Monthly Archives: December 2018

Highway to Heaven

What matters MOST… “Faith Hope and LOVE.” These are the LYRICS. on today. Especially LOVE it emphasizes. “Are WE LOVING each other LOVING our brother? ” This Lyric continues. Next song on…. “Beyond Justice to Mercy” Oh MY this SONG hits ME HARD. Jesus knows. I recall singing it DEEPLY. As He comes knocking on my MUSIC studio. Knowing, I am still, a tiny bit saddened, bout the broken string. He says, “it is okay. It has purpose. ” Because, at this point, I have happily opened the door and let HIM in. To the house, that is my Cabin. It is my safe place. And, He says, I know beautiful one, in a perfect world, things would NEVER break. But, remember humpty dumpty. All the kings horses and ALL the kings men, could not put him togethere again. But, good news. I CAN!!!!!. I can do ANYTHING!!!! Nothing is impossible for ME!

Smiles from me. As the song in my studio….plays on the radio. Gloria….. In an effort to praise YOU…. I look UP and say, ” YOU know JUST what to say to ME, ALWAYS.” Thank you for travelling with me. In every single vehicle you choose. It is such an, ENJOYABLE journey. True, it is NOT always EASY, but you and our FAMILY, are so VERY faithful. Truly, it is beautiful. Fresh, and new. Thank you, for loving me, and allowing me, and us, the gift to love you too. And to share that LOVE.

He looks up, and says, ” I am so PROUD of you!”ย  YOU did so great, and YOU are doing so WELL! You are truly living the life, you are supposed to now. He smiles. It is just going to get better. You will see.


As the song, “You are MY Hiding Place ” Plays ๐Ÿ™‚


He says, “You wanna play Hide and Seek?” I say, YES! I LOVE that game!!!!! I have not played it in AGES. Who goes first? He says, “Your choice. So, I think about it, for a minute, and I say, “You go first, because, YOU will know, where I am hiding. Giggles. So He agrees. And, then goes to hide. And, we play. Next thing I know, we begin to play. And He begins, to kinda, say… ” You are getting warmer, or colder. I giggle. Loving the hints. Oh, our merciful and childlike, amazing JESUS!!!!! As, the song, “LIFTED UP ON ANGELS” Comes ON . YES.ย  #HEAVENSPEAKS


“Darkness cannot reach us, let the angels teach us, ONLY LOVE REMAINS. Lifted UP on ANGELS. ”ย  (ashton,becker dente)



THERE WILL BE HEALING, RESTORATION and RENEWAL. THESE ARE PROMISES HE MAKES TO US. HE does NOT LIE. WE are ON HEAVEN’s HIGHWAY. It just HAPPEN’s TO BE on EARTH. But, IF YOU look for IT, you will SEE it, HERE. It is HIDDEn, and yet NOT. It takes GRACE to see it, that is for CERTAIN. Often, it feels like it is concealed behind a curtain, or a veil. Yet the veil is torn.



Years ago, there literally was a tv show, called “Highway to Heaven. ” It was a VERY significant show. BROKE through MANY barriers. To this day, if you watch it, you can still learn quite a lot. Truly, we have watched it a few times, and kind of been in awe, of what is still present, and true. The number one theme is that LOVE wins, and humility is key.




11 Dec 2018

Fresh Eyes ~ New Fruit

I really had to ASK about the title, this morning. Sometimes, there is just a hecticness, or a chaos in the air around, the atmosphere. But, thank GOD the Grace. I have learned, over the years, that often, HE is in the midst of THIS working diligently. He is many times, performing GREAT and mighty miracles, and healings. FOR He, is a WONDERFUL and LOVING GOd. The years end, of the calendar year, always just appears more crazy. As a child, I used to love the wonder, of holidays. But, quite frankly, they have just changed. But, JESUS has not changed. Thank GOD for THAT!.



This morning, I came upon HIM, and though usually I see HIm in the garden, Yes, it was the garden, but there was another surprise, for me. My best friend, giving me MORE LOVE. ๐Ÿ™‚ SNOW!!!!!!!! Do you recall the blog, not that long ago, on snow? It was called, LET it SNow! ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ย  Well, in the garden today, there is SNOW, EVERYWHERE!!!! I do MEAN EVERYWHERE! It LOOKS like a WINTERWONDERLAND!ย  And Jesus looks at Me and He says, “Hi beautiful!! How are you this fine day? Remember your DREAM? ”ย  I smile. Instantly knowing to what He refers. And I say, “He did not miss the snow, and neither did I. Tears of JOY Fall! Just as HE promised ๐Ÿ™‚ WE both laugh with Glee. “That’s right,” He says. Smile. “Wanna play in the SNOW together ?” He Continues.ย  As the song, You are my Hiding place, Comes on….


Tears….ย  He says, “There is ALWAYS Healing HERE. My arms, ARE never COLD. THis world, is ALWAYS warm for YOU. It is ALWAYS HOME. My GOAL and JOB is to LOVE you. YOur JOB is to receive that LOVE. Also to let me use you, share and give it out. So proud of you. Both of you. ALL of you. ”


Tears Fall. I tell Him, “I am laying it ALL down, sometimes, EVERY single moment. With every breath. It is not just her, I miss. But, I refuse to focus on that. I choose YOU. Because, YOU deserve that. Thank you for the Grace to heal, Be real, be broken, grieve, just be me, cry, forgive, live, joy, pain, sunshine, rain, storms, and everything.”


All the Sudden, I am hit with a Snowball. Such JOY….. I laugh out loud. Quite literall, and LOUD. Can’t get mad. ๐Ÿ™‚ Okay, I get it…. More JOY. I love you Jesus. #Mybestfriend ๐Ÿ™‚ LOVE. Your LOVE, really, does…ALWAYS win.

The scene changes, and I suddenly view, JESUS and ME. WE are sledding down, a HILL. It is covered with rainbow SNOW. Wow, what a beautiful sight!!!! Sparkling with a bright light. Everything here, sparkles and shines. As the sing HERE plays GLORIA… YES. IN effort to Praise HIM. Yes. ๐Ÿ™‚ Beautiful. In an effort to Praise HIM. ๐Ÿ™‚ THis is as AWESOME adventure….NOTHING is impossible for GOD… NOTHING. and EVERYTHING is an AMAZING adventure! ๐Ÿ™‚








Do you BELIEVE you are LOVED? If so, who do you believe, LOVES you?



THis SEASON, I encourage YOU, seek GOD on THIS. To TRULY examine HIM on this topic. My husband mentioned yesterday, that when we moved to, this state, He read the bible. FOR the VERY first time, HE read it cover to COVER. I mean, HE had read a FEW verses. But, He actually sat down, and READ the entire THING, EVERY single BOOK. It took A LOT of dedication. I marvelled at it ALL. To ME, it showed HIS dedication to GOD. When Sarah went HOME to Jesus, He did not read it, for a while, to be honest. So, I was quite glad, HE did that. It was like, HE had it stored up, for a winter of discontent. And, GOD knew. Because, as my husband likes to say, “God shops at Costco. wink . He give you the tools you need. For the trials, you are going through. smile.



Faith. Hope. Love.



The absolute GREATEST will ALWAYS BE LOVE….. NO matter what. ALWAYS show LOVE. ALWAYS. ~



IN His Grace,



07 Dec 2018

The Hope Tree

Funny that, I would be awakened. At 316. Isn’t is John 3:16 who says, “God so loved the world, that HE gave HIS only son. So that whoseoever believes in HIM, shall not perish, but have eternal LIFE? I’m fairly certain of that address. It is pretty engrained in my memory. I remember, seeing PILLARS as a child that houses this verse. There was a tornado, in my “home” town. Clarksville, TN is where I grew up. Such a beautiful place. But yeah, as a kid, I sure did NOT appreciate that. I mean, sometimes I saw it. But, you get it. I remember thinking when those pillars remained, how significant. One has the Lord’s Prayer. The other, houses John 3:16. The whole Sanctuary, is just BEAUTIFUL, because of these 2 pillars. To me, it is like a mom and dad. Those that HOLD us, and GROUND us, and root us, in LOVE.




The scene Begins Here…..


Jesus is sitting under this HEAVEN made TREE. I have never scene anything like it. It has rainbow leaves. Yet, because, I do spend quite a lot of time HERE, it just FEELS like HOME. And I think, THIS looks familiar. So Jesus says, “YOU have scene it! Then He laughs with PURE Joy. He said, YOU have scene it, just NOT on EARTH yet. ” wink .ย  I can’t help but say, “OH, that’s it!!!!.” Just like Him, I am in full JOY mode. ๐Ÿ™‚ย  So I sat down, as He patted for me to. I asked Jesus, what do you want me to write about. He said, “Your style is going to change some.” So I am thinking, “My writing style?” He can read my thoughts, so He just smiles at me. LOVE .ย  Yes, THIS is what REAL LOVE looks like. The best brother, I could EVER have. He knows the deep desire for connection. He placed it, within me. WE ALL have this. But circumstances, often shadow it, and twist and turn it. Only He can undo those tangiles.



He says to Me, As He sees my TEARS…. “It is okay to LET it GO. This is a SAFE place,” He continues. “I am NOT looking for perfect my precious child. This is where, HEALING continues. HOPE is renewed. Burdens are lifted. FREEDOM comes. JOY surfaces. THIS is HOME. My arms, are ALWAYS YOUR HOME. ”



MORE tears FALL. Night time, is the hardest for me. I try not to complain. But, it JUST is. I very RARELY sleep through the night. I wake up, and I just crawl into HIS arms. BECAUSE, it is my SECURITY. It is my HOPE TREE. And in our lives, it sure has felt, like hope deferred. But feelings can just lie, to US.



And He looks up, at me, and says, “I know THIS is not comfortable, in so many ways. But, in others, YOU know, it is right. Let me explain. The discomfort, will fade, because, the truth is, YOU know, what must BE. You know where your HOPE is. That by our Father’s Grace, I must be the KEY to EVERYTHING.ย  There is such beauty, in HIS eyes. I truly get LOST in them. Just as Debbie Gibson said, as a kid, I would listen and sing. As would I to Susan Ashton, Michael W. Smith, Steven Curtis Chapman, Amy Grant and countless others. I listened and sang to ALL kinds of artists. Even artists now, I listen, sing and pray for them. LOVE. This is how WE can LOVE. A phrase keeps coming to me. “Be the Miracle.”



Jesus sees me, thinking, and He says, “YOU are. JUST by being YOU. WE created YOU ALL, as miracles, and with many miracles within. ” He smiles. He says, There is such beautiful POWER in you ALL. It just has to be pointed, in the right direction. It works BEST, when you ALL work together.” But, even 2 of YOU, make a BIG difference. Suddenly, I see this beautiful familiar face. Jesus smiles. SURPRISE!!!!!! I hear her say, “Hi Momma!” I am so glad, you came to the garden today! Tears. She says,” I know Mamma.”ย  She goes on to say, but hey guess what, THINGS are GREAT here!!!!! Classes are AMAZING. It is quite busy, in the most beautiful way. So much is coming FULL CIRCLE.” She says, I only had a minute to come by. But, I wanted to come, and give you a hug and a kiss. I LOVE YOU. And, I LOVE daddy David too. Remember THAT. Good things, are coming. WONDERFUL ones. And just like Jesus taught us, He will get you through the tough stuff.”



So I look at Jesus, and say, “That was HIS idea huh? ” He says, “Actually it was Mama and Papa. LOVE But, YES.” WE laugh out loud. Smiles.



Then WE talk about a song. The first one that was playing as I sat down. it is called “Ball and Chain.” The lyrics that stand out to me are these….

“ALL of US have a HEARTACHE. ALL of US, have been STAINED. ALL of US, YEARN for FREEDOM, but THERE’s ONLY one WHO can BREAK, THIS BALL and CHAIN.” (Susan Ashton)

He says, “It is TRUE you know. I AM the ONLY one who can BREAK, EVERY single CHAIN. AND, they WILL fall to the ground, MY LOVE wins. Remember that. As you SHOW, and SHARE my LOVE, GRACE and MERCY, you will see. There is NO DARK, I cannot go, and shine the LIGHT. WE can GO together, and YOU will be SAFE, within ME. YOU’ll SEE.ย  You don’t have to SUFFER in Silence. ”



That song comes on “Suffer in Silence” (Susan Ashton)ย  “You don’t have to suffer, Suffer in Silence. I know that the pain can seem like an ocean, but I’m just a word away. ”ย  ย So MANY years, I did just THAT. I suffered in silence, YET, HE never left my side. He patiently waited for ME. In fact, HE Never TOOK HIS handsย  off my LIFE. I will never forget, the day, WE began to speak again. I was about to be pregnant with Sarah. But, I did not know that. I just knew, I needed HIM. I had become such an ANGRY and bitter child. My heart aches, just thinking of that time. Father, forgive me. Help ME, forgive ME. I was entitled, and quite selfish. And, I had a lot of unforgiveness in my heart. I left the place, where, I was officially born. Because quite frankly, I was TIRED of EVERYTHING there. There were things I loved, and people too. But, I desperately NEEDED something different. And, I sure did FIND it. And how….but GOD.



Who sent ME on that JOURNEY? One word. JESUS. But, I did NOT know then. I just knew, I had to GO. Everyone, tried to talk me OUT of it. I do MEAN EVERYONE. But, I was determined. In some ways, I was just kind of hell bent. But, REALLY I wanted to learn to BEND towards HEAVEN. Because, I knew, if I could do that, things would BE BETTER. Somewhere inside, I had this spark, that just refused to go out. It sure did flicker, and man, it seemed DULL at times, the flame, but it never stopped. Some call it a LIFE force. But, I know, it is HIS LOVE. I know it, because, my heart has stopped before. It is the ONLY time, that the flame, actually did not burn. And it was just for 5 minutes. Grace. Oh my the Grace.. I still carry that scar. But God. His LOVE has marked me.



Jesus says to ME, as I reflect and REMEMBER…. “Memories can be hard to handle. A rollercoaster for you. So let’s so THIS my way. A little at a time. Like taking a bandage off, of a wound.” He touches my heart. JOY, AWESTRUCK WONDER and LIFE fill me, with HEAVENLY electricity and charge. FORGIVE again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, and LIVE again. MORE Grace be upon you. I look up in the sky, and I see shooting stars, and rainbows, and butterflies. I look to the right in the garden, and I see Safari animals. Jesus says, “You know what THIS is about.” I smile. “I keep my promises,” He says.



There was this one situation, weighing on my heart. He knows, I do not like confrontation, or stirring up trouble. But sometimes, it is just inevitable. So, He assures ME, and REassures ME, it is ALL good. “I will give you the words to say. She knows your heart, and mine. It will ALL work out fine. BREATHE.”ย  ย I sigh, in relief. And before I can ask HIm. He says, “And those other things, just a matter of timing.”

#comingVERYsoon .ย  LOVE.


Again, the SONG “Be still and KNOW” comes on. This seems to be a theme. LOVEย  He listens with ME. He says, “In the stillness, there is renewal. There is reflection. there is Grace. There is Peace. I am HERE MOST, in the still ness. All the things, you NEVER got to do, can happen, HERE. ALL the wonderful, beautiful, just GLORIOUS adventures, happen HERE. REST in ME, beautiful ONE. I have so GOT this covered. YOU will NOT FAIL.


Psalm 46:10 BE STILL and KNOW, HE is GOD !!!!!!!

In His Grace,






04 Dec 2018

DRessed for Rehearsal

Often, I have no intention of writing. It just kind of spills out on the page. And today, I woke up at 3 am, knowing something. One week from today, life will change again. Tears. I trust God completely. As the song, on the radio, is “My Father’s Hands” (Susan Ashton). Any time I have an ounce of doubt, i hand that over to HIM, and say thank you, for cancelling THIS out. Not because, I am better than someone else. Lord knows, I am NOT. It is simply something, I HAVE to do. And, that I GET to do, by HIS Grace.




I keep asking HIM, Am I ready for THIS. THIS BiiiiiiiiiiiiG thing? And you know HIS answer? “You were made for THIS.” You were made to SHINE my LOVE. Tears. Part of ME, honestly just still doesn’t feel ready. But, do WE ever feel completely ready or even worthy, of letting JESUS use us? so, that I give to HIM to. Yes, just like a stuffed animal, I can’t hold onto. Just like I willingly, gave so MUCH else. He knows. WE have given HIM, EVERYTHING, He has asked for. and, would do it again. Because honestly, it is HIS anyway.



Back to the title of the entry. My husband and I, have ONE major common ground. It is the FUEL that keeps us togethere and going. it is JESUS. That is not something, I say lightly, or from a place, of religiosity. It is a FACT. WE would be NO MORE, without HIM, and in specific, HIS Grace. The tititle, has to do, with what, WE saw. As kids, WE both watched our “families” perform. As adults, we still well, batlle the images at times. Because, in so many ways, it was just horrible. I want to be clear, neither of us, holds any blame. Because, WE know, that YOU can’t give what YOU do not have. Meaning, THEY did what THEY saw. They put on a show, because, they were raised that way. But neither, He nor I, liked it We did not enjoy, looking like, WE were one thing….and BEING another. Have you ever experienced that?



I would bet, that many readers have. Because, there were a few generations, that did this. God used it for good. There is no question. It is just time to stop, and to be more real…



To THIS day, it HAS been something, THAT EVEN though, WE try hard, to BE authentic, diligently break the mold, and do it differently; WE fight. Yet, WE can also REJOICE, and as this song on now “Be still and KNOW He is God” (SCC) . In that stillness, there is healing. There is the reminder, that YOU, nor ANY other single soul, including ANY enemy, will mess up the plans of GOD. They will go forth!!!!! THAT is GREAT news!!!!! You might go through challenges, and difficulties. You will feel like a winner, and at times, a loser. Jesus did too.ย  And He FEELS with you. That helps me, to REMEMBER that.




Humbling can happen, when WE receive, and when WE give up, or it feels like something is taken. But, NOTHING, is ever really stolen from GOD. Remember, it says, the enemy comes, to steal, kill, and destroy. It never says, he can. It never says, he has that power. It says, he comes, to try. So, WE speak Grace Grace again. WE thank JESUS for victory. The VICTORY He provides to US. Because, HE LOVES US. It IS THAT simple. BECAUSE WE are LOVED, there is HEALING available, and true FREEDOM.



I have times in LIFE, where I miss what WAS. People say, ‘You would not be human , if YOU did not.”ย  I don’t just MISS what was with Sarah. Contrary, to popular belief… But, just like the last song said, “I just Showed UP for MY Own Life.” (Sara Groves). I can’t stare at OLD reflections. I have to trust GOD, that HIS LOVE shatters the yuck, and restores the GOOD. He always told me, “The fruit, will SPEAK for ITSELF.” That has NEVER been untrue. In EVERY sense….it ALWAYS does.



So ARE WE dressed for REhearsal? Well, this is NOT a performance, like a play, or a film. Yet, it WILL be forfront, and will likelely show UP on stage. It is a REAL and LIVE TRUE PERFORMANCE of HIS LOVE. As the SONG on, “Beyond Justice to Mercy.” (Susan Ashton) This is a FAVORITE of mine, from when I was a child. I sang it, over and over. As I listen to it now. I remember well the lyrics. “THOUGH the distance seems so far. The love that USED to hold our hearts. LONGS to take US BEYOND Justice, to MERCY. Going, MORE than Halfway to FORGIVE.”





As I am listening to THIS….



I see Jesus. And He is taking me through a HALLWAY, of forgiveness. I see MANY faces. And there are check marks. I ask HIM, why the check marks, He nods, and says , “YOU have forgiven them.”ย  There is another hallway to the left. It is darker. I ask, is that a forgiveness hallway too. He says, “YES, But, it is NOT yours. But you will notice, it has a connector. You see how all the hallways connect?” I stood in awe as yes, they ALL connected. It reminded me, of the scene from the kids film, “Monster’s Inc.” For those, of you, who have scene it. They have doors, that lead to rooms. Well, this was similar. The hallways, were either light or dark. And, JESUS is the door, and the KEY. I tell HIM, about my thoughts, regarding the film. He smiles. He says, “I remember, when WE watched that. The VERY first time, TOGETHER.” Tears. I cry. He knows why.



He says, “You know, she is doing great here. ONE of my VERY best TEACHERS, and student too. wink YOU both DID so well. YOU still ARE doing so well still. WE know it is NOT always easy. Tears. I tell HIM, “I just don’t feel qualified. He says, “Well YOU are not qualified. But, I AM, and I live in YOU. Smile. WE are better together. Always.



Let’s practice… You always said, “Practice makes Permanent, and I make it perfect” He says. He taught me the first part, through a beautiful little angel butterfly. WE were watching a show, called Calliou, and they said something. They had said, “Practice makes perfect.” And Jesus said, “Practice makes permanent, but I make it perfect.” #beautifulmemories



. The next thing I know, there is this HUGE stage. It is beautiful too. Jesus goes to sit, in what looks like a judges seat. Though, He gives me that look. The one, that reminds me, HE is CHEERING me ON, not actually judging ME, per se. So, He sits there, and I see HIM. And He says, “Whenever YOU are ready, My LOVE.” I look to the right, and there are beautiful flowers, all colors, of the rainbow. To the left, the same thing. In Front of ME, Jesus is sitting there, and He is waiting patiently. I begin to sing.



He knows, the song I am singing, is NOT the ONE, I am using. But, He listens, and just enjoys it.ย  After I finish, He lovingly says, “Again.” Does not fuss at me, or criticize me, or yell at me. I said, ” I did not do the right song.” He said , “YOU can not and will NOT mess this up, my beautiful one.” Tears.

“And HE walks WITH me, and TALKS with Me, and tells ME, I am HIS own. And the JOY we share, as WE TARRY there, none other, has EVER known. ”

It begins….”I come to the GARDEN alone.”

He had come over to me, And Put His arm around me, when He told me I would not mess up. I thanked HIM. I asked HIM, “Why does this seem so hard for ME?” He says, “Because it is NOT how YOU pictured IT would BE. Tears. Oh how true that is.

He shows me, a scene from a film. It is the film, “Steel Magnolias.” In the scene, Sally Fields character, is crying in front of her friends. It is right after her daughter, “passes, dies, goes.” Whatever word, you want to use, she is not physically here anymore. And, this woman, quite frankly is angry. I don’t think she was mad at God. I think she just was ANGRY at the circumstances.



I went through THAT. I sometimes still do. But, I made a choice, and it was this. I chose to feel angry, but NOT Be angry. Jesus says, “You felt like this, and you wanted HER here. That is why, she told you BOTH, the message. Remember, Father sent her early on. She said, “It is critical to STAY surrendered.” She was speaking about, during the season, of BLESSING. “Wow.” I say. Tears I cry. Nothing happening, is a surprise to you. Thank you for the Grace, to carry US through. He smiles, and cries with me. “My pleasure, beautiful One. Truly, you are A gift to ME.”



Jesus smiles again. He says, “Remember singing this hymn, as a child with your mom and dad in church?” I smile. #happymemories. Time with MY VERY best friend. THERE is NOTHING like it. I am so thankful, that HE knows ALL sees ALL, and comforts us in process. Because, LIFE seems to be getting more surreal, not less surreal. And I am choosing, to TRUST HE, is the REAL deal in it. By HIS Grace, WE can BE. He will show up, and things will go, as they should.



My parents are with HIM now. I am grateful, most days, that is the case. Because, I know they are supposed to BE there. Same as MANY I, and WE LOVE, thankful they are safe and sound. God sends people into our lives. Some comes for reasons, seasons and lifetimes. Only JESUS knows, who will be there for a lifetime. WE simply have, to treasure, every moment. Time, is fleeting. In a blink, it is often gone. WE must pray and praise God, for the good and trust in HIM for healing , areas that have been tough or bad. He will, HE never EVER fails. and HIS LOVE absolutely, wins, EVERY single time.




If I speak in tounges of men and of angels, but have not LOVE, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. (1 Corinthians 13:1)


In His Grace,





03 Dec 2018