Author Archives: Ellie Sharpe

Dancing with Jesus

For days I have been meditating on this entry. What does it mean to DANCE with Jesus? A dance partner, requires complete trust. You are putting your life, in his or her hands. The more experienced partner leads. He is indeed, our loving leader. He is GRACE. Therefore, even when we fall, it can be graceful. But, we have to say YES. It starts with that one word.

Remember the Just say NO campaign? Who prospered it? God did. He gave them the great ideas, to reach out to families. I know, there were other agendas, but what I remember is the GOOD purpose. That was and IS to SAVE us. To keep us from ALL harm. I used to think, if I just stayed away from drugs, and tried my best to live a good life, THAT would be enough. But, I was striving to WIN God’s Love. Like, it was a prize I got, only when GOOD. But the TRUTH is, HIS LOVE is ALWAYS present.

I was reading a book today, and in it, it discusses a scenario. It was of a man and his brother. The brother was observing his walk with God. One man, was not in love with God, and because of the observation, was terrified to LOVE HIM. Oh, did this convict me. Tears welled up in my eyes. I cried out to HIM. I said, “I am so sorry, if anything I did, or said, drove someone away from YOU.” I say that now, to anyone who may have been, one of those, pushed from God, instead of to HIM. Please forgive me, and give HIM another chance. Because ALL God wants from us is to RECEIVE His LOVE.

So many, focus on everything that has to be changed. But, HE just wants to dance. He wants to be our partner. He desires to be our best friend. He wants our hearts. Years ago, I heard a song called, “The Dance.” It was back, when I listened to lots of country music. Even then, I looked for God in everything. I was a teenager, and I just wanted to find my way. I just hoped it was HIS. I remember equating this song to relationships. But now, I see it as how Jesus felt. Let me explain.

It’s all about, how He was glad He did not know, what was coming. I believe Jesus did not fully know, until HE KNEW, what would come, then and now. When He said yes, it was because, He loves us, and loves HIS Father. I believe He only had glimpses of the battle, but yet, had complete PEACE in the process. WHAT an example we have to follow! He never chose to doubt the plans of Heaven. He just allowed what to come, to come.

His life on earth, was a dance with Heaven. Because of it, WE can now, dance with Jesus. We can now, hurt with HIM, heal with HIM, and LOVE through HIM. Many of us have lived a LIFE in the middle. We sort of stayed somewhere between good and bad. But, JESUS, only CHOSE the GOOD. Which means, when someone did something, that He did not agree with, many times, He would overlook it. He took it to HIS Father.

17 Apr 2016


I woke from a dream. In it, I was singing, and praising God, as my spirit cried out for holiness. For He says, “When you PASS through the waters, I will BE with YOU.” This is so important to remember.

This song came across my FB page today…

“Tell Your Heart To Beat Again”

You’re shattered
Like you’ve never been before
The life you knew
In a thousand pieces on the floor
And words fall short in times like these
When this world drives you to your knees
You think you’re never gonna get back
To the you that used to beTell your heart to beat again
Close your eyes and breathe it in
Let the shadows fall away
Step into the light of grace
Yesterday’s a closing door
You don’t live there anymore
Say goodbye to where you’ve been
And tell your heart to beat again

Just let that word wash over you
It’s alright now
Love’s healing hands have pulled you through
So get back up, take step one
Leave the darkness, feel the sun
Cause your story’s far from over
And your journey’s just begun

Tell your heart to beat again
Close your eyes and breathe it in
Let the shadows fall away
Step into the light of grace
Yesterday’s a closing door
You don’t live there anymore
Say goodbye to where you’ve been
And tell your heart to beat again

Let every heartbreak
And every scar
Be a picture that reminds you
Who has carried you this far
‘Cause love sees farther than you ever could
In this moment heaven’s working
Everything for your good

Tell your heart to beat again
Close your eyes and breathe it in
Let the shadows fall away
Step into the light of grace
Yesterday’s a closing door
You don’t live there anymore
Say goodbye to where you’ve been
And tell your heart to beat again
Your heart to beat again
Beat again

Oh, so tell your heart to beat again


THIS is such a powerful song, by Danny Gokey. The very first time I heard it, was so powerful. I was with a dear sister, who is really enduring a lot. She and her little angels, were out and about. We were about to go inside, for lunch. But God intervened. A song came on, and before he sang, the music drew me. she said, “Well, let’s listen.” So, we did. We both wept. It was such a piece of Heaven on earth.

After the song was over, I found myself still struggling with it. Only NOW, days later, am I able to receive what it says and means. Because, the first time, I need to be honest. I just thought, “I don’t want to!!!!!” Not just like a screaming 2 year old. But, from the depths of my soul. I realized that I was asking God to give me a reason to BE.

Have you ever felt that way? Like NOTHING in the natural is how it should be? Because, I was there. Separated from everything, but GOD. I was at the door of the prison, ready to walk OUT. The doors were OPEN. But, I was so used to the pain, the hurt, the darkness. I had lived THERE for so LONG. I was always with Jesus. But, I was THERE, in the dark hidden away.

The problem is, in that cavernous place, the GOOD cannot stay. It requires coming out of the DARK places, to experience MORE of the GLORY of God. For it is formed within the darkness. But, eventually, it is BIRTHED into the LIGHT.

Eventually WE must take the hand of JESUS, and WALK OUT and AWAY from the darkness. It does not mean, He will never send us to be of rescue. It means, WE will not be PART of the DARK. Yesterday, I did my best to explain something. Someone was sharing their intrigue with a certain book and movie series. My response was simple. “I don’t go there anymore. I do NOT fault those who do. I simply know, that I cannot.” I stay in the LIGHT with Jesus. It is where my HOME IS. It is where it is SAFE. And, Because HIS LOVE keeps growing, IT is the palace of Victory.

More insight on the scripture, “When you PASS through the waters, I will BE with YOU.” It is not just literal water. Sometimes it is. BUT, it also refers to the water of LIFE, and Death. For, we are ALL dying. Only He knows when our last day, on earth will be. But, anyone can DIE for HIM. He wants us to LIVE for and WITH Him. Can everyone do that? They CAN, but WILL they? According to the word of God, the answer is no, not ALL will. But, I know that I will, and our family will. I know this, because, our test in LIFE and our destiny is every breathe with and for Jesus.

01 Apr 2016

The Bridge

12933147_1006662052755725_309458154322036022_nResizeImageHandlerjesus_095In my life, very early on, there was a bridge to Jesus. It was called PAIN. I am not saying it was a friend. Nor, am I implying that it was good. But, it DROVE me to HIM. It was a vehicle in my life. When people threw stones, ridiculed me, slandered, lied, and even threatened; it was my path back HOME.

In the arms of the ONE, who LOVES me, is where I belong. But, when life is okay, or seems that way, it is so easy to take GOD for granted. I am almost 40 years old. In that time frame, there has been MANY trials and testings. There have been times, where I truly believed, I was hated by God.

Life did NOT make sense to me. In the experience I had, that meant I was hated. But, things in HIS world, and by HIS LOVE, are very different. It sounds strange to say this. But, now when I feel pain, I smile. I used to cry, and ask God where He was. I was taught to rely on my feelings, which was NOT a safe thing. In the KINGDOM of Heaven, and by it, you rely on His word, and HIS LOVE. You learn, that whether of not, you FEEL it, HIS LOVE is around.

In the most difficult times, I have been challenged to let JESUS alone, BE my faith. I had someone share with me today, something so kind. She said, “I can hear the strength in your voice.” I sure don’t feel strong. I feel so worn, and most often, like I’d love to turn back time. But, I can’t and so, I sit with Jesus. I weep with Him. I hope with Him. To be honest, sometimes, I yell at Him. I ask HIM, what was the purpose, and what IS the purpose.

He reveals. even deeper the LOVE He has for me, and for you. To receive it, takes courage. Because, the world, will keep trying to say it is wrong. It will lie, and say it won’t save you. But, having LIVED through HELL, so many times, I can tell you; it CAN and it WILL Save you. It already has. It simply is just a matter of reception.

The other day, I watched a movie, with the same title as this entry. It was about a book store, that came from a tragedy. It started me wondering, what has come from ours? I’m reminded that the pain, has always led me back to the cross. That place, where I FIRST met Jesus. The place where regrets died, and every good, bad, ugly, or beautiful thing, died too. But, you know what else happened? The GOOD was resurrected there. It IS still.

I repented to God for allowing the pain, to be a problem. Or, allowing it to sway my emotions. For all those, who said they would BE here, leaving us, or me. For allowing the hurt, to comfort me, for SO LONG, instead of Jesus, I apologized. ALL the times, I ran to others, instead of HIS arms, I laid down. All the guilt, that I held onto, like a security blanket, I gave up. Does that mean, I just woke up ALL better?

Well, NO. What it means, is that the process keeps going. Even if WE stop, HIS process of LOVE, Healing, and purpose, continues on. JESUS is the BRIDGE to the Father in Heaven. He is also the reason, that WE can connect to the spirit of God. Day to day, HIS LOVE is a river of LIFE that flows.

In teaching us to just BE in His presence, He shows us the sweetest and most beautiful parts of HIS heart. It is NOT easy. As our flesh gets crucified, it often FEELS just unbearable. BUT, HIS LOVE is the BRIDGE to the healing. HIS LOVE is what gives us the breath, the strength, and the ability to move forward. His LOVE is what brings us NEW LIFE. It is truly the BRIDGE out of the darkness. The bridge, out of nowhere is named JESUS.

I remembered that in 2010, a book came out. My very first one. I did not like the title. Because, quite frankly, I was scared. I was so afraid, that if I obeyed God, only BAD would keep coming. But, what I did not realize, was what looked BAD, only covered the good up. Sometimes, there are things that look SO awful. There could NOT possibly, BE anything positive, that came out of them. But God. In the worst place, HIS LOVE is present.

It is SO easy to look at what was NOT, or will NOT BE. But, in HIS eyes, everything resides. All the things that did NOT Happen here, DO in HIS arms. The world, will see Heaven invade. But, without a desire for HIS plan, they might not notice.

Will you let JESUS be YOUR bridge OUT?

John 14:6 ESV / 6 helpful votes

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

1 Timothy 6:19 ESV / 5 helpful votes

Thus storing up treasure for themselves as a good foundation for the future, so that they may take hold of that which is truly life.

Job 12:7-10 ESV / 5 helpful votes

“But ask the beasts, and they will teach you; the birds of the heavens, and they will tell you; or the bushes of the earth, and they will teach you; and the fish of the sea will declare to you. Who among all these does not know that the hand of the Lord has done this? In his hand is the life of every living thing and the breath of all mankind.

Genesis 1:31 ESV / 4 helpful votes

And God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good. And there was evening and there was morning, the sixth day.

Hebrews 11:32 ESV / 3 helpful votes

And what more shall I say? For time would fail me to tell of Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, of David and Samuel and the prophets—

Romans 6:23 ESV / 3 helpful votes

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Luke 6:20 ESV / 3 helpful votes

And he lifted up his eyes on his disciples, and said: “Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God.

Isaiah 57:15 ESV / 3 helpful votes

For thus says the One who is high and lifted up, who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: “I dwell in the high and holy place, and also with him who is of a contrite and lowly spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly, and to revive the heart of the contrite.

Ecclesiastes 9:5 ESV / 3 helpful votes

For the living know that they will die, but the dead know nothing, and they have no more reward, for the memory of them is forgotten.

Proverbs 27:23 ESV / 3 helpful votes

Know well the condition of your flocks, and give attention to your herds,

Psalm 16:10 ESV / 3 helpful votes

For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol, or let your holy one see corruption.

Exodus 23:5 ESV / 3 helpful votes

If you see the donkey of one who hates you lying down under its burden, you shall refrain from leaving him with it; you shall rescue it with him.

Exodus 20:12 ESV / 3 helpful votes

“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.

Exodus 20:10 ESV / 3 helpful votes

But the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, you, or your son, or your daughter, your male servant, or your female servant, or your livestock, or the sojourner who is within your gates.

Genesis 2:7 ESV / 3 helpful votes

Then the Lord God formed the man of dust from the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living creature.

Genesis 1:26 ESV / 3 helpful votes

Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our likeness. And let them have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the heavens and over the livestock and over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.”

Genesis 1:1 ESV / 3 helpful votes

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.

Revelation 20:4 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Then I saw thrones, and seated on them were those to whom the authority to judge was committed. Also I saw the souls of those who had been beheaded for the testimony of Jesus and for the word of God, and those who had not worshiped the beast or its image and had not received its mark on their foreheads or their hands. They came to life and reigned with Christ for a thousand years.

Revelation 18:1-24 ESV / 2 helpful votes

After this I saw another angel coming down from heaven, having great authority, and the earth was made bright with his glory. And he called out with a mighty voice, “Fallen, fallen is Babylon the great! She has become a dwelling place for demons, a haunt for every unclean spirit, a haunt for every unclean bird, a haunt for every unclean and detestable beast. For all nations have drunk the wine of the passion of her sexual immorality, and the kings of the earth have committed immorality with her, and the merchants of the earth have grown rich from the power of her luxurious living.” Then I heard another voice from heaven saying, “Come out of her, my people, lest you take part in her sins, lest you share in her plagues; for her sins are heaped high as heaven, and God has remembered her iniquities. …

Hebrews 11:1-40 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible. By faith Abel offered to God a more acceptable sacrifice than Cain, through which he was commended as righteous, God commending him by accepting his gifts. And through his faith, though he died, he still speaks. By faith Enoch was taken up so that he should not see death, and he was not found, because God had taken him. Now before he was taken he was commended as having pleased God. …

1 Timothy 6:16 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Who alone has immortality, who dwells in unapproachable light, whom no one has ever seen or can see. To him be honor and eternal dominion. Amen.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 ESV / 2 helpful votes

But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep. For this we declare to you by a word from the Lord, that we who are alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will descend from heaven with a cry of command, with the voice of an archangel, and with the sound of the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive, who are left, will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we will always be with the Lord. …

Colossians 3:20 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.

1 Corinthians 15:22 ESV / 2 helpful votes

For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.

Acts 13:22 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And when he had removed him, he raised up David to be their king, of whom he testified and said, ‘I have found in David the son of Jesse a man after my heart, who will do all my will.’

Acts 2:41 ESV / 2 helpful votes

So those who received his word were baptized, and there were added that day about three thousand souls.

John 17:3 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And this is eternal life, that they know you the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent.

John 3:13 ESV / 2 helpful votes

No one has ascended into heaven except he who descended from heaven, the Son of Man.

John 1:14 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth.

John 1:10 ESV / 2 helpful votes

He was in the world, and the world was made through him, yet the world did not know him.

Luke 11:2 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And he said to them, “When you pray, say: “Father, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come.

Mark 16:15 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.

Matthew 10:29 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father.

Matthew 5:3 ESV / 2 helpful votes

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 5:1-48 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Seeing the crowds, he went up on the mountain, and when he sat down, his disciples came to him. And he opened his mouth and taught them, saying: “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. “Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. …

Proverbs 12:10 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Whoever is righteous has regard for the life of his beast, but the mercy of the wicked is cruel.

Proverbs 6:6-8 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise. Without having any chief, officer, or ruler, she prepares her bread in summer and gathers her food in harvest.

Psalm 150:6 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!

Psalm 148:1-14 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord from the heavens; praise him in the heights! Praise him, all his angels; praise him, all his hosts! Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars! Praise him, you highest heavens, and you waters above the heavens! Let them praise the name of the Lord! For he commanded and they were created. …

Job 38:41 ESV / 2 helpful votes

Who provides for the raven its prey, when its young ones cry to God for help, and wander about for lack of food?

1 Kings 18:28 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And they cried aloud and cut themselves after their custom with swords and lances, until the blood gushed out upon them.

1 Samuel 17:34 ESV / 2 helpful votes

But David said to Saul, “Your servant used to keep sheep for his father. And when there came a lion, or a bear, and took a lamb from the flock,

Deuteronomy 25:4 ESV / 2 helpful votes

“You shall not muzzle an ox when it is treading out the grain.

Deuteronomy 22:4 ESV / 2 helpful votes

You shall not see your brother’s donkey or his ox fallen down by the way and ignore them. You shall help him to lift them up again.

Leviticus 25:7 ESV / 2 helpful votes

And for your cattle and for the wild animals that are in your land: all its yield shall be for food.

Leviticus 19:28 ESV / 2 helpful votes

You shall not make any cuts on your body for the dead or tattoo yourselves: I am the Lord.

Exodus 23:11 ESV / 2 helpful votes

But the seventh year you shall let it rest and lie fallow, that the poor of your people may eat; and what they leave the beasts of the field may eat. You shall do likewise with your vineyard, and with your olive orchard.


29 Mar 2016

A Broken Rainbow

once_opon_a_broken_rainbow_by_memory_clockI was going to write a post today, about a letter to my Father. But, I turned on the computer, and saw a picture. It had a broken rainbow, with lightening cutting through it. It also had a butterfly angel, above it all. I could not help, but think, “This is my life.” So, redirected, this became.

I knew this month, the post, with this tile would come to be. I remember last month, when the name, was given. When I think about a rainbow, I consider it the most beautiful symbol in all of creation. But you know what else, I have noticed? It fades. It is not something that stays, in the natural, forever.

To the naked eye, a rainbow appears, and disappears. I was always mindful of certain sayings, as a child. Remember this one; “Into each like, a little rain must fall?” Or how bout, “It rains on the just and the unjust?” Someone told me to grow up recently. This individual, or what influenced the person, told me that I was stuck as a child.

I don’t know whether that statement is true. But, what I do know, is right now, on this day, and in this time on earth, I am a broken rainbow. I’m not sure when it started. Honestly, I’m not sure that matters. Nor does, who was involved, to bring me to this place. The place where, because few understand, it is easier to just label me.

You see, when something happens to me now, I wonder. I think, did this happen to Jesus? Some say, He never experienced everything that we do. But, you know what I ponder? If He still is, through us. In life, there have been so many times, that I was called to isolation. Not, called to ignore everyone. But, to sit at the cross.

I was reflecting today. I do that, especially when I am in a tender place. Do you do that? Look back at life, and take stock? There was a time, just recently, where I said to God, “I gave you everything. You have a lot of making up to do.” Let me be clear, I am not trying to tell God what to do. I know, that I probably don’t deserve the restoration. Especially, if you were to ask those, who directly got hurt involving me. They would yell, “crucify.” Many of them do, every day.

But, you know what I have noticed? Even when this happens, and the more it does, and I hurt or lash back; the more Heaven comes. Another saying I heard as a child, “Everything happens for a reason.” Though a true statement, it does not discuss, that the reason is to break us.

To my mother and earthly father, I thank them. I know, there have been days, I wanted never to be born. Particularly days, where the pain, was so intense, that I could barely breath, and I wanted an ending. I did not even care if it was happy. I just wanted one.

Behind closed doors, resides many broken rainbows. Not just the obviously broken, like homeless or beaten. But, the ones who have given ALL, just to fall again. I was watching the movie previously mentioned. There is a part, where the son says, “This is the day you killed your son.” He says this to his earthly dad. I thought about a parallel in my life. I remember the day, where one of my parents, said my name and told me, I needed a lot of love. A part of me died that day.

I was a teenager, and I felt like I was doomed. The way it was said, made me feel like I was too much trouble to love. That, no one, no matter what it looked like, would ever truly love me. Also, that this person, who was supposed to LOVE me, unconditionally, could not do it. I’m not sure I have ever fully recovered, from it.

I became determined, that I was gonna find me some LOVE. If my parents could not give it, I was going to find it somewhere. So, I started looking for it. But, little did I know, what would come. I remember at 17, I gave up the most precious part of me. I did so willing, and because I was afraid. People had talked to me about waiting for marriage. But, I so desperately, wanted to be loved. I confused LOVE, with physical intimacy.

Time, after time, I would believe, to be loved, I had to be physically intimate. But, then I would feel so awful later. Even when I got married, and it was okay to be that way, to make love; it was not real. I have talked about my marriage before. But, suffice it to say, some of the most broken people, were able to LOVE the most. Meaning, JESUS moved through them, even though he did not dwell there.

I don’t remember the name of everyone I was intimate with. All old soul ties, have been broken away from them all. I hope and pray that each of them, has or will have, a beautiful life. I never knew that I was prostituting, myself for love. These I was with, these guys, they loved me, most of them. But, just like I was told, “I needed a lot of love.” No one could fulfill it.

To this day, no one can. No one, but Jesus. He is the promise. He in the unbroken rainbow. Because, His Love, is what brings the colors, and causes them to be, so bright. I read a post recently. It was a in a group on FB. It was very simple. It asked a question. “Have you seen Jesus?” So, I ask a similar question. Have you EVER seen or been a broken rainbow?

Have you, in your place, where ONLY you can go, and ONLY God can find you, noticed the hurting? I am pretty sure, everyone, will answer, yes. Even unbelievers will answer yes. I don’t always believe. I am going to be real about it. My faith gets VERY tested. There are times, I have screamed, or wept before God, asking Him, why I am hated. It is very tough, to always receive LOVE. Especially LOVE from GOD…

Why? Because, receiving the LOVE of God, requires A LOT. It is easier, to just reject it. But, I am also beginning to SEE, that even if I try to do that, I cannot. Can you? Is it easy for you to walk away, and reject the LOVE? Because, we are rejecting the RESTORED rainbow.

A dear sister told me recently, that a few prayers were finally answered. Some, had been kind of in utero, for over 20 years. I thought, “Sure, He answers your prayers. And, He answers mine, for others. But, I will not get happy. That is not in the cards for me. ” Now, some would say, “That is a lie. ” Maybe it is, and maybe not. I don’t think that is the point. Perhaps, the point is, that I was conditioned to truly believe this. So, I lived it.

In every area of my life, I would always wonder, “How long will this last?” Because, I just got a taste of the good. I don’t live in a fantasy world. I live in His world. And, doing so, is NOT always roses without thorns. But, it is what must be. Someday, I hope to truly 100% believe that the Good, does not have to go away. Until then, I’m here….waiting.

In His Grace,



13 Mar 2016


When I was called to write today, I truly didn’t have anything to say. Because, right now, everything sounds like complaints. But, then 2 songs came to mind.

The first one…is this

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that’ll bring you traumaOverseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin’
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK

But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah

Madness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach?
Or would you turn the other cheek?

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love

It just ain’t the same, old ways have changed
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace are so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong?

Nations droppin’ bombs
Chemical gasses fillin’ lungs of little ones
With ongoin’ sufferin’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin’ really gone

So I could ask myself really what is goin’ wrong
In this world that we livin’ in people keep on givin’ in
Makin’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin’ on but the reason’s undercover

The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach?
Or would you turn the other cheek?

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love, the love, the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m gettin’ older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin’
Selfishness got us followin’ the wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema

Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love we’re spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity

That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
Gotta keep my faith alive ’til love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

Father, Father, Father, help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love?

Sing with me y’all:
One world, one world (We only got)
One world, one world (That’s all we got)
One world, one world
And something’s wrong with it (Yeah)
Something’s wrong with it (Yeah)
Something’s wrong with the wo-wo-world, yeah
We only got
(One world, one world)
That’s all we got
(One world, one world)


Ignoring the whole one world senario here, the point is pretty clear. This individual, is VERY aware, of the lack of LOVE on the earth. You know the song right? It was a HUGE  hit for Black eyed, peas, years ago.

The second song… has the same title as this entry…

It came from a movie called Grace Unplugged.

Under the surface We’re all the same Searching for purpose I’m sorry I’m not All the things that you want All the things thought I should be I guess I’m not like you Not something you’re not used to Maybe something brand new, you’ve never seen Wish I could read your mind Come on let me inside I’ll never waste your time Wish you could somehow see That i will always be all that you want from me Tell me who’s to blame Do you feel better? Causin me pain So much pain I’m sorry I’m not all the things that you want All the things that you thought I should be I guess I’m not like you Not something you’re used to Maybe something brand new you’ve never seen Wish I could read your mind Come on let me inside I’ll never waste your time Wish you could somehow see that I will always be All that you want from me It’s my time it’s my turn But I need to make this on my own You’re not right I’m not wrong so just let me go I’m sorry I’m not all the things that you want All the things that you thought I should be Wish I could read your mind Come on let me inside I’ll never waste your time Wish you could somehow see That I will always be all that you want from me You gotta let it You gotta let it go You gotta let it go.
I truly believe, that God is misunderstood, in this world. The REAL God, not this fictional magician, that you hear about in most churches.
The ONE who made you, and who gives you Grace to fell, not feel, or even to reject HIS Love. DO you know how many people, are doing so each day? A LOT.
I truly believe, that He is tired of all the garbage. The mudslinging, and fighting in the body of Christ. If WE are not truly united, then how can He return?
I was thinking about the first song today. I was thinking I could write a whole nother verse to that one. Something like, Wives neglected, children unprotected. Work as God, and money leading the way. Where is the LOVE?
Someone asked me one time, how to love me. It was an honest question, that I truly had to think about. The answer, love GOD. Because, right now, that is the ONLY answer. To truly LOVE GOD and to receive HIS LOVE in return.
If you have one without the other, it is truly unrequited LOVE. That means, it is LOVE that appears, fulfilling, but it is not. I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of pretending to live in some fairytale Heaven. I want the REAL thing.
Don’t you? Or, are you okay having all these people, who could know what REAL LOVE is, accept the fake? I’m not okay with it. Yet, on the real side, I’m not sure how much fight is left, in me.
You know the response, I usually get, when I say that? I get, oh you’ll be fine, it will get better. People mean well, when saying those things. But, it might not get better. I say this not to be negative, I am simply saying, that this MIGHT be all there is.
I have to make peace with that, somehow. Because, if I can, then I will begin to appreciate the good again. Or, at least to see it. Only God knows, and sometimes, He does not feel the need to share His information. So, the answer, to where is the LOVE?
It’s inside, it comes from the seed of GOD who lives in us. A third song came to me…

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine,
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine,
let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.
Hide it under a bushel – NO!
I’m gonna let it shine.
Hide it under a bushel – NO!
I’m gonna let it shine,
Hide it under a bushel – NO!
I’m gonna let it shine, Let it shine,
let it shine, let it shine.
Don’t let Satan blow it!

I’m gonna let it shine.
Don’t let Satan blow it out.
I’m gonna let it shine
Don’t let Satan blow it out.
I’m gonna let it shine,
let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.
Let it shine til Jesus comes.
I’m gonna let it shine.
Let it shine til Jesus comes.
I’m gonna let it shine,
Let it shine til Jesus comes.
I’m gonna let it shine.
let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine,
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine,
let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.
let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

The fact is, whether we DO anything, or BECOME anything, somehow, someway, God’s light shines. My relationship with God, has taken quite a blow, and it’s sort of like starting over. Instead, of picking up, where we left off.

I guess it’s time for HIM to show me the LOVE, in a different way. Because, the ways, He tried b4, and I did, don’t seem to hold the same shine anymore.
How do you tell your heart to beat again, when it just won’t listen? How do you tell yourself to sparkle, when you’ve lost your glistening? He says, “I love you, even if you don’t believe it’s true. It won’t change my love for you. I’ll love you anyway.”
How do you make peace, with the pain? Still be thankful, for the sunshine and the rain? He says,” I love you, even if you don’t believe it’s true. It won’t change my love for you. I’ll love you anyway.”
How do you keep going, when your heart is in ashes? When the flickers going out, and everywhere you look, is trashed? He says, “I love you. Even if you don’t believe it’s true. It won’t change my love for you. I’ll love you anyway. Love you more each day. No matter what they say, the labels may not go away. But, you can know that I’ll be here, loving you, anyway.”
So, why is He misunderstood? Why is His LOVE misunderstood. Oh, there are SO many reasons. But, the number one reason is, simple. We have NOT been taught from HIS heart, in full, what it looks like.
The harvest of the LORD, I am convinced, is a heart shaped door. But, we can’t truly love each other. So, how can WE be used to help save the world?
Recently, I was watching a show, and the person on it said, “DO NOT open a DOOR, you are NOT willing to WALK through.” I thought, what a warning for the body of Christ. Are you willing to WALK through the door of HIS LOVE?
I requires everything…and more.
In His Grace and Love,
E and Fam
Here is the scripture that spoke to me, regarding this entry

1 Samuel 15Amplified Bible (AMP)

Saul’s Disobedience

15 Samuel said to Saul, “The Lord sent me to anoint you king over His people Israel. Now listen and pay close attention to the words of the Lord. Thus says the Lord of hosts (armies), ‘I will punish Amalek for what he did to Israel, how he set himself against him on the way when Israel came up from Egypt. Now go and strike Amalek and completely destroy everything that they have; do not spare them, but kill both man and woman, child and infant, ox and sheep, camel and donkey.’”

So Saul summoned the people and numbered them at Telaim—200,000 foot soldiers and 10,000 men of Judah. Saul came to the city of Amalek and set an ambush in the valley. Saul said to the [a]Kenites, “Go, leave, go down from the Amalekites, so that I do not destroy you along with them; for you showed kindness to all the Israelites when they went up from Egypt.” So the Kenites departed from among the Amalekites. Saul defeated the Amalekites, from Havilah as far as Shur, which is east of Egypt. He captured Agag the king of the Amalekites alive, though he totally destroyed all [the rest of] the people with the sword. Saul and the people spared Agag and the best of the sheep, the oxen, the fatlings, the lambs, and everything that was good, and they were not willing to destroy them entirely; but everything that was undesirable or worthless they destroyed completely.

Samuel Rebukes Saul

10 Then the word of the Lord came to Samuel, saying, 11 “I regret that I made Saul king, for he has turned away from following Me and has not carried out My commands.” Samuel was angry [over Saul’s failure] and he cried out to the Lord all night. 12 When Samuel got up early in the morning to meet Saul, he was told, “Saul came to [b]Carmel, and behold, he set up for himself a monument [commemorating his victory], then he turned and went on and went down to Gilgal.” 13 So Samuel came to Saul, and Saul said to him, “Blessed are you of the Lord. I have carried out the command of the Lord.” 14 But Samuel said, “What then is this bleating of the sheep in my ears, and the lowing of the oxen which I hear?” 15 Saul said, “They have brought them from the Amalekites, for the people spared the best of the sheep and oxen [c]to sacrifice to theLord your God; but the rest we have destroyed completely.” 16 Then Samuel said to Saul, “Stop, and let me tell you what the Lord said to me last night.” Saul said to him, “Speak.”

17 Samuel said, “Is it not true that even though you were small (insignificant) in your own eyes, you were made the head of the tribes of Israel? And the Lord anointed you king over Israel, 18 and the Lord sent you on a mission, and said, ‘Go, totally destroy the sinners, the Amalekites, and fight against them until they are eliminated.’ 19 Why did you not obey the voice of the Lord, but [instead] swooped down on the plunder [with shouts of victory] and did evil in the sight of the Lord?”

20 Saul said to Samuel, “I have obeyed the voice of the Lord, and have gone on the mission on which the Lord sent me, and have brought back Agag the king of Amalek, and have completely destroyed the Amalekites. 21 “But the people took some of the spoil, sheep and oxen, the best of the things [that were] to be totally destroyed, to sacrifice to the Lord your God at Gilgal.” 22 Samuel said,

“Has the Lord as great a delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
As in obedience to the voice of the Lord?
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,
And to heed [is better] than the fat of rams.
“For rebellion is as [serious as] the sin of divination (fortune-telling),
And disobedience is as [serious as] false religion and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
He also has rejected [d]you as king.”

24 Then Saul said to Samuel, “I have sinned; for I have transgressed the command of the Lord and your words, because I feared the people and obeyed their voice. 25 Now, please, pardon my sin and return with me, so that I may worship the Lord.” 26 But Samuel said to Saul, “I will not return with you; for you have rejected the word of the Lord, and the Lordhas rejected you from being king over Israel.” 27 As Samuel turned to go [away], Saul grabbed the hem of his robe [to stop him], and it tore.28 So Samuel said to him, “The Lord has torn the kingdom of Israel from you today and has given it to your neighbor, who is better than you.29 Also the Splendor and Glory and Eminence of Israel will not lie or change His mind; for He is not a man that He should change His mind.”30 Saul said, “I have sinned; but please honor me now before the elders of my people and before Israel, and go back with me, so that I may worship the Lord your God.” 31 So Samuel went back following Saul, and Saul worshiped the Lord.

32 Then Samuel said, “Bring me Agag, the king of the Amalekites.” And Agag came to him [e]cheerfully. And Agag said, “Surely the bitterness of death has come to an end.” 33 Samuel said, “As your sword has made women childless, so shall your mother be childless among women.” And Samuel cut Agag in pieces before the Lord in Gilgal.

34 Then Samuel went to Ramah, but Saul went up to his house in Gibeah of Saul. 35 Samuel did not see Saul again until the day of his death, for Samuel grieved over Saul. And the Lord regretted that He had made Saul king over Israel.


11 Mar 2016


11250155_10153643998796223_3692579556315771082_n10356327_797736560298840_800842292463146719_n11202110_10154345977482785_478541223262868865_n12239719_10153428949738579_1494682980063883186_n10885101_10204570307329565_2892851412103914149_nYesterday, I felt that nudge to write. I have been dealing with some things, for a few months. Lots of really yucky symptoms especially, that just sometimes happen to me. Who knows why? Really, only JESUS knows the exact reason. Have you ever had that happen? For me, I have dealt with it, A LOT. But God.

Perhaps you went to see the doctors, and described the symptoms. Yet, most and maybe almost ALL of them, had no ideas. I did not know the title, of this entry, till today. I heard the word, “Bonanza.” I turned on the tv, kind of hoping, to catch the last half of a show. Guess what was on? Bonanza. This particular show, was about a blind girl. In particular, an accident that created the problem.

How many times have we had this happen? In our lives, how many times, did something create blindness? The fact is, even if it is not, literal blindness, like her case. Thankfully, hers was temporary. I noticed, in the show, that after she was asked to marry her beau; she could see. A miracle happened, we SHE embraced LOVE. She was SO excited!!!! She went to her Father, and told him. But, he did not share her excitement. He was a very fearful man.

Her dad tried to convince her to lie, and say she was still blind. Because those who accidentally harmed her, were giving them blessings, and such. It was from guilt though, and he was terrified they would stop. She obliged, but regretfully, and of course, was found out. SEE that is what happens, when we try to please man.

Let’s look at the definition of Bonanza 🙂

Simple Definition of bonanza

Popularity: Top 30% of words
  • : something that produces very good results for someone or something

  • : a large amount of something valuable

Full Definition of bonanza

  1. 1:  an exceptionally large and rich mineral deposit (as of an ore, precious metal, or petroleum)

  2. 2a :  something that is very valuable, profitable, or rewarding <a box-office bonanza>b :  a very large amount <a bonanza of sympathy>

You see a BONANZA can be a wonderful thing, or a challenging one.  It is somthing to consider….

Bible verses about Spiritual Bonanza
(From Forerunner Commentary)

Nehemiah 8:13-18

Nehemiah 8 records a significant festival period in Judah’s history. This occasion begins on theFeast of Trumpets during the rebuilding of Jerusalem’s wall following the reestablishment of those Jews who chose to return from their Babylonian captivity. They had good cause for their emotional response to keeping this Feast of Trumpets in this particular location and time under the stresses they had already endured, all the while knowing that those stresses were not yet over. This was in all likelihood the first Feast of Trumpets observed in seventy years, and who knows how long the Jews had not observed it before they went into captivity?

Their joy continued, as verses 13-18 relate the first keeping of the Feast of Tabernacles in the land in a long time.

“Not since the days of Joshua the son of Nun had the children of Israel done so” probably means the Feast of Tabernacles had not been kept with the combination of all the elements in their right proportion to constitute a great Feast. They were obedient, in the right place, in the right attitude, with the right emphasis. The books of Kings and Chronicles provide records of the feasts being kept by Israelites during the period between Joshua and Ezra, but they did not always keep them consistently or correctly, especially in attitude and purpose.

However, we can see that Ezra understood the Feast of Tabernacles to be a spiritual bonanza whose fruit was rejoicing.

John W. Ritenbaugh
Amos 5 and the Feast of Tabernacles

THIS is just one example, in scripture of how Bonanza happened. Always encourage you to seek out more. 🙂

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam


11 Feb 2016

The Afflictions of TIME

Many are the afflictions of the righteous. How many times, have WE complained about something??? How many TIMES have we FOUGHT for our OWN way. As IF, God did not or does not KNOW ALL, that’s how we act. BUT, THAT is a LIE. GOD IS SOVEREIGN. This means there is nothing, that takes place, or is planned, that He is not privy to.  When conflict gets out of HAND it usually has simple reason why. The reason why is, that OUR idea or picture, is superseding HIS.

Just a few days ago, He spoke this title to me. In my spirit, I thought, “THIS is gonna be good.” But, my flesh, sure has been fighting the process, it seems. But God. Let’s look at the definition of AFFLICTION.


An affliction makes you suffer, but you have to deal with it anyway. Diseases are often said to be afflictions, but the word can mean just about anything that causes great suffering.

The word afflict, which makes up the first part of the word, means to cause this type of trouble. “Tom liked to afflict pain on his brother. His brother considered Tom just one more affliction he had to bear.” The word can also be used as an exaggeration of something that isn’t so bad––”Homework is often seen as an affliction by students and parents alike.”

Psalm 34Amplified Bible (AMP)

The Lord, a Provider and the One Who Rescues Me.

A Psalm of David; when he pretended to be insane before Abimelech, who drove him out, and he went away.

34 I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

My soul makes its boast in the Lord;
The humble and downtrodden will hear it and rejoice.

O [a]magnify the Lord with me,
And let us lift up His name together.

I sought the Lord [on the authority of His word], and He answered me,
And delivered me from all my fears.

They looked to Him and were radiant;
Their faces will never blush in shame or confusion.

This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him
And saved him from all his troubles.

The [b]angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him [with awe-inspired reverence and worship Him with obedience],
And He rescues [each of] them.

O taste and see that the Lord [our God] is good;
How blessed [fortunate, prosperous, and favored by God] is the man who takes refuge in Him.

O [reverently] fear the Lord, you His saints (believers, holy ones);
For to those who fear Him there is no want.
The young lions lack [food] and grow hungry,
But they who seek the Lord will not lack any good thing.
Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you to fear the Lord [with awe-inspired reverence and worship Him with obedience].
Who is the man who desires life
And loves many days, that he may see good?
Keep your tongue from evil
And your lips from speaking deceit.
Turn away from evil and do good;
Seek peace and pursue it.

The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous [those with moral courage and spiritual integrity]
And His ears are open to their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To cut off the memory of them from the earth.
When the righteous cry [for help], the Lord hears
And rescues them from all their distress and troubles.
The Lord is near to the heartbroken
And He saves those who are crushed in spirit (contrite in heart, truly sorry for their sin).

Many hardships and perplexing circumstances confront the righteous,
But the Lord rescues him from them all.
He keeps all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.
Evil will cause the death of the wicked,
And those who hate the righteous will be held guilty and will be condemned.
The Lord redeems the soul of His servants,
And none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned.

Simple Definition of time

Popularity: Top 10% of words
  • : the thing that is measured as seconds, minutes, hours, days, years, etc.

  • : a particular minute or hour shown by a clock

  • : the time in a particular area or part of the world


Full Definition of time

  1. 1a:  the measured or measurable period during which an action, process, or condition exists or continues :durationb:  a nonspatial continuum that is measured in terms of events which succeed one another from past through present to futurec:leisure<time for reading>

  2. 2:  the point or period when something occurs :occasion

  3. 3a:  an appointed, fixed, or customary moment or hour for something to happen, begin, or end <arrived ahead of time>b:  an opportune or suitable moment <decided it was time to retire> —often used in the phrase about time<about time for a change>

  4. 4a:  a historical period :ageb:  a division of geologic chronologyc:  conditions at present or at some specified period —usually used in plural <times are hard><move with the times>d:  the present time <issues of the time>

  5. 5a:lifetimeb:  a period of apprenticeshipc:  a term of military serviced:  a prison sentence

  6. Okay, NOW we will discuss how AFFLICTIONS and TIME collide. If an affliction, is something that creates suffering, and time is a period or unit of measure, then how do they work together? Well, when we focus on OUR time, which is froma place of pride, most often, WE open the doors for MORE afflictions to come. For example, if God leads us into a dark place, to be a light, but it is not happy. Not only that, it feels borderline tormenting and torturous. Especially, if IT is a plce we ventured out of before, and must now FACE the Giants.

You see, the promised land has giants, but giants can also be formed from OLD thought patterns too, or by us. This has been stated b4. This post was originally made, in December, on the 17th, the year 2015. The self is the worst. In our affliction with time, we often rehearse the pain. Like a performance, or such. It can be too much, for those nearby. Yet, angels anre sent to assist. You may not recognize. In fact, NEVER without HIS eyes.

But, there is no time and space in HIS world. Every boy and girl, just IS and can BE. You see? Time after time, Jesus arrives, with mop broom, bandages, and braces. He hugs and kisses every face. Perhaps you do not feel it. Because, it may NOT be REAL to you. Yet, is IS. Quite simply…proof of the LOVE. For, the afflictions of time, exist NOT, in the arms of our greatest LOVE. #JESUSHEALS

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam

17 Dec 2015

Heaven’s Bootcamp

oA few days ago, in fact, maybe even weeks ago, this came to me. I thought, how do I write about this? So, I took some time, and just sought God for answers. What I believe He revealed is simple. Heaven’s Bootcamp, is the LIFE of Jesus. Let’s look at the definition of bootcamp.

Full Definition of BOOT CAMP

:  a navy or marine corps camp for basic training
:  a disciplinary facility or program in which young offenders are forced to participate in a rigidly structured routine.
The world defines it, in this way.
Scripture defines it, a tad different.
In Ephesians it gives us VERY specific instructions…Chapter 6

Ephesians 6Amplified Bible (AMP)

Family Relationships

Children, obey your parents in the Lord [that is, accept their guidance and discipline as His representatives], for this is right [for obedience teaches wisdom and self-discipline]. Honor [esteem, value as precious] your father and your mother [and be respectful to them]—this is the first commandment with a promise— so that it may be well with you, and that you may have a long life on the earth.

Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger [do not exasperate them to the point of resentment with demands that are trivial or unreasonable or humiliating or abusive; nor by showing favoritism or indifference to any of them], but bring them up [tenderly, with lovingkindness] in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.

[a]Slaves, be obedient to those who are your earthly masters, with respect for authority, and with a sincere heart [seeking to please them], as [service] to Christ— not in the way of eye-service [working only when someone is watching you and only] to please men, but as slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart; rendering service with goodwill, as to the Lord, and not [only] to men, knowing that whatever good thing each one does, he will receive this back from the Lord, whether [he is] slave or free.

You masters, do the same [showing goodwill] toward them, and give up threatening and abusive words, knowing that [He who is] both their true Master and yours is in heaven, and that there is no partiality with Him [regardless of one’s earthly status].

The Armor of God

10 In conclusion, be strong in the Lord [draw your strength from Him and be empowered through your union with Him] and in the power of His [boundless] might. 11 Put on the full armor of God [for His precepts are like the splendid armor of a heavily-armed soldier], so that you may be able to [successfully] stand up against all the schemes and the strategies and the deceits of the devil. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) places. 13 Therefore, put on the complete armor of God, so that you will be able to [successfully] resist andstand your ground in the evil day [of danger], and having done everything [that the crisis demands], to stand firm [in your place, fully prepared, immovable, victorious]. 14 So stand firm and hold your ground, having [b]tightened the wide band of truth (personal integrity, moral courage) around your waist andhaving put on the breastplate of righteousness (an upright heart), 15 and having[c]strapped on your feet the gospel of peace in preparation [to face the enemy with firm-footed stability and the readiness produced by the good news]. 16 Above all, lift up the [protective] [d]shield of faith with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.

18 With all prayer and petition pray [with specific requests] at all times [on every occasion and in every season] in the Spirit, and with this in view, stay alert with all perseverance and petition [interceding in prayer] for all [e]God’s people. 19 And pray for me, that words may be given to me when I open my mouth, to proclaim boldly the mystery of the good news [of salvation], 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. And pray that in proclaiming it I may speak boldly and courageously, as I should.

21 Now, so that you may know how I am and what I am doing, Tychicus, the beloved brother and faithful minister in the Lord, will tell you everything. 22 I have sent him to you for this very purpose, so that you may know how we are, and that he may comfort and encourage and strengthen your hearts.

23 Peace be to the [f]brothers and sisters, and love joined with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. 24 Grace be with all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with undying and incorruptible love.

In our LIVES Bootcamp has had levels. I have experienced the BOOTCAMP of Hell, in some ways, but thankfully NOT anything that Jesus could not handle. 😉

I believe MANY of us come in destined to choose JESUS. In my case, the bootcamp intensified a few times for me. The most obvious time, was when Sarah was born. I had delivered to me, a piece of my HOME. Not just a baby, but a super baby, through JESUS. This sweet angel, I just had no idea. In fact, WE had no idea, just what her LIFE meant to God, and means to God. Even though her journey, is quite different than ours, we choose to see the parallels, and HIS Love in process.

So, back to boot camp….It got even more vigorous when I got married. Specifically, when my husband and I got married, our life went from incomplete, to complete. Yet there was a struggle to THRIVE. In boot camp of the world, it is highly structured. When going through Heaven’s bootcamp, it is a bit alternative. Because, the book is LOVE. That is the instruction book. You know what the book is? His word.

I have had people tell me, there is some horrific stuff in scripture. I agree. There IS. However, there is WAY more beautiful, than anything. My husband and I made a vow to God. We made this vow, and covenant when we married, but also when Sarah was 3 1/2. I will NEVER forget the day, he and I were sitting on our bed. A place, where much damage had been done, in our lives. Yet, we sat there, and cried out to God. WE really begged HIM to help us be the BEST examples we could be. We laid down our desires, any pride, negative emotions, all in honor of JESUS. Even before we knew what that meant, we asked the GLORY to shine.

Thank God for the Grace to beg for help. Jesus does not want us to stay beggars. But, He meets us, when we are there. It is ONE of the reasons we have so much passion for widows and orphans. Because we ARE them. ANy of us, could be or has been LOST. So, why should we overlook the pain? Is THAT Jesus? Look at HIS LIFE. He stopped to help ANY that desired HIS LOVE.

So many are so very focused on the laws of things, that they neglect the LOVE. Our bootcamp was a place that, to be honest was not VERY joyful, most of the time. When we did laugh, it was often followed by a flood of tears, of anger. Dear LORD, we were so broken. I will tell you, that we did NOT do everything right. But, JESUS did. When we messed up, and at first, that was a lot, we would come to God. Often, we would just be weeping, or wailing. We would repent for any influence that displeased HIM. We condemned ourselves, and then were in many ways, the enemy’s greatest tool. In doing this, we indirectly rejected His LOVE. Not that this was on purpose, or even made known to us then, but it was rejection.

We were living life on purpose, going to church, and doing our best to be our best. Do you notice something here? I did not say, we were enjoying life. I believe there were remnants of heaven. But, WE were so broken, my husband and I, that we were constantly fighting to exist. Yet, it says we fight not flesh and blood. So, why were we? Have you experienced this? We were striving. It fact, we were constantly doing this. We had 3 properties, a business, and we were really JUST drowning. You know why? Because GOD had to show us, that HE is our way out. That, when we get done, beating our heads against the wall, HE would and will be there.

The truth is, that WE all are prodigal kids. WE were given a portion of our inheritance. We did not waste it, or squander it. Yet, God permitted the enemy to buffet us. He allowed them to steal from the holy spoils. Why? Because, our JOB was then and NOW, to forgive. We never own anything, ALL belongs to God. So, why is it, that when something threatens, what we steward, we get offended? Because, the world looks for a fight. We had to learn to let JESUS do the fighting.

He gave us Grace to investigate the evils. We learned a lot. But, what we learned the most, was is HIS camp, HE wins. Meaning, NO matter what it looks like, HIS camp is always going to celebrate. 🙂 That does NOT mean it will always feel good to  our flesh. In fact, a lot of times, it does NOT. BUT, it does to our spirit. For, the JOY of the LORD is our strength, and indeed HIS Grace IS sufficient for us.

I personally, have obviously been in HIS bootcamp for almost 11 years. At least in a way that is obvious to me. 😉 BUT, I am growing and learning to SEE, that it begins when we first breathe, earth’s air. When David and I were joined, from the Heaven’s to earth, we fairly quickly, began to encounter Heaven. But, it sure felt like HELL on earth. WE have had MANY seasons together, and I know will endure and experience many more. I have no doubt that my husband was made for me, and I for him.

At least NOW, I know and having the knowledge of Heaven, dispels, the LIES. I know many who are struggling with the questions of Life. I call them, the whys, whats and huhs. Because, in the beginning when God is establishing residency, and LOVE and showing HIS loyalty, WE are given such GRACE to ask questions. In fact, I learn NEST that way. What about you?

Yet, there is a point for no more questions, in certain areas. Meaning, we cannot harp on our desire to know, or demand the answers all the time. WE are NOT God and WE cannot exist, as though WE are. Forgive us LORD, for anytime, we have pushed things too far, and indirectly, created opportunities, or encounters of rebellion. For we know, THIS is not pleasing to you. Thank you for bringing Heaven in place of Hell. You do THIS every single day, and so many do not even notice. Give us your EYES and EARS Lord Jesus. By you spirit, presence, and your LOVE may all evil bow down. IJN (in Jesus name) Amen

It took me a bit, to finish this entry. Because, whenever God has us share, indivisually, or corporately, it is for one reason. HIS LOVE needs to be poured out. He does THAT in so many ways. That should say individually, but both are true. 😉 I have been in the other camp, thankfully, not in a way that I was openly choosing evil, on purpose. Most often, I was captivated, or pulled into a snare. I know my destiny. It is to, by FAITH, serve the ONE that made me.

Be NOT conformed by THIS world, but YE transformed, by the renewing of YOUR mind. ( the bible)

Ask the Lord to reveal to you, MORE about HIS word. It is a smorgasbord of HIS LOVE and our HOME.

In His Grace, Glory and Favor,

E and Fam




08 Dec 2015

HE holds the KEYS to the JEM World

A few days ago, I was exercising with our daughter. While doing so, I heard the title of this blog. I thought, “What an interesting one.” I had a friend ask me, why I spelled the word jem, with a J. Here is the reason, JESUS. I was given an acronym. It is JESUS ETERNAL MAJESTY. For Jesus holds the keys to death and Hades. It says this in the word of God. You know what is absolutely amazing? So, do WE, through HIM

THE GREATEST GEM to GOD is the character of Christ ~

When I was a child, I used to watch a show called Jem and the Hollograms. This show was about a girl, who was very ordinary, on the outside. Yet, she became something extraordinary. Now, ignoring, the whole magic aspect of it all, we can see more. Meaning, JESUS and HIS LOVE makes us extraordinary. We can REST in HIM. We can REST in HIM making LIFE go, the way He desires for us. The KEY is HIS desires, not ours. I recall as a kid, wanting to be like JEM. What I really wanted, was to be someone else.

I wanted to go on stage, which was everyday life for me. Because, i was raised to perform. I don’t think anyone did it on purpose. It is just how it happened. I was raised, to hide how I felt. Yet, I could not, and so, guess what happened? I became the “problem” child. I did not see myself as good. I did not see myself as anything positive, at all. I definitely did not believe God loved me. Yet, I so trued to LOVE HIM.

I felt like a porcelain doll. A broken doll, that was always going to be cracked, and truly, would never be fixed. Somehow, I got it in my head, that if I fixed enough people, God would fix me. But, that was a lie. No matter how many success stories, I saw, I was still broken. It was a trap, really. Looking back, I see that I thought it was me helping or fixing. When, all along, it was JESUS. Even when I took credit, Jesus stood by me. Often, He watched over me, because I would not LET Him assist, as much as He would have liked.article-0-18F3722200000578-71_634x360 article-2504855-191FA85800000578-926_634x575gem-bitcoin-company

I guess, the reason I liked this show, was because I WAS her. I never knew it then, but I do now. I remember my parents introducing me to friends. They would do so with such pride. It REALLY bothered me. Because, I thought, “What have they got to be proud of?” I also fought the battle of the voices. Things would taunt me. I would hear, “YOU are NOT good enough and you NEVER will BE, They don’t LOVE you and never will, NO ONE will ever care about you, YOU will end up alone, Just KILL yourself, They HATE you, YOU will never be part of THIS family”, and many more horrible words.”

I share this to let you know, that JESUS rescued me then, and does now. I still have the battle of the words. But, NOW through HIM, I can overcome them. Jesus Eternal Majesty. PEACE in HIS LOVE and the fact that, HE never fails is present here. Even if I feel anxious, worried, sad, depressed, or some other emotion that is negative, I can choose JOY. I can choose to LIVE through HIM, on earth as it IS in Heaven.

GEMS are beautiful, and He sees us ALL as HIS GEMS. We all are the rainbow of HIS LOVE. Which means, we are not just ONE Gem in our lifetime, but ALL of them. JEM, is both a fictional character, and JESUS ETERNAL MAJESTY. It is okay, if it is both. Because, i watched Jesus teach Sarah and other kids, about HIS LOