Monthly Archives: June 2014

The day this was originally written, marks 6 months since our beautiful butterfly entered eternity. What a beautiful gift to dance into the arms of JESUS, and stay. Yet, what an earthquake it feels like left behind, to those who mourn. When the blog post name was given, I thought about it. I wondered, “What direction is God going to take this?” I never know which way He is going to go. But, I do know that whatever way it is, it will be GLORIOUS.

When we come into this world, it appears that we come in as innocent. Yet, that is not always the case. If we come into the world, and generational curses are not broken off, we can bring in both Heaven and Hell. So we think about what the word says. It states, “first you must learn to crawl, then to walk, and finally to run.” So, from the get go, we come in taking baby steps. Here is the question, “What are we walking to?”

Are we walking toward the HOLY light, or the false holy light. How many times do we make excuses for our loved ones, or ourselves? How many times do we rationalize or justify, influenced by stuff other than GOD? If we are not aware that we are doing so, it could be practically every day. Please take some time to reflect on this with GOD. Ask HIM if you have any areas that need healing, improvement or surrender. Likely, there will be some which require all 3.

As a baby, one of the first things that most children do is feed. They either breast feed, or bottle feed. I personally, don’t think it matters, as long as that child is surrendered to GOD by the parents. Because, He can use and bless anything, as long as surrender is present. If it isn’t, at least not to HIM, then what should be blessed can remain cursed.

Another thing a baby learns to do is to speak. Our butterfly spoke at 7 months. We were in shock, hearing words come out. The first word was hi. The second word was dad. Probably third was mom. She was doing what we call a crab crawl. Before she crawled forward, she crawled backwards. Now how many of us do this? How many times do we go to GOD, and say this; “Can I try it my way….please.” I mean, my goodness. Is it necessary to try almost every wrong way before seeing the right one?

This is not said to condemn anyone. It is more about reflection. He encourages us to study to show thyself approved. This is both about the word of GOD, and also seeking what is hidden inside, both the GLORIOUS and HEAVENLY, and also what is a hindrance and ultimately seeds for hell. We cannot have both. The fact is, no matter how good a person is, if the person has not taken the BIG LEAP to choose JESUS as LORD and savior, then they will perish eternally.

God has been very merciful to many. However, HIS level of mercy to those in blatant disobedience, rebellion and defiance is definitely changing. His level of Grace is as well. Because some think we are in an age of religion. Yet, GOD says we are in an age of REVELATION. We are now out of the age of grace. Which is a very good thing, because many were permitted to take advantage. That permission has now been revoked.

Soon, ALL shall see the GLORY and SPLENDOR of GOD. Soon ALL will know that HE is the ONLY true GOD. Our awesome GOD meets people where they are, however HE does not change who HE is to do so. SO, why should we? Yet, how many of us do? How many of us, influenced by fear, fall into the trap of attempting to play God?

Will we continue to live in punishment? Because we were freed from it on the cross over 2,000 years ago. He has shown us that this spirit is one of the keys to death and hades. So, here is the question, where are we walking? Are we walking the line, by towing the line? Are we accepting only what we think we deserve, from a negative stand point? Because just yesterday, it was revealed that I could not take ownership, for fear that I would fall into pride, or mess something up.

Is that fear mine? NO. Yet, I was taking ownership of that. Forgive me LORD. Baby steps are simply that. They start with a mustard seed of FAITH. But, it can’t stay that small seed, it must GROW by HIS LOVE. How they turn into giant leaps is simple as well. When the trials come, you learn to REST in HIS peace. To give HIM new songs, poems, praise, and so much more is what GOD desires from us. Because HE knows that in that place of cleansing, purification and sanctification, HE will not only show up…HE will sow out. That should have been show out, but both are true. 😉

Daily we divorce the enemy. God reminds us that WE are not the enemy to each other. IT is the spirits and principalities that we fight. Is it comfortable? Well, no it definitely isn’t. At least not ALL the time. But, we definitely are comforted in the process. It is an honor to be loved by and to serve GOD. It is a privilege to be covered by the blood of JESUS. It is an honor to come to HIS throne and sit at HIS feet. It is a JOY to be overflowing with who HE is.

Do you think that we always had the exact same amount of faith as now? Because, trust me, we did not. There were many times that we claimed the scripture about the mustard seed. In fact, we still do. Every time we read that a loud, more holy seeds are planted. More baby steps are taken. More giant leaps are prepared through HIS transformation of our hearts, souls, spirit, minds, wills, and emotions.

I told someone last night, “We used to waver, in particular I did.” But, it was spoken over me, and David that we would not wobble in faith any longer. Thank you JESUS! We are seeing rapid change from what was, to what is and ultimately what will become HIS desires as ours line up with HIM. This really is the point of walking the line between GOD and satan. The point is that in GOD the line becomes very clear, and at times, GOD can erase the line, because surrender is so deep, that the enemy has NO Access any longer. NOW that is a QUANTUM LEAP indeed.

It is time that as WE grow up in the FAITH, through our awesome GOD, that the children we have been gifted do so as well. IT is TIME to teach the children about the armor of GOD, the power of GOD when being obedient to HIM only for HIS purpose and plan, is unexplainable. Truly, words don’t cut it when attempting to share how incredible and unimaginable the power of GOD IS! Things like communion, anointing oil, prayer, praise, and worship are holy weapons. Even repenting becomes a holy weapon when done from a sincere heart.

Can you see the difference in the kids and adults???

Jesus says in scripture, “When I was a child, I thought like a child. But, then I became a man and put away childish ways.” Are we doing this??? Because if we are not, is it surprising what God has permitted? The answer is  repentance….TURN to GOD. He will teach you to crawl, walk and RUN the race. You are HIS baby, and HE loves you.

The scriptures being included are about newborn babies. Because We MUST get back to the basics, especially PRAYING scripture for HIS purpose and plan over HIS precious children, HE so graciously shares with us.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/newborn_baby

Thanks be to GOD the FATHER, HIS SON JESUS, and the HOLY SPIRIT. Yes, we repent for places we falter. Yes, we thank you for LOVING us anyway. We praise you for taking us up to where you are mighty GOD. It isn’t because we strove to get there, it was because we drove there in YOU. You are clear about it being finished. WE must REST in that, even in the combination of baby steps and giant leaps that will arrive and arise. Thank you for not sparing the ROD. You never spare the Reversal of Destiny. Show us your GLORY LORD. May only you be GLORIFIED.

In Jesus Holy Name and BLOOD, AMEN

By HIS Grace and in HIS GLORY,

E and FAM

This morning, this dropped into my spirit. I could visually see, the LION KING. It is one of my favorite movies. Many of us have cried out to GOD. WE have asked for help, assistance, HIM to take over. He knows. He hears our cries. KNow  this dear ones, it absolutely IS time. TIME to see moves of GOD that will leave us breathless.

One day I was listening to a sermon. I believe it was Kat Kerr. She said, ” we have been crying out for the FIRE of GOD to come. Did we think it wouldn’t come???” This really registered with me. I found my self shouting HAllelujah!!!! Because it is the FIRE of GOD which will quite literally turn the tide. IT is the HOLY FIRE that will defeat the enemy’s plots. If you have not seen this fire, or experienced it; you will.

This fire to any FLESH hurts like HELL, at first. Because it is not something that we are taught to embrace. YEt, our spirits are filled up, to the core of our Heavenly soul, by the FIRE of GOD. Strange things will come to pass. But, we must TRUST anyway. They are not strange to HIM, only to us. WE must follow HIS peace. Never our own peace, or anyone else’s will do. Only the peace that is a gift from GOD will continue to make us complete, new and resurrected daily.

Someone once said, “Your marriage needs saving.” I thought, “Wait a minute it was saved the day we said YES.” I thank GOD that because HE loves us, HE does save us daily as we do our part. WE must come, to HIS well of FIRE and seek purification. Most importantly, we must do so not for ourselves, but as an honor to GOD alone. We must be open to be corrected in whatever forms GOD chooses. He used a donkey once, after all. 😉

There is a HEAVENLY flow happening. Can we embrace it? I recently had someone confide, “I’m not sure I am a believer.” Do you know that in that place, you are seeking. That is beautiful. GOD will honor that. It means you are close to getting the answers you have questioned. It is time. TIME to receive HIS truth, and not believe the lies and the evil that is spoken. Time to see the word of GOD not only as correcting, but the ultimate TRUTH in LOVE. THe Heavenly Father carries us. IN the natural, we are taught to lean on each other. Yet, GOD teaches us to lean on HIM in each other.

IT is the small leaps of FAITH, the mustard seeds, that are planted. THey are the ones that all together, in unity, bring GREAT harvest. ANother person once said, “I know you want to give my family money.” This was said to David. In fact, I was not physically even in the house, at this time. David looked at them, and was shocked. Because he thought, “No, I don’t want to. NOt because the person didn’t deserve the chance. It was for one reason only. The person had no remorse for the wrongs that had been done. God showed my husband that giving more, when HIS season in it had been cut off, was not only disobedient; but casting pearls to swine.

Yesterday there were many triggers. Yet we know GOD is bigger. Our heart aches for the nations, running the race in the wrong direction. WHile our awesome GOd waits for them with affection. THey turn from HIS LOVE, purest in form, feeling unworthy, and seeing only closed doors. Don’t you see that is also a trap. The enemy wants us to focus on the crappiness of this world. Yet, WE are God’s COGS. HE makes us super heroes. He heals and cures ALL our woes. Do you believe? WIll you receive? Because GOD will only wait so long. I say this, because time is changing. The level of GRACE has been amazing. Yet, be not deceived to think it will stay the same. Just by using our brain, we think we can figure it out. WE think we can drink of life water, when we don’t repent for places we have faltered. Turn us about LORD, for your play is fair. IT is HOLY and in this world, RARE. For you will make it as it should be. We must rejoice and wait and see. BUt, repentance is the key that unlocks the faith. Can’t we get this straight? It’s not from condemnation, but to save the nations. OH, how you LOVE us….

This morning when I woke, a little over 3 hrs after going to sleep. As He woke me, I had trouble. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to obey. MY heart is pretty well always in it. IT was more my flesh was very tired. I was informed gently, “His GRace is sufficient, and HIS power made perfect in our weakness. I smiled, and said, “Okay Daddy.”

So I come today, asking HIM to, as always do the work. It is so much better when GOD does it. There were 39 stripes put upon Jesus’s back. When He was crucified on Calvary, this horrendous act was done, and IT, ALL that needed to BE, became finished. It was pointed out today that this number Biblically represents disease. So, for those who say our sickness did not die on a cross, here is proof that it did.

I was thinking of God’s surpassing LOVE today, how it truly surpasses everything when WE allow it to permeate us. This must be an important post. I say this because I started it about an hour ago, and half an hour in, the session randomly logged out. I had to wake David to assist me, getting it back up. But, as always GOD resurrected it.

Just as THIS happened with the crucifixion, so it keeps happening in the lives of HIS COGS. I wonder sometimes why people say they believe, but when tested, it is proven otherwise. I wonder, How could anyone RUN from God’s love. The word tells us that the wages of sin is death. That means, the more we are attached to sin, the less we are attached to GOD. It is either GOD and HIS LOVE that multiplies, or evil and it’s sin.

Do you want a chance to begin again, and in a new way? Because if you do, there is GREAT news available for you. Every single day is a NEW day and a NEW beginning for something wonderful, in the KINGDOM of GOD. You get a clean slate with HIM every day. In fact, I have noticed, we often get it every moment, if needed. But, the point is this; the GOD who created us, is a GOD of LOVE and ADORATION. The one that feel from Heaven, and into HELL is not. The second one, our enemy, is a god who can only bring DEATH.

David and I are not perfect. We will shout that from the rooftops. But, WE serve a perfect GOD. WE don’t come from a place of religion. but relationship in HIM. For He is the one who leads, us guides us and in whom WE abide. He knows what we are going through. HE knows how hard it is to walk into the storm. He also hold our hands in the process. Thanks be to GOD.

Grateful are we, humbled always before HIM. Repentful from the bottom of our hearts of anything that may have remotely hindered HIS plan. We are not so prideful to think we could stop HIS plan. WE can’t, but we have been used before to try and complicate it. God really is a simple GOD. He is ALL about the LOVE…..but HIS LOVE is like no other. IT requires holy obedience to receive it. IT will hang out and wait for us. But, only so many chances will be given, before the opportunity to chose it runs out. THe LOVE never ever does.

I sometimes wonder, if GOD is proud of me. I used to wonder if my parents were, or my family. Now, when I wonder from childlike Faith I ask. I always hear, “My child, well done my good and faithful servant. I love you so. For you are my treasure and a jewel in my crown. One of my masterpieces. ” For those who tell us, “God doesn’t speak to me that way” we say this, “Ask God is there is something blocking that?” Meaning if He is always firm with you, perhaps that portion might need healing. It might not be the HOLY GOD. Seek HIM, and you will find out.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/the_crucifixion

Today LORD, we seek you to permeate our souls. TO extinguish any darkness and HELL as only you can. First and foremost we praise YOU for you are worthy. YOU alone are GOD. WE thank you LION of Judah for roaring on our behalf. Transform us in your GLORY for your GLORY. IN Jesus Holy and MIGHTY name and BLOOD. Amen

Today is the 18th, biblically representing bondage. LET GOD open the prison doors and receive the SON as well as see the sunrise. 🙂

GOD in HEAVEN brings DEATH in FAITH but it is HOLY DEATH, NOT SCARY. The god in HELL brings Death by FEAR. ONE brings a resurrection and new life. The other brings only destruction and mayhem. Choose this day whom you will serve. As for me and my house, WE will serve the LORD. WE serve the Heavenly Father, LORD JESUS and Holy Spirit together. ONLY GOD must get the GLORY….ALWAYS.

We must remember something. The GOD we serve is a bondage breaker. Over and over. our creator our maker. He is the way the truth and the life. He stomps and squashes FEAR and STRIFE. He brings peace and make us complete. Receive the healing this day. For by HIS stripes we are surely healed, and GOD alone has GLORIOUSLY made a WAY!!!! Hallelujah and thank you LORD, not for the world’s reward. Because they will ebb and flow. THose will come and go. But, we thank you for loving us, trusting that WE will obey. Reminding us, that you and YOU alone will always stay. YOu keep us hidden in you. YOU make ALL things NEW. You alone turn the tide, you alone turn the page. IT was 39 stripes, the bible’s number of disease. So, when people say, He didn’t take sickness, I think Oh please…As in please LORD turn it ROUND. So the world can hear the sound of your heart. You make it right, your perfect our ways. We repent this day, of places we may falter, both past and even future. LORD, come and stitch our wounds, with your holy sutures. YOu know what should have been, what you freed and saved us from. Let us not forget your precious LOVE. WE bless you name, we are forever changed because you touched us. We love YOU.

ANthem of Praise 2014

In His Grace and GLORY,

E and Fam

What is your oxygen? It seems like an easy question. I mean, most would just say, air. But, really take a moment and think. What are you breathing in? In our case, we are breathing in very deep pain. Not on purpose, and really not by our own doing. Yet, GOD is the anchor in our lives, and thankfully more often than not, we breathe in HIM and His love. He is there in the midst of the storms.

A part of us wants to scream, throw things, run away. In some respect, WE have done ALL of those things. But, yesterday it was reveled that we cannot run away from the storm, or just get over it. WE must in fact go through, to be made NEW. So today, I am receiving the gift to mourn. It sounds so strange to say that, or even type it. Because I never ever would have considered that a blessing. Yet, God’s word says it is.

This is not an easy topic for me. I did not wake up going, “YAY, I get to talk about how much THIS hurts.” But, God impressed upon me, that not only is it critical for my healing and ours, David and I together, it will help others. For I was reminded that He wastes no suffering. Have you ever considered suffering, in GOD could be a blessing? The enemy will put suffering on us, but remember even He has to seek God to do so.

A dear sister of mine was used to share some wisdom. She said, “God qualifies us. He said, consider my servant Job. He says the same about us. You are not only being considered for the job, you have been chosen.” It really changed my perspective. Not to say that it is easy, and there is no struggle. Because, that my friends would be a lie. But, what I can share is, it is definitely made easier, by leaning on GOD.

I ask forgiveness, if I indirectly put off the mourning process. I repent for getting defensive when people would tell me, it’s ok. They would say it’s ok to grieve. BUt, what they really meant, was not in relation to the spirit of grief, it was about mourning.

JOY comes in the mourning. Do you know how long we have cried out for JOY??? Because it has been a LONG time. For me personally it has been decades. I would cry so hard, my nose bled. In fact, over 36 times, in the last 2 years, I have wept that hard. So, when people say “You’re not grieving. I think huh???” In my head I’m going, “I have had the Garden of Gethsemane experience, many times.”

The hardest part about everything that has happened, is the pulling away GOD has done. There have been people, who could not handle His GLORY, who have run away, or tried to hitch a ride, and were adequately and swiftly removed by God. It would be so easy to get bitter, or overcome by sadness and nothingness. To just be saturated by the world, and discouraged on every single turn, would really be a piece of cake. But, David and I can’t do that.

It would be for one, so disrespectful to GOD. For two it really wouldn’t serve a purpose. Because it would just create more HELL in the process. Meaning, it would multiply death instead of life over to others. If we chose to ignore the healing that God is so graciously offering, we’d surely die, and quickly. Don’t you think that is the enemy’s plan?

I have friends and even some family who have confessed secrets to me. I go before God and ask HIM, “Why are they not coming to you with this?” I don’t mind people confiding in me. I repent daily, and rebuke gossip or anything not of God rearing it’s ugly head. I’m grateful that God is teaching me to be more quiet in spirit and even more teachable. But, having said that, “I am not God. I cannot fix the problem.” I can be loving, and a listening ear and often am, but right now it is hard to do so. I ask for patience please, as does David.

This is a time and season where GOD has stripped us pretty RAW. We asked to be made real, raw and relational. we asked HIM to make us bulletproof. What a process. Dear LORD in Heaven….only HE fully knows. SO many LOVE us, but don’t get it. which is totally ok. Because, ALL that really matter is, “God does.”

I pray these entries are healing for someone. I was thinking about a movie recently. A woman wrote a blog and no one responded. I wonder, “Is God using us to help others?” Yet, in asking this I didn’t realize that it was a prideful statement. I so repent of that. It seems ok, simple even. But, it was clouding my healing process. The healing that HE so graciously has gifted.

Lord, forgive us for any time we have directly or indirectly tried to do your job. YOU alone are GOD. You created us for a purpose, to LOVE and worship you, and to be used to share that holy LOVE. We reject the lies of the enemy this day. We lay down anything, be it emotion, thought, action, or something else, that might be hindering intimacy with you. LORD, you are the oxygen we need. When fastened unto you, the enemy will see a sign that says, “ACCESS DENIED.” Glory to you, Heavenly Father. Glory to you LORD JESUS. Glory to you HOLY SPIRIT. All honor and GLORY belongs to you.

In Jesus Holy Name and BLOOD,

Amen

http://www.openbible.info/topics/mourning

This morning when this was spoken to write about. Everything in my flesh said. NO! The little girl in me, the child, began questioning my Heavenly Father. Thank God He is patient, and kind. Not to mention, how loving is our GOD. I was told that it is time to get to the root issues. That the word speaks about overcoming in 2 ways. The ways mentioned are the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. The third way is by the word of God. Using the word as a holy weapon from a place of faith in GOD is never wrong.

However, today we are going to talk a little bit about what happens when the word is used for evil. The word of God is very clear about certain things. It is clear about not touching His anointed children. IT is clear about the LOVE of God. IT is clear about the discipline of GOD. Sometimes there are things in scripture which appear vague. I believe God did that on purpose. IT was to cause us to become Fully reliant on HIM. Not to be fully reliant on each other.

We have had so many people be used by the enemy in our lives. IN fact, WE have been used by the enemy too. But, here is the point Of God’s Glory. It is formed in the darkest places. It is birthed in the places where it appears that ALL the light has been snuffed out. Do you know how many people believe the enemy over God? That are so afraid that they are underserving of God’s love. That was supposed to say undeserving, but both are true. 😉 Do you see yourself as worthy? NOt from a place of entitlement that is unholy, but from a place of love. Do you love yourself, just because GOD created only one you??? I can tell you in ALL honesty for years I did not love and accept myself. I looked to other people to fill that void.

Thank God that HE never gave up on me. He kept waiting for me to come back into His fold. He kept me safe, yet I was exposed to much darkness. In fact, what appeared to be a loving Christian family home was anything but. Does anyone relate? We grew up with religion, but little relationship. Our lives were about fixing others, not loving them. Yet, I still desired so deeply to love. When I was little, my mother said something to me. She looked at me and said, “Katy, you need a lot of love.” She might as well have said, ” I can’t love you as much as you need me to.” She wasn’t supposed to. Yet, no one knew, or if they did, they did not share with me. I grew up hated in so many aspects, yet desperately craving love. I didn’t really want attention, but it appeared that I did. I got so persecuted a s a kid.

I am certain that somewhere it has been discussed how I felt as a child. Specifically, what it led me to, making those emotions my temporary god, is what I’m referencing. This blog is not all about me, but I do believe God wants me, David and anyone else He leads to write here, to be real, raw and relational. That means, we have to get personal. As a teenager at around age 18, I became friends with a “witch.” Now, this person was very open about her “craft.” In fact, I would say she was even proud of it. At this age, I was so unaware. She might as well have said I’m purple. I mean that is how deceived to this world I was. I had no idea that the word witchcraft was in scripture. I just wanted a friend. Now, this was something that God used greatly in my life to teach me about right and wrong. He slowly taught me about what pleased HIM and what does not.

Notice I am not mentioning this person’s name here? There is a very specific reason. I have no desire to slander anyone. IN fact, if I have ever been used to call someone out on this, and it was not in God’s plan, I repent. We are so not perfect, but we thank GOD that He is bringing His perfect out of us. He is molding us as we sit and reflect in HIS GLORY. This friend of mine, she was like a sister. I had such compassion for her. Without realizing it, I saw myself in her. I am not saying I was actively participating in evil with malicious intent. I am saying that I saw the same things affecting here that affected me. YOu see, Gentile or jew, witch, or warlock we ALL have and had an opportunity to be free and receive our savior.

I chose Christ at age 9. I remember when I was little, I cam e into the world craving God. Yet, He seemed nowhere to be found. Occasionally, I would find something that looked like HIM. But, everything seemed to be fake. IT seemed I had death ALL over me from such a young age. I thank God for redemption. I thank GOD that He healed me from speaking death. In fact, He heals me daily of this. He heals US of this. When I chose God I did so from guilt. They spoke of going to hell, and what would happen if we served the devil. I was, quite frankly, terrified. Plus, somewhere inside there was a treasure of holy truth. I knew that HE would love me, even if no one else did.

I was “best friends” with this person I mentioned for 16 years. I find that interesting. She left our friendship. I still love her. I even miss her. But, I know that like Jesus, I had to surrender it. Jesus walked among many people. He visited many homes. But, His heart was guarded and kept for the Heavenly Father. We have divorced ourselves from the enemy. God healed my friend when she wa son the verge of death. I cried out to Him. I’m not sure she even knows. I pray for the children of this world, ones who are so lost. Only God can save them.

Last night I watched the movie “Beaches.” I have seen this movie many times. But, I always get fresh revelation when watching films. God showed me that I have had many brothers and sisters. I have had many of the experiences in the movie, and will have many more. But, the point is, who did I turn to for fixing me? When I seemingly had lost my most precious treasure, whom did I seek? Was is my husband? Was it friends? No….it was GOD. I bask in HIS GLORY every day. Because, nonetheless, He is faithful. He is worthy. He is TRUTH, HOnor, LOVE, compassion, Peace and Holy Clarity. That and so much more…is our mighty GOD.

If you have encountered evil and have not chosen God, please don’t wait. The story is coming to a close. I have visited HELL before, and you do not want an eternity there. You have a GOD who created you and He loves you. He will give you every chance possible to receive that love, until the chances run out. It will be LOVE that conquers the enemy not hate. HIS LOVE….Heavenly LOVE will conquer evil. IT is only a matter of HIS time.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/witchcraft

Thank you LORD for covering and sealing us in the blood of Jesus. You alone can make a way from no way. Our joy and hope is in you alone. We cannot fear DEATH, or even the enemy for Jesus has overcome the grave and so shall we, by HIs LOVE.

IJHN AMEN

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam