showed me, most stand in the shadows. They go in and out of the REALLY dark. And the manaquin part. That was interesting. He said, they are often immovable, because their hearts, have grown cold. So, I asked HIM, what moves them. He said, “LOVE and suffering.”

I thought to myself, “How sad.”

He can hear my thoughts, and He sad, “Well you could see it that way. But it’s actually good that healing can happen. ALWAYS choose to SEE the good. Pain will come and go. But the GOOD and my LOVE, will NEVER ever LEAVE, nor END. And as you SEE it, YOU will be made NEW. ~

24 Mar 2019

Just Between Us

Hi Everyone ,

This was a post, I  made on my FB page.  And someone dear to me, asked me to share it here ..  Blessings to you ALL ~ 💐


“Just between Us”

A child sits with Jesus. Looks up and says, Jesus, “Why is there pain? ” Jesus pauses, and then says, “There are many tools in the world. ”

The child, begins to cry. And then says, that one hurts. Jesus, places His arm, around the child’s shoulder. He then says, ” I know, precious. I know. ”

The child continues to cry, as Jesus is catching the tears. And the child looks up again. And, this beautiful child says, “why does I’m sorry, sometimes not get said? ” Jesus begins to cry too. And the child realizes something. The child realizes, people, are not saying sorry to Jesus… either.

This time, the child, puts an arm around Jesus.

You SEE… When WE are hurt, Jesus is hurt. When WE feel, He feels.

This is why, we should not make decisions, or choices from an emotional place.

#Lovealways ❤️


The Greatest of These is LOVE ❤️ 💫💜💌💝💛💞

21 Mar 2019

Above the WATER

Wow, this feels so foreign. It is a different time of day. It is an OLD tool. There appear to be lots of distractions, happening. I look at the clock, and it says, 9:10. When it was EARLY this morning, my usual time… I had NO peace about writing. If YOU are a writer, you understand, there is a TIME to write. Mine is usually then. Oh, but GOD. He sure, has been changing things up lately. Smiles. 9, is DIVINE perfection of the heavenly Father. That means. WE cannot MESS it up, you guys. Isn’t THAT a relief? 🙂 10. THAT is TESTIMONY. Oh, is HE building MORE of that, every single day. His LOVE Amazes ME.





Perfection to US, is SO different than it IS to God. To US, perfect means, NOTHING goes wrong. But, To Jesus…and in HEAVEN…WRONG is NOT a focus. Let me explain a bit. GOD focuses on GOOD. That is NOT to say, He never shows us, where we can heal, or IMPROVE. He most definitely, shows US where WE can GROW. However, it is ALWAYS from the most KIND and LOVING place possible, that HE reveals, how WE can BE changed.




Picture this….




Jesus stands in the middle of the storm, whatever the STORM might BE. And HE is electricity. So, He conducts the storm. He can move the storm AWAY from you. And YOU, sit with HIm, in the place of peace. So, no matter what chaos, is going ON around YOU, HE will COVER you, and KEEP you in the CALM. YOU will NOT be SWALLOWED UP.




Unless of course….HE wants YOU to be…temporarily. Remember, Jonah. Yes, He was swallowed, by a whale, to bring humility. Yet, the swallowing UP…WAS … NEVER , meant to be to HIS detriment. Just today, I was reminded of how, WE are a part of each other. WE ARE because of ONE reason. JESUS IS. WE were made by GOD. Not only BY the GOD of HEAVEN, but in the IMAGE of GOD. Inside of us, we have, so much GOOD. Because, HE placed it there.



But, YET…. Do you ALWAYS feel GOOD? Do YOU always FEEL like YOU MATTER? I can honestly say, I have battled feelings. I am healing from this. I am learning, there is Grace for this. But, it is a daily surrender, of knowing HIS goodness. Because, His Love is greater than my questions, or wonderings, or past. His LOVE is bigger and more powerful. He can keep me, ABOVE the waters of THIS world. Yet, sometimes, I forget that. And still…He reminds ME. This, is how FAITHFUL, HE is.








08 Mar 2019

Unmaking UP

I wake at 5:09 today. Second time. Wondering will I EVER have sleep, like before?!? Yet, when I awaken, to Jesus knocking on the DOOR, I am at REST. There is PEACE like I cannot explain. It clears and wipes away every ounce of DRAIN. He is INDEED my strength, and JOY. And, thank GOD for Grace, to be LOVED. I know, that seems ODD. But, WE need Grace to be LOVED, and HATED. Especially, those who have GONE through intense trauma, and simply, NEED recovery. He knows. If that is YOU, THERE is HOPE. And even THIS morning, as yucky thoughts, try to POP IN; I am reminded of GOOD. The FAITHFULNESS of God, NEVER ceases to AMAZE ME. And what is EVEN more strange, is how many do NOT recognize it. Or, how many can credit ANYTHING else, other than our KING, shocks ME. But God. He is NOT moved by IT.



Scene 1 : I walk into THIS beautiful ROOM. It is GOLDEN, and glittery. Oh, it is LIKE a fairytale. As I walk around, EVERYTHING is pristene, and just perfect. Jesus has MANY angels there, ready to help. And I look up, and say, “This will be FUN!” He smiled, “There will be some FUN. I promise. But, WE are going to continue, working through things. Okay?” I kind of get this pout on my face, and then say, “Yes. Because THERE is NO OTHER WAY. Your WAY works. ” He smiled again, and said, “Yes and sometimes there is just hurt. But, MY LOVE will heal you. You will SEE! As you REMEMBER, with ME.” I look to the right, and there is this Glorious chair. It says, “Elea Grace.”  Tears well up in my eyes. I say, ” I am Soooooooo NOT ready for THIS. I don’t want to LET you down. ” He says, “You NEVER could. JUST be YOU, and see what I do. Now, come have a seat. It is your chair!!!” My eyes, begin to burn with tears. Happening HERE and there. He says, just a few minutes, those can come down, and then….time for your MAKEOVER. ”

So, I sit in this beautiful chair. All the while thanking GOD, for this amazing gift. Laying down EVERY single fear, doubt, and question. Maybe not consciously, but straight from my heart, I give ALL to HIM. Angels come one by one. The first one, washes my face. I look up, and catch a glimpse, of Jesus watching . He says, does it feel better? I said, “Yes sir. It FEELS clean, and whole.” He smiles again, and says, “Good” Now, look at the cloth. I look at the cloth, and there is BLOOD, SWEAT and TEARS, on it. I say, “WOW. You are wiping away vestiges of striving. ” He says, “Yes, but NOT just that. I am WIPING away the FEAR of SURVIVING, and the GUILT too. It cannot STAY on YOU. I want YOU to REMEMBER and FOCUS on the GOOD. The “Bad” will try and play, but you’ll see. I will ALWAYS SAVE the DAY. #yourhero. ”



“Thank YOU,” I say. It is ALL I can SPEAK. He said, “Oh yes, SHAME must GO. Let’s WIPE one more TIME. Guilt, Shame, and FEAR. I take this sword, right HERE, and cut that CORD, with my LOVE.” I see this cord, like HANGING onto ME. I say, “I’m sorry my LORD. He says, “For what my LOVE?” I say, “Should I not have known? Especially by now, should I not ? He says, “Beautiful ONE, I am ALWAYS merciful. There is NOTHING too dirty, I cannot clean.” Thank you Jesus. He places, a cloth over my heart. He says, “Grief will not slaughter YOU. JOY will be present, in a NEW way, THIS day!” LIFE, RENEW, STEADY BEAT, He continues, as HE has HIS hand on the cloth, over my HEART. “set upon my HEART as a seal, YOU are. I promise, neither YOU, or ANYONE ELSE, will MESS things up. #promisekeeper”



I look up again, He can read my thoughts. He says, “She is rather busy today.” I frown. He says, “Don’t worry, beautiful girl, She knows. ” I smile. He says, “Next we wash your hands, I see blisters, on the cloth. I look up, “where did those come from?” He says, “the yuck from the past, can create that, and the BURN. This day, I speak , “Revitilization, to your HANDS, and FEET, and BODY! I command Heavenly ALIGNMENT. Youth RETURN NOW!” All of the sudden, MY BODY, begins to tingle, with BEAUTY, and LOVE. I smile, and say, “I FEEL like a thousand tons, has just been lifted.” He said, That STONE, you are dragging, must be LET GO. He takes an AXE, and chops the cord. I say, “MORE WEIGHT GONE. Thank you. I ask, “What was that?” “A STONE of NEGATIVE EMOTIONS,” He says. ANYTHING specific, I ask inquiring. He says, “Lots. there was a MIXTURE, and it was WEIGHING YOU down. ” I SAW in that STONE, fear, failure, hatred, Anger, Longing, unmet desires, guilt, shame, degrading, and MANY more. ” I had NO idea, that was holding ON. ” I look up, He says, “You know, when it is REVEALED, not UNTIL.”



“Okay, that is enough CLEANING, for now. Let’s work on the outlook” , He says.  The angels are sitting paitiently, and READY for instruction. One comes over, and Begins to paint my Face. I have a memory hit me. I remember, getting HER face painted, and mine too. A few times. Tears in my eyes, but I let her paint. She starts with eye shadow. BLUE, but lightly we will go. Maybe a touch of pink too. It will match the blush. But, not too much. And a slight gloss on the lips. Yes, That will be perfect. And the foundation, “FAITH” It is so SMOOTH and EASY to receieve. It began with a tiny seed. And, oh how the garden has grown. How He makes me, and US to RISE. I stand in AWE. It is quite literally, “AWEsome.”


“Let’s COLOR her hair!”, I hear them say. “How bout rainbow?” I smile, and say, “I LOVE rainbow!”  Let’s start with PINK, and give her a rainbow clip. That sounds WONDERFUL! I am just overjoyed, at even the thought. LOVE. They had finished painting my FACE, and now, here comes the HAIR. They take a brush, and brush through, ” Tangled, a bit. That won’t do.” Jesus comes over and say, “UNTANGLE and UNRAVEL gently and without havoc. ” ALL of the sudden, my HAIR is finished. I said, “What about the water? JESUS says, “I AM THE WATER. ” He had simply touched my hair, and IT was completed. Perfectly PERFECT. I look in the MIRROR, and I begin to weep. He says, “It is okay, it will stay. It will not APPEAR broken, anymore.”  #HEKEEPSUSASWEPASSTHROUGHHEALING


I say, “THIS is ME!” The REAL ME. It is NOT about the outside, but it is about YOUR heart, inside. IT will BE the SHINE, and SHIMMER. I will be BRAVE, and I will TRUST you. For you are WONDERFUl, Beautiful, Glorious, and truly most Matchless in EVERY single WAY. Thank YOU, for LOVING ME. Especially, in those MOMENTS, where I do not FEEL , ALL that LOVEABLE. I believe, those moments, will be LESS. And the JOY, will be MORE. Our Heavenly salvation, is at hand. Thank you Jesus. #resurrection


ONE more THING…and it will make, it complete. I smile, and say, “YOU have done SO much, already.  He says, “Here is your DRESS of HONOR, Valor and Humility. I smile, and say, “It looks like hers. ” He says, with one small adjustment. Look at the label. “Butterfly Designs” MADE TO FLY. With this, you will FLY, and REACH new HEIGHTS, and it comes, with a lovely pair of shoes, designed for you. Hidden underneath. They are glittery, your favorite, and white. And they will fit, no struggle. ”  I SLIP into THIS beautiful GOWn, just effortlessly. Yellow, of course. Mustardy, from some angles. #beautiful. He says, “ARe you ready? It is almost time to go on stage? I will be WITH YOU, EVERY step of the WAY. ” With ALL FEAR GONE…MELTED AWAY, I say, “Let’s do THIS THANG!” #Jesusadventure.


1 Timothy 2:9-10

Likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self – control, not with braided hair and gold pearls or costly attire, but with what is proper for women who profess godliness– with good works.


Today, I encourage YOU, to come to a quiet place, and let JESUS LOVE on you. #nothinglikeHISLOVE

You won’t regret, GIVING Him, FULL access to YOU. He has Sooooooooo MUCH GOOD in STORE. #storehousesofheaven


In His Grace,










03 Feb 2019

Beautiful Place Breakdown

This began today at 333. That definitely means MUCH to ME. As I listen to the song. “I know how to LOVE you well” (Tim McGraw) I keep thinking about, something that was said. “GOD is doing SOMETHING EXTRAORDINARY, in your marriage.” I REALLY had to have JESUS break that down for ME. Because, what I can tell YOU most, is, that our marriage is beautifully BROKEN…and HE is making it WHOLE. In so many ways, it is at the VERY best place, it has EVER been. AND THAT, is Because, of the LOVE, of JESUS. It just is ya’ll. He gives us GRACE, STRENGTH, ABility, to overcome and ALWAYS surrender , in the process. MOST of ALL, He helps US forgive…and to have HEARTS, that are being cleaned, so WE can LOVE more. WE have a LOT of tangible blessings. WE have had plenty, and little. and NOW we know, that … it’s important, to just BE GRATEFUL, for EVERYTHING. The GOOD, the bad, the Ugly. Be Grateful. Choose that. It is where the JOY….lives. In the HOUSE of Gratefulness.



When I was asking HIM, about this entry, HE said, simply. “MANY are going through LOTS of trials right now. And when in trials and suffering, it’s often, hard to SEE the LIGHT, at the end of the tunnel. But, I AM that light. And I will make the darkness FLEE. If ONLY my children would TRUST Me. Tears. I Hug HIM, and I say, “I’m so sorry.”  I can feel His heart breaking, for the things happening, in THIS world. Yet, He is not surprised either. As in this world, the song…”THERE GOES MY LIFE” (Kenny Chesney) plays. He says, “Me too. But, it will be okay. There is ALWAYS a plan. and it does NOT fail. He smiles, through His tears.



I am often comforted, when I SEE HIM, share in the emotion. That might sound strange. But, in THIS world, it is SOoooooo EASY to Feel alone, and just isolated. For ME, that can happen, in a room full of people. But God. When I see JESUS, this way, it helps me remember, that…He is like US, in a lot of ways. LOVE. Breaking down, is NOT always easy, or BREEZY. Again, but GOD. However, it is necessary, and there ALWAYS is beauty, that comes, through, from and IN the process. #HISLOVEHEALSUS



I remember, a TIME is my LIFE. Oh man…I was SOooooo not as close to JESUS. I still LOVED HIM, yes. But, I was REALLY HELL bent, on MY OWN ways. It was rough. And, I experienced a LOT of Hell.  THIS was one of my favorite songs. “Breakdown HERE”

“Paved with pretty lies and broken dreams…. ” Those are just SOME of the lyrics…. “SURE hate to breakdown here, nothing up ahead, or in the rearview MIRROR. Out in the middle of nowhere nowhere. I’m in trouble, if these wheels stop rolling. God help me keep me Movin’ somehow…” I would BELT this song out…over and over. I think, I even bought the single. It might have been a ONE hit wonder. But, now, I look at the lyrics, from a different perspective.


What is in YOUR rearview mirror?


Is it a Beautiful, place of breakdown? Because, at TIMES, mine was LOVELY scenery….on the outside. This pertains to cities, I lived in….My physical body, and actual vehicles. Yet, inside, there was chaos, that ONLY …HIS LOVE could help. And much of the time, I just wandered around, hoping I was doing some good in the world. Yet, I was tormented, just by existence. Again…but GOD.




LIVING in that horribly fearful place, created opportunity, for VERY poor decisions. Thank GOD for Grace. I continue to ask Forgiveness, for anyone, i directly, or indirectly harmed, in that time of life. Even with words…I so apologize. For then…and NOW. My heart…is so to LOVE. I come by it, Heaven made, straight from ABOVE. Lord knows, I am not a perfect child/or adult. I’m so thankful, that GOD sees fit, to LOVE me ANYWAYS. He LOVES me back to LIFE, EVERY single DAY. And for that, I will forever, have more than gratitude. #onegratefullionkid . LOVE.


Today is the 31st, and 31 is offspring, in the LIFE book. In the bible, it says, WE are HIS children. SO….WE are protected, and SAFE and WE are LOVED. And THAT, is a beautiful place, to breakdown. Don’t you think?



In His Grace,


31 Jan 2019

Do YOU Trust ME?!?!?

These Words Echo inside Me. As I AM suddendly (spelled wrong for a reason, in THIS season) It is 5:52 HERE, and “MY OLD FRIEND” (Tim McGRAW plays. To give you an idea. The lyrics… My old friend. Good Bye… Good Bye… Yes. All, about letting go, not holding on. Because, AS Much AS WE want to, in the NATURAL, WE can’t HOLD onto HURT, FOREVER. As the SONG, “BRING ON THE RAIN” Comes ON. And what YOU have to UNDERSTAND, IS I have NOT been, TRYING to. And, I have been releasing, a little every single day. But, THIS, IS NOT Just, About ONE THING. Contrary, to popular belief. And, as God often reminds ME, WE do things, to help others too. It is part of LOVE.

Today with JESUS, I hear, “TIME to wake up”  Thank GOD too. I was not having a happy dream. But God. He is a rescuer. Always. When He woke me up, it wasn’t LONG after, that He had me, typing. I heard HIM say, “WE are going camping. ” I shuddered. He knew why. There is a film, that I watched, that had to do with, a campground, and the child was taken away. And she was killed. I looked at Him, and said, “Please no. He said, “It is time, to deal with the childhood stuff. We ARE going to DO THIS TOGETHER. I won’t let ANY HARM come TO YOU. I promise. DO YOU TRUST ME?” And I said, It isn’t going to feel good? He said, I’m not going to lie, it won’t always feel, like a bowl full of cherries at first. But as you listen to me, and release the old stuff, you will  SEE more FREEDOM. THEN, it will FEEL so MUCH better. ” LOVE.


I Thought back to the book, I had begun to read, the other day. And i looked up at HIM, almost ashamed. He smiled, and said, knowing my EVERY single thought; ” YOU are NOT ” MUCH AFRAID” You WERE once but THOSE days are LONG gone. You received MY SEED of LOVE long AGO. And I know, YOU DO TRUST ME. I AM Asking, Can you trust ME, AGAIN?  ” As HERE the song “EVERY LIGHT IN THE HOUSE IS ON” comes ON (Trace Atkins) I LOVE that Song. I often hear it, when I am praying for children, whom I LOVE, that I can not talk to. BUT, I TRUST HIM to LOVE and care for. NOW, because of NEW circumstances, that HE knows about, it has more meaning.


We walked around the camp ground, and it looked deserted. Like a wasteland. I said, THIS place looks dead. It is so dark. What is it? He says, It was an Amusement Park, that got turned into a campground. That explains the trash on the ground, I see, I said. Then, I had this thought, that popped, into my head, from childhood, of myself as trash. Jesus said, “You are not trash. You are beautiful. I began to cry. Here. The song. “One of these days” Lyrics…”One of these days…I’m gonna LOVE ME.” Tears. BUT I do LOVE HIM. Always. People always say, if you don’t LOVE yourself, you can’t love someone else right? Well, I LOVE myself. But, I often fight with the child in me. Because, THAT is who gets hurt most. AND who connects with JESUS most.


SO DO I trust, YES.


Proverbs 3: 5-6 TRUST in the LORD with ALL your HEART, and LEAN not ON your OWN UNDERSTANDING. in ALL YOUR




25 Jan 2019

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