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Will YOU remember ME?

1024_1069125859787707_7567550745995162315_n184414_10151642914512863_1045860989_nWriting has never been something, that has come easy, for me, except WITH Jesus. You see, I am instructed, and then the instructions, are followed. Often, the emotions, I am feeling, are not just mine. I am certain, I am not alone in this. Because, JESUS when, HE walked the earth, faced these, “giants” of sorts. He faced them, head on, and He conquered them ALL. Now, THAT is the GREATEST news. The victory, is NOT in what we SEE, or even HEAR, UNLESS WE are seeing through HIS eyes.

This is a tough entry, not because Jesus cannot do it. But, more because, it requires even more transparency. Every time, I think, I can’t share more, I cannot go deeper….well, surprise. He can. Thank GOD, I can sit back, and let HIM. Thank GOD for the Grace, to BE. Especially, for the Grace to BE ME…HIS kid, His baby, His wife, His Love. Oh my, it’s not easy somedays. But, know it IS worth it. Thank GOD, WE can be US.

I’m not sure if I have shared this before. But, my husband David, is both very emotional, and very NOT used to showing emotions. When Sarah went HOME, that changed. At first, it seemed to change in a good way. Particularly, in a GOD way. Then, the old snares came calling. But, JESUS never stops calling. He SEES and HEARS and is PART of EVERYTHING. Yes, God is not the author of confusion. BUT, He can still move in the midst. I used to believe He could be limited. But, even in our unbelieving, doubts, and pouts, HIS LOVE, NEVER ever stops flowing.

Sometimes, Jesus just obviously takes over, and steps UP. Both, in David and in me, and our Heavenly kids. Other times, it seems like a disaster, that will never end. WE are naturally so hard on ourselves. Yet, JESUS is firm with us, but NEVER harsh, with HIS babes. WE are naturally tough on others, if we are hard on ourselves. Forgive us LORD.

THIS song came on…

“Chasing Cars”

By: Snow Patrol

We’ll do it all
On our ownWe don’t need
Or anyoneIf I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

FOR ME….MUSIC was, a stone in the path to salvation. I pray, that is true, for all the babes, of Heaven. Because, despite the fact, that music, here has appeared, to be influenced, for the bad; JESUS LOVE. He still wants to bring rescue…and HE IS RESCUE.
THIS song came on next…
How to Save a Life
Step one, you say we need to talk
He walks, you say sit down, it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left, and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I
JESUS saved me, before I ever came to earth. He saved you, before your natural birth. He feels your hurts, and pain. Your losses, are so deeply HIS gains. But, cruel, He is not. He gives YOU all He has got. Forgive us Lord, for pride…Help us reside, in your eyes. To enjoy even the toughest days, of THIS ride. You make us NEW, we worship YOU. We thank you for your LOVE, and choose to remember. Despite the aches we feel, We know YOUR LOVE is REAL. I have felt angry, maybe at YOU. I must say I’m sorry, for ALL I put you through. But, I am grateful for every breath. Even when it hurts, and I can barely stand. As I climb this mountain, I LOVE the view. But, it is sometimes hard to exist. Because no one can see, like YOU, without YOU. Help us. WE are LOST, but FOUND. We are starting NOW, to remember YOU. We remember the GOOD, and the TRUTH. Forgive the religious olds, and grant Heaven in place, as we are told. The babes are crying, obvious, and not. So many dying, running themselves in the ground. Leaveing others wailing, the pictcher is on the mound. The enemy is out, and those who follow him, shall see. JESUS is shouting the final call. It BLARES the word….VICTORY. Glory.
THIS world is hurting. It does not NEED criticisms, or chastisements. Forgive us LORD. Take over us, and bring YOUR advisements. It is TIME for the BODY to unite. To unite from unholy ties that bind. It is TIME for releasse, launch, and so much more. I stand and sit, on Heaven’s floor. What about YOU? What are WE waiting for? Are we looking upon mistakes, as the ones holding the gate keys?
Because, the TRUTH is, when we remember Jesus, we remember the good. THEN, it begins to show up, more than the BAD. Or, to HIS point, the seemingly BAD. Because, in JESUS everything literally IS, ALL GOOD. There is no fear there. There is no pain, no tears, no hurt, in HIM, there is only LOVE. That does not mean, that IN Him, we won’t feel. It just means, those feelings will NOT rule our days. Because, that is not HIS ways.
Yet, Thank GOD for the Grace to feel. As a child, I hurt myself so deeply. I cut myself, behind the scenes. So few knew, yet, it felt I wore it on my sleeves. I remember the very first day. I saw, from the corner of my eye, what looked like a glympse of Heaven. Jesus was weeping, crying tears of blood. I will never forget that day. I tried, so hard to get FREE on my own. He kept calling me, like a phone that would not stop ringing. It was age 14, that I began. I thought I was worthless. I was supposedly raised, in a Christian home. Yet, everyone seemed so alone, around me. I would try to read the word, of God, and it would confound me.
So, I went off on a trip, and oh what a journey, it has been. Into the darkness. Down the rabbit hole. Jesus was with ME. He never left my side. Thank God for those, who stayed along for the ride. SO grateful…So healed, and made new. Almost 40 years, died too many times to count. But, the one that matters most, was on the cross, with Jesus. We were in the audience, throwing stones, and yet With HIM.
The world will tell you, THAT considering YOUR needs is selfish. But, Jesus tells us, that honoring GOD is never selfish. AND, He made US. WE are so important to HIM. So, will you remember JESUS? Will you see HIM in your babies eyes. In her ashes, for us. As I said, THIS is so hard. I am weeping, as I type. There is hurt and healing in these words, that are writen.
I know sometimes WE seem deep, but at the CORE, we are just kids. Ones who want to be loved, and must remember WE are HIS. I repented before Heaven, for hurting that which, HE LOVES. He healed me…in 2003, and here I stand, cut free. I never hurt myself on purpose, anymore, and it takes Jesus to remind…That He redeems the time, every single moment. Despite how I think, feel, or SEE. His LOVE spands eternity.
So, I encourage you ALL, to remember the LOVE. It is hidden inside you, because He placed it there. Make Jesus smile today, and say I choose YOU, and I choose YOUR ways. Take over, and do it JESUS, NOW and every day. 🙂

Psalm 111:5

He has given food to those who fear Him; He will remember His covenant forever.

Luke 1:69-73

And has raised up a horn of salvation for us In the house of David His servant– As He spoke by the mouth of His holy prophets from of old– Salvation FROM OUR ENEMIES, And FROM THE HAND OF ALL WHO HATE US;

Psalm 105:42For He remembered His holy word With Abraham His servant;

Deuteronomy 6:20-23

“When your son asks you in time to come, saying, ‘What do the testimonies and the statutes and the judgments mean which the LORD our God commanded you?’ then you shall say to your son, ‘We were slaves to Pharaoh in Egypt, and the LORD brought us from Egypt with a mighty hand. ‘Moreover, the LORD showed great and distressing signs and wonders before our eyes against Egypt, Pharaoh and all his household;

Joshua 1:3

“Every place on which the sole of your foot treads, I have given it to you, just as I spoke to Moses.

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance.

Isaiah 49:15-16

“Can a woman forget her nursing child And have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, but I will not forget you. “Behold, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; Your walls are continually before Me.

Genesis 19:29

Thus it came about, when God destroyed the cities of the valley, that God remembered Abraham, and sent Lot out of the midst of the overthrow, when He overthrew the cities in which Lot lived.

Genesis 30:22

Then God remembered Rachel, and God gave heed to her and opened her womb.

1 Samuel 1:19-20

Then they arose early in the morning and worshiped before the LORD, and returned again to their house in Ramah And Elkanah had relations with Hannah his wife, and the LORD remembered her. It came about in due time, after Hannah had conceived, that she gave birth to a son; and she named him Samuel, saying, “Because I have asked him of the LORD.”

Luke 1:54-55

“He has given help to Israel His servant, In remembrance of His mercy, As He spoke to our fathers, To Abraham and his descendants forever.”

Hebrews 8:10-12


Jeremiah 31:33-34

“But this is the covenant which I will make with the house of Israel after those days,” declares the LORD, “I will put My law within them and on their heart I will write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people. “They will not teach again, each man his neighbor and each man his brother, saying, ‘Know the LORD,’ for they will all know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them,” declares the LORD, “for I will forgive their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more.”

In His Grace and Glory,

Elea and Fam


26 Sep 2016

None but Jesus

Haven’t written that much in a while. Because, to be totally transparent, I have been feeling pretty overwhelmed. I am honest to a fault, because i cannot lie. If I say something, that appears to be untrue, I get so convicted, and like immediately confess it. I suppose, it’s just the way Jesus created me. I’m both grateful, and yet at times, have been tormented by it.

Now this, does not mean, I never fell for a lie. Because, there were times, that I absolutely I did. Without Jesus at the helm, I’m sure I still would. But, through the process of surrender, I am seeing Jesus bring wholeness and healing, to His body. His delight is YOU. He created YOU. He adores and LOVES YOU. Those are not just words.

Have you ever felt forsaken, neglected, dejected, and thrown away? Because, if SO, then you are in good company. Jesus experienced, very little acceptance. Most often, what He received was “pretended acceptance.” How many of you, have had someone say they just love you, then drop you, when it suits them? Well, Jesus will NEVER ever do that! Anyone who really closely knows HIM, should not do that either.

IF WE are the face of HIS Grace, then WE must consider others, in our actions. Ultimately, in doing so, WE honor JESUS in full. We honor our Heavenly Father, and the Holy Spirit. You deserve honor, because Jesus loves you. YOU are the child of a KING, of royal and holy decent. Who is it that receives the honor in YOU, Jesus. But, because He adores you, He shares HIS LOVE. Jesus embodies selflessness. His name mean, holy sacrifice.

YOUR name In HIM is important. Today, take the time, and seek what HE calls you?

Who do you say I am, “You are the Christ, the risen son of God.”

Matthew 16:13-20Amplified Bible (AMP)

Peter’s Confession of Christ

13 Now when Jesus went into the [a]region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked His disciples, “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?” 14 And they answered, “Some say John the Baptist; others, Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah, or [just] one of the prophets.” 15 He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” 16 Simon Peter replied, “You are the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed), the Son of the living God.” 17 Then Jesus answered him, “Blessed [happy, spiritually secure, favored by God] are you, Simon son of Jonah, because flesh and blood (mortal man) did not reveal this to you, but My Father who is in heaven. 18 And I say to you that you are [b]Peter, and on this [c]rock I will build My church; and the[d]gates of Hades (death) will not overpower it [by preventing the resurrection of the Christ]. 19 I will give you the keys (authority) of the kingdom of heaven; and whatever you bind [forbid, declare to be improper and unlawful] on earth [e]will have [already] been bound in heaven, and whatever you loose [permit, declare lawful] on earth [f]will have [already] been loosed in heaven.” 20 Then He gave the disciples strict orders to tell no one that He was the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed).

08 Sep 2016

More MIRACLES from Heaven

Writing and sharing, at times, is so tough. But God. Jesus do it! There is so much to share. I have to go slow. Any of you who know, me, know that is NOT my fortay. Giggles, I am a runner. I tend to sometimes jump ahead. Again, but God. to date I have watched the film, “miracles from Heaven,” 3 times. In our family, WE always say, the 3rd time is for Jesus. Boy, is that TRUTH, BUt, perhaps, every time IS.

I came out of religion. In fact, I detest i when people call me religious. Because, I am one thing. HIS. I am so over the moon, in LOVE with JESUS, and everything, JESUS. It is like living in Jesus’s theme park. yet, in this world, oh the cost. Neglect, rejection, lack of affection, and SO much more. I still can’t watch this film, without breaking down. I used to think that was a failure of sorts.

Until today. Now, I KNOW through HIM, that it is compassion, that brings those tears. HE is crying through me. It is NOT easy, for HIM, to watch HIS family suffer, He cried tears of blood, remember??? Ergo, it won’t be easy for US, through HIM either. In the film, they really never officially give HIM credit. YET, He gets credit anyway, because, it is HIS birthright. We in  association are blessed. Yet, Jesus gets it ALL.

Being fully transparent….I have died so many times. I have even almost died, physically, at my own hand. But God. His LOVE conquered, for us, and the children. Still, it was US through HIM, who went. HE who goes, and WE with HIM. The trap for me. Forgetting that WE are one body. Falling into comparison. That leads straight to a mountain of negatives.

The FACT is, may who say they like you or love yoou don’t. But, JESUS does and always will!!! The peace of the LORD never actually leaves. BUT, the measure changes. JESUS, is the shalom. He lives in us! THAT is VERY good news. As I watched this film, a hoard of emotions hit me. But God. Even still, I observe, and receive more downloads, through JESUS. My connection. My ONE and only connection, to HOME.

I was sort of trained to be naturally critical. What about YOU???

My entire family is teachers, I did NOT, I repeat NOT want to be a teacher. Because, I wanted to be different. It was pride. Boy, was it ever. There was a time, I was never treachable, or teachable. BUT GOD. He is, and in places where I fail, THAT is okay. HE does NOT!!!!! He succeeds. His LOVE wins. He sickseeds, too, and sucjs the bad out. Like sickles, they flourish. Honey sickles. OH , do I LOVE them. So so so many miracles, ALL arpund us. AROUND…but we think some things don’t make sense right? They are confusing. YEP. Without Jesus, they remain a mystery.

But with HIM…Oh HEAVENS.

29 Jul 2016

MY boss is JESUS

I began watching a film recently, with one of our “Heavenly kids.” In it, this woman, was the “boss” in her own right. But, it began me thinking about Jesus. When He is our boss, HE is the one, who says go, speak, stop, and move. He can also, fire us, when needed. SO much is happening in the world. But, so much is happening in HIS world too. I personally, want to stay there, and focus on HIS LOVE.

Because, it is simple. He is my boss. He reports to the Heavenly Father. WE report to HIM, and the holy spirit, nurtures us, to receive. I am just so excited, about what is coming. There will be more good than bad, for those hidden in CHRIST. Watch it all unfold, and rejoice!!!

27 Jul 2016

Finding Jesus

This evening, our daughter and I went to see “Finding Dory.” This movie deeply touched me. Even before the movie began, there was a pixar cartoon. In it, a baby bird, was the focus. It zeroed in on, the mommy teaching the baby bird. For those of you, who know us personally, or have followed along with this blog, you can understand why it reached me. The baby bird went out to the ocean, and got hit with a wave. It scared it. It was hesitant to come out again. It kept running, from the wave. But, then it met a pal, and the pal helped it to see, that the wave was NOT as scary, as it appeared. There is a point, where he goes into the wave. We do this in life right? We are actually called INTO the storms of life. WE cannot go around them, most often we must go THROUGH them.

The film spoke of reconciliation, rehabilitation, and release. That got me too. Because, It is a DEEP desire of my heart. I want all 3 of those things. How bout you? I mean, don’t we ALL want these things? We get LOST in the world, the way she got LOST from her parents, we get LOST from Jesus. I’m convinced, that we are birthed into this world, with seeds of LOVE hidden, on the inside. But, depending on the atmosphere, that we arrive into, we grow in that place. Most days, I can make peace, with God’s plans. But, sometimes, when the BAD rears it’s UGLY head, I need rescue. The hardest part about rescue, is that it often LOOKS really messy and chaotic.

In my life, there have been times, where I have made really bad decisions. I own that. I thank God for HIS Grace. Because, if it were not for it, then so many things would be different. Jesus teaches us that His Grace is sufficient. All my life, from the moment, I cam to earth, I have been on a hunt for Jesus. I don’t think I realized that I was looking through eyes of fear, shadowed by faith. Even as an adult, I cannot lose the child in me. Because, THAT is where I find Jesus. THAT is where the REAL LOVE flows.

On my ticket, for this movie they shortened the name of the film. It says finding Jo. I immediately thought of Jane Doe. Then I thought of who is considered a “Jane Doe?” Anyone who has lost identity is known as Jane or John Doe. According to my research, Jane or John Doe, relates to THIS…

“The names “John Doe” or “John Roe” for men, “Jane Doe” or “JaneRoe” for women, or “Johnnie Doe” and “Janie Doe” for children, or just “Doe” non-gender-specifically are used as placeholder names for a party whose true identity is unknown or must be withheld in a legal action, case, or discussion.”

Notice what is says, a non gender place holder for a “party” whose “identity” is unknown or withheld. Who are WE without Jesus? WE are nameless. I began to get ready to go to see the movie, and God was already speaking. The first song that came on, was “HE KNOWS MY NAME.” It really helped me, to remember, that even when I forget who I am, HE remembers. Even when WE FEEL forgotten, it does not make us forgotten.

This song came to me…

I’ve been lookin’ at things in a negative light
Clippin’ my wings in the middle of flight
My motor is running on the heartaches of life
But it’s gettin’ me nowhere fast.

I’ve been relivin’ hurts that seemed far away
Siftin’ the dirt that covered the grave
Of the petty offenses I never forgave
But it’s gettin’ me nowhere fast.

I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart
I will forget
I will forget.

Well I find that I’m just not agile enough
To balance the weight of all of this stuff
It’s a cumbersome task that demands too much
And it’s gettin’ me nowhere fast.

I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart
I will forget
I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart
I will forget
I will forget.

As far as the east is from the west
These are the things that I must forget
I’ll lay down my anger before the sun sets
I will forgive
Oh, and I will forget.

I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart
I will forget
I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart
I will forget.

I will remember not
I will forgive
These things that tear my heart…

It is a Susan Ashton song, and it came out, when I was a teen. Dory was trying hard to remember, her identity. She received assistance, from those who love her. I personally receive assistance from Jesus. He is the ONLY one, who can open and close doors in my life. He uses friends, family and even strangers, to do so. Or, He just does it, all on HIS own. The point is, it is THROUGH JESUS only, that WE find our way home, and can recognize, who WE truly are, in HIS eyes.

Dory finds her “family.” Yet, she realizes, that they are NOT her ONLY family. See, THAT is what is key. With Jesus it is most frequently, not either or, it is both. The LORD is a multi- faceted God. In HIS ways, He looks at EVERY individual, involved in every circumstance. HIS LOVE, truly covers every single need. HIS mind, is the mind that brings clarity. Without it, life is nothing but chaos and confusion.

So, where is your identity? And WHOM is it wrapped up in? Are you seeking to FIND Jesus? Because, trust me, that HE is seeking YOU, 100% of the time. At the end of the film, the view is the focus. What view are you receiving? Is it one from Heaven? Because I admit, staying focused on heaven is NOT always easy. But, the awesome gift of Jesus, reminds us, that even when it seems like we have dropped the ball, HE has inevitably caught it. 😉

In His Grace and Glory,

E and fam





14 Jul 2016

Taste the RAINBOW

Getting to THIS entry today, has been a challenge. BUT GOD. The premise of it, is that, JESUS wants us to eat of the promises, of HIS LOVE. He wants us to partake, and receive as well as digest, the GOOD. Many of us are used to doing THIS with the bad.

As a kid, i had a parent who would say, “Expect the good, and prepare for the worst.” Sadly, most think that way. They don’t however recognize, that The first part, gets LOST in the second. It is LIKE they switch places somehow. This definitely has happened to me, and our family. Yet, the awesome LOVE of GOD, always conquers, as we allow it to overcome.

Agreement with HIS plans, not just belief is part of partaking. I think many of us know this, but sometimes get moved by the circumstances around us. Thank GOD for HIS Grace. Thank GOD for HIS mercy. Thank GOD for HIS LOVE. To be able to say, I am sorry. To be willing to let HIM change us. Not for our comfort, because it is VERY uncomfortable.

To FORGIVE when something comes against someone we LOVE, and they lash out, is often a challenge. But God. It can ONLY be done, in FULL by HIS LOVE and wrapped, in HIS Grace. There was a time, that there was Grace to learn about the BAD. For some, that has changed, and it is TIME to ONLY receive the GOOD, and the BEAUTIFUL.

Only HIS LOVE can reframe our hearts, minds, and spirits. ONLY HIS LOVE will bring HEALING. But, how does one, who has NEVER known it, recognize it? It feels like foreign territory, at first, to be HONEST. I can say that, because eventhough I arrived, on THIS planet, by the LOVE of GOD. I had LOTS of trouble showing it. Because, everytime I tried, it was rejected.

SO, I felt rejected. Have you ever experienced this? Putting your heart and soul into something, and having it discarded, can just seem devastating. At first, we want to just give up, and not try again. But we do, eventually, until we become so wounded and HURT, that we can’t, in the same way, as we began.

I have come before God, asking for forgiveness, and repenting of my wrongs. Yet, my greatest struggle has not been, in HIS forgiveness. The battle that has been MOST intense, for me, and my family, is FORGIVENESS of ME. Why is that? Why did I get tired of tasting the good? Was it weariness? Was it FEAR? Perhaps, it was more than one reason. But, the FACT is, that when I refused to forgive myself, I was dishonoring God.

I wasn’t trying to hurt God, on purpose. I would NEVER hurt anyone, on purpose. Because, I know how PAIN feels. I do my best to encourage our “Heavenly Kids” to ALWAYS be KIND. I want to CHOOSE the GOODNESS of GOD< consistently, and never EVER fall prey to the BAD choices. But, sometimes, I do. I am so NOT perfect. I simply pray, that somehow in the midst of my imperfections, HIS LOVE, will BREAK through.

This morning, the 5th, Grace and Favor; I woke up. When I did, I got in our vehicle. But before that, I chose HIS BEHICLE. I went to HIS word, and ATE of the GOODNESS and LOVE of God. To honor HIS desires, and to allow HIM to bring about that, from HEAVEN to EARTH. A BEHICLE, is the BIBLE has a vehicle. 😉 He wants US to just BE in HIS LOVE.

That means, that HIS LOVE guides and transforms, everything we touch!!!! How awesome is THAT! But, how does that happen? One moment at a time. In the vehicle this morning, I heard a few songs. The VERY first one, was called “GRACE WINS.”

In my weakest moment I see you
Shaking your head in disgrace
I can read the disapointment
Written all over your face

Here comes those whispers in my ear
Saying who do you think you are
Looks like you’re on your own from here
Cause grace could never reach that far

But, in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear you call my name sayin it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat
So loud now, drowning out the doubt
I’m down but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time

Words can’t describe the way it feels
When mercy floods a thirsty soul
A broken side begins to heal
And grace returns what guilt has stole

And, in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear you call my name sayin it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat
So loud now, drowning out the doubt

I’m down but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time

For the prodigal son, grace wins
For the woman at the well, grace wins
For the blind man and the beggar, grace wins
For always and forever, grace wins
For the lost out on the street, grace wins
For the worst part of you and me, grace wins
For the theif on the cross, grace wins
For a world that it lost

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time

I TRULY believe SONGS like THIS are PART of TASTING HIS RAINBOW. They are a HUGE reminder, that there is NO PLACE WE CAN GO, WHERE HIS LOVE LEAVES US, and HIS GRACE IS NOT PRESENT. The ONLY IMPOSSIBLE, is for anything but HIS LOVE to conquer.



04 Jun 2016

Married to Jesus

My prayer is that the children He has given, will grow up, married to Jesus. To be honest, I really did not. I grew up, looking for good, and seeming to be consumed by the bad. But, I kept crying out to God. Because, even when I could not feel HIM, or it appeared He left me, HE was still there.

It was like, before I even consciously said YES, to Jesus, I was HIS. I belonged to HIM, and HE was the ONLY one who really got me. Yet, so many times, I betrayed HIM. I justified my actions, thoughts, and I quite simply took bait, that was meant to harm me. But God. I would love to say, I never struggle now. That suddenly everything was perfect, in my life. But, the fact is, sometimes things are challenging.

I absolutely CAN say that HE perfects our lives. HIS LOVE causes us to appreciate the MOST difficult times, people, places, and things. Because, WE know what it IS, to count it ALL JOY. Boy, have WE learned that one the HarD way. I used to worry what others think. Now, I am RESTING more each day, in HIS thoughts. My HOME is in JESUS. My marriage is in Jesus, and with HIM.

I love my earthly spouse, HE is a beautiful, man of God. I am very grateful for him. Most of ALL, I am grateful for HIS dedication to JESUS. I continue to say, I don’t mind being second. Because logically, if Jesus is first, the earthly spouse is second right? One problem….GOD is not looking at it that way. He sees it as, if JESUS is first then the spouse is part of HIM, and so they are first THROUGH JESUS.

WE FEAR bad things, when there is something unsurrendered. We misunderstand life, and challenges, when our heart is hurting, and ultimately not fully GIVEN to Jesus. When I woke up today, it was around 9 something. Usually I get up early, but WE have felt a bit more tired lately. So, today, I rested. When I woke, I ate of the word of God. Because, it is HIS LOVE on the page. I see that now. It took me years, to SEE. He just kept showing me. He was so patient and loving, as I kept trying. When ALL He wanted was my heart, and my REST.

So now, one day, one moment, WE REST in HIS time, ways. GRACE is JESUS. When He says, my Grace is sufficient, He is saying so much. When He reminds us, it is perfected in our weaknesses, that says a lot too. His GRACE is who HE IS. It is HIS LOVE, POWER, MIGHT, LIGHT, STRENGTH, JOY, HOPE and EVERYTHING HE IS and IS GIVEN to HEAL US. He is a deliverer, a best friend, a brother, a father, and many many many more beautiful attributes. Quite simply, He is EVERYTHING in our lives.

The world will try to sway us. But, our JOB is not to moved, from the fastening of GOD. WE must stay in the palm of HIS hand. WE must REST. RESIST EVIL STAND THANKFUL. I realized today, that instead of us resisting GOd’s transformation, we must resist the ways of the world. THAT is so very simple. BUT, so very profound too. God blesses us daily. The storms have purpose.

THERE really IS NO need for worry. We can make good choices, or bad choices. WE can fear this or that. But, the fact is HIS GRACE is sufficient. His power is perfected in our weaknesses. I see that verse in TRUTH more and more daily. It is what this ministry is built on. Jentzen Franklin reminds us, “in storms, to use the bread crumbs from before.” I believe God gave HIM that. Because, it is those crumbs, when we want a FEAST, that create ONE!

Look at the feeding of the 5,000. These young little babes, come in, with an opportunity, to join Jesus. They have an opportunity to marry HIM. I pray daily, for our children, the ones we have and will have. I pray that God give them spouses, that have a desire for GOOD, and for JESUS. Even if they don’t fully understand that. WE have given too much weight to the BAD. It is time, we do as commanded, and FOCUS on the GOOD. For that is where Jesus dwells.

HE is the best spouse ever. Whenever I do something well, or my husband David, it is because of the LOVE of Jesus. If I had to chose again, I would still chose HIM. I would chose for HIM to use us, and our family to bring Heaven. Yes, there are tough times, and persecution. But, our hearts and lives are HIS. IT is the ONLY way out of the dark. HIS LIGHT shines the way.

Matthew 5:16Amplified Bible (AMP)

16 Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good deeds and moral excellence, and [recognize and honor and] glorify your Father who is in heaven.

Jesus gives us that LIGHT.

Shine today, because the dark seems stronger, but it NEVER will be stronger than HIS LOVE.

In His Grace and Favor,





22 May 2016


As I begin to prepare to write this, it felt like so much got stirred up. I had no plan to write today. Little did I know, that God did. 😉 The title is about color. His LOVE is all about every color and nationality. His promise symbol is the rainbow. It has so many colors!!!!

I have said so many times, “That is a horse of a different color. ” Yesterday, someone said to me, “Aren’t we all?” That really hit me. I thought, “YES! WE ARE!!!” God meant for us all to work together. But, other things took place, and well complicated things a bit. Look in scripture, and you will see the challenges, and the trials. But, the GOOD NEWS, is in HIM we are the SAME color.

The color is HIS LOVE. It is every color you can fathom, and a few you probably cannot. 😉 The point is EVERYONE deserves HIS LOVE. Jesus came to save the least last and LOST. That is ALL of us! WE all have been broken, and in some ways, against God. I know there is good and evil. I am not in any way, saying we should not separate. I am simply saying, JESUS LOVES anyway. He changes the color from Fear to LOVE.

Faith passes away. Hope passes away. BUT, HIS LOVE stays. It is stuck to us like HOLY GLUE. WE can run, but we will never OUTRUN HIS LOVE. NOT EVER. Even those who have a destiny toward the bad, have an opportunity out. They just may not choose it. But, God handles that. OUR JOB is to LOVE.

The world will show colors, and if WE are not in a place of HIS LOVE and REST, we will get affected, from a negative place. JESUS was moved with compassion, mercy, grace, and LOVE. Should we NOT be? Forgive us LORD. For name calling, and holding onto offenses. For standing from places of pride, and calling it truth. Forgive us for doing it in a way that dishonors you. Make it right Lord. Bring us HEAVEN.

I have heard people say, “If someone shows you their true colors, believe them.” I have something else to add. LOVE them anyway. THAT can be impossible, without JEsus, and without a really DEEP connection to HIM. Even with one, we are not guaranteed a suffering free life, or one without difficulty. People get so religulous, and religious with condemning, that the LOVE gets LOST.

It is time we ask Jesus to find it, resurrect it and restore it. Because HE will. I look forward to it. We have endured a lot, through Jesus, and we will more. But, I finally see why. I finally am starting to see the point, and purpose. It is ALL about the LOVE. HIS name is JESUS!!!!!!


17 May 2016


This morning, in this month of Heavenly Grace, I woke up to an odd smell. It was on my clothes. I think it may have been cat pee. I had a choice, I could get mad, or I could rejoice. I was woken up, with such JOY inside!!!! I chose, not to be moved, by it, and to praise GOD! I say this, because, if I had allowed it, to move me away from God, it would not profit HIM.

I am not telling you, that I never have a day, where I am not moved by strange stuff. But, I can say, that when woke up early now, more often than not, it is a HAPPY thing. I am so honored that He chooses, to give me another day. One to breathe, one to smile, one to rejoice!!! Perhaps this is what He means, about rejoicing in ALL times.

What does it profit a man, if He gains the world, but loses his soul? Not only, does it not profit man, but it dishonors heaven. I don’t know about you, but I truly desire to honor Heaven. I believe it happens a little at a time. I remember when I believed, ignorantly, that I had to DO to exist. I truly believed, I had to earn my keep, in a way that was obvious to God. When in truth, ALL He requires, is that we LOVE, and exist.

People have said, LOVE does not pay the bills. But, it DOES! When we are letting HIM LOVE through us in every area, they every single thing becomes a JOY!!!! The money, becomes not a worry, but an added Grace. Another once said, that LOVE is not what makes the world go round. But, in HIS world it is.

I have a hard time, watching things that appear unloving. But, I am grateful, when God reveals, the root of it all, is LOVE. Anything GOOD and HOLY is rooted in LOVE. It is rooted in HIS LOVE. People, who have been hurt by judgements, often feel real LOVE, does not exist. But, having been around almost 40 years, I can tell you, that IT DOES! His name is JESUS.

He is the author an finisher, of our FAITH, and HIS LOVE story. He literally writes it on our hearts. To quote, a beautiful, child of God. 🙂 (Francesca Batistelli.) My husband and I, and our family, are having many adventures. Who is watching? Well, EVERYONE!!!! But, the most important audience we have, is HEavEN. 🙂

Ultimately, we have a choice, every single day. God has given us the Grace to feel. But, I truly do NOT believe we have the Grace, to live by those feelings, forever. At some point, we have to begin to LIVE by HIS LOVE and word. The ONLY way to do so, is to receive it, from HIS heart.

The chosen COGS are being called to a higher standard. Every day, we are called, to climb higher, the holy stairway into Heaven. We are called to not only LIVE from there, but LOVE from there. It is our HOME. As a child, I thought like a child. I reasoned like a child. I still have a child like spirit, but I think differently. Children, see through filters, that should be of HIS LOVE. But, so many get stuck in hurt. It is time, Jesus be allowed to clean the filters. It can only be done, with Heavenly washing.

So, today, be NOT moved by who is watching, and who is NOT watching. Be moved by the LOVE. Let it cause you to smile, laugh, rejoice, and be revived today. HIS JOY is our strength, and above ALL else, the GREATEST of HIS GRACES is LOVE. In the end, when all other Kingdoms crumble, IT alone will remain. 🙂

1 Corinthians 13Amplified Bible (AMP)

The Excellence of Love

13 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not [a]love [for others growing out of God’s love for me], then I have become only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal [just an annoying distraction]. And if I have the gift ofprophecy [and speak a new message from God to the people], and understand all mysteries, and [possess] all knowledge; and if I have all [sufficient] faith so that I can remove mountains, but do not have love [reaching out to others], I am nothing. If I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body [b]to be burned, but do not have love, it does me no good at all.

Love endures with patience and serenity, love is kind and thoughtful, and is not jealous or envious; love does not brag and is not proud or arrogant. It is not rude; it is not self-seeking, it is not provoked [nor overly sensitive and easily angered]; it does not take into account a wrong endured. It does not rejoice at injustice, but rejoices with the truth [when right and truth prevail].Love bears all things [regardless of what comes], believes all things [looking for the best in each one], hopes all things [remaining steadfast during difficult times], endures all things [without weakening].

Love never fails [it never fades nor ends]. But as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for the gift of special knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part [for our knowledge is fragmentary and incomplete]. 10 But when that which is completeand perfect comes, that which is incomplete and partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now [in this time of imperfection] we see in a mirror dimly [a blurred reflection, a riddle, an enigma], but then [when the time of perfection comes we will see reality] face to face. Now I know in part [just in fragments], but then I will know fully, just as I have been fully known [by God]. 13 And now there remain: faith [abiding trust in God and His promises], hope [confident expectation of eternal salvation], love [unselfish love for others growing out of God’s love for me], these three [the choicest graces]; but the greatest of these is love.


In His Grace and Glory,

Elea and Family


14 May 2016

He held my Hand

I was not particularly “normal,” as a child. So, I’m not sure why I thought, our “kids” might be. In any case, normal, we are not, except when it pertains to HIM. I suppose my point it, when it comes to HEavEN, and GOD, we are so VERY normal. BUT, when it comes to THIS world, some seem to find us, odd.

This entry was prompted by a film. Last night, after much deliberating, and praying, we saw the movie, “Miracles from Heaven. ” I remember a year ago, I was out with our daughter. I saw the title, and the book cover, and took a picture. But, I had NO IDEA, how important, it would be. I was supposed to go see it, about a week, before I did. But God. His time is perfect. By faith, we went last night.

All through the movie, I cried, and David cried. It was healing, and yet very hard to watch. I just kept hearing the Lord. He kept speaking, “I’m here, holding your hand.” My husband usually drops my hand half way through a movie is done. But, THIS time, He held my hand, from start to finish. Not once, did HE let go. Not just my husband, but JESUS. How incredible is that???

Watching this sweet little angel, onscreen recount her experience, we could so relate. Not only to the challenges they faced, physically. But, also to the persecution, which I think they barely touched on. The people calling them names, gossiping about them, not believing, and judging. Where was the LOVE? I’ll tell you where. IN the children!

Jesus says to “Come as a child. ” To let nothing hinder, the “children” because the kingdom of Heaven is made of such as these. Our daughter, who went home in 2013, she personified a life, of Grace, Mercy, and LOVE, through Jesus. Whenever she came into the room, the presence of Heaven was so strong. My husband and I literally stood at attention.

i’m not going to lie, and say that walking through this process, has been easy. It STILL is NOT easy. But, I absolutely will tell YOU, that HE has NEVER let go of my hand. In the movie, the wife battled unbelief and doubts. The husband appeared stronger, and more grounded in his faith. I asked my husband, “Do you think He really was that way? Or, was he just holding it together, because He had to?”

I have been forced to be the “strong” one. I did not like it, and even now, when I am called upon to do so, I HAVE to ask “JESUS” to do so, through me. Because, I will fail. But, a dear friend reminded me, THAT is necessary. JESUS succeeded by NEVER taking HIS eyes off HIS FATHER. We must succeed by never removing ours, from JESUS. You know why? HE does it the right way. He did then, and does so now. But, it looks different, to us, and maybe to others.

When our youngest daughter went to Heaven, to stay, it felt like my heart was literally ripped OUT of my body. I died too, and went with her. In fact, my physical body was so deeply affected, that a year or so, after she went, my heart stopped. It was not for a long time, and thank GOD, did not accrue damage. But, it did STOP. I thought, before that happened, that Sarah should be the star. But, she was not here anymore. But, SHE is. Just not, in a way that often makes sense to others. Anyway, Jesus in her was the star.

When I had MY encounter, I was surrounded by so much LOVE. ALL those who had gone before were present. And I looked up to Jesus, and said, “As much as I want to stay, and I REALLY do, because THIS is my HOME, I cannot. I am not finished yet. ” He looked at me, and smiled, and thanked me. This truly touched me. I loved being around my Heavenly Family. I was finally HOME, and FREE.

I have ready many books about people, having similar experiences. Instead of coming back sad, I came back JOYFUL, and on FIRE. But, it only lasted a few weeks. Then, I felt discouraged, because it seemed no one was listening. But GOD. He reminded me, that even in the deepest darkest places, HE is there. That, just because things appear one way, does not mean that they ARE. That, HIS LOVE is GOOD and it has conquered. Essentially, He reminded me, that as long as He is holding my hand, we can jump into or out of anything.

The reason this entry is so personal, is because, in my heart, and in my spirit I ache with God. As others anguish, and suffer, so we suffer as a body. I always wanted a family, that loved and served God. Now, I have one. Not that every person in the family is the same. But, we are all called to HIS heart, to be loved. To be embraced, by Heaven, is beautiful, and at times exhausting. I was thrilled to see my mom, dad, children, and others. When I get to a place, sometimes that feels dark, I think of that, and smile. That little piece of Heaven, was and is such a gift.

When I was running, from door to door, while asking God, what is this for? He held my hand. With every despair and demand. He held my hand. In every dream. He held my hand. When ripped apart at the seams, He held my hand. When I was bleeding out. He held my hand. His breath, repaired, and new blood transfused. He held my hand. Through EVERY storm. He held my hand. Broken and worn. He held my hand. Through every rejection. He held my hand. With every exception, He held my hand. Through every death. He held my hand. Through every birth. He held my hand. In every instance, when I felt I was on shifting sand, my ROCK never moved, and HE NEVER ever let go of my hand. He kissed my wounds, He held my hand. With every bruise, He held my hand. Every persecution, accusation and curse that came. He held my hand, and sheltered me from MORE pain. His blood stain, is what makes me clean. He held my hand.

In His Grace and Glory,

Elea and Fam

20 Apr 2016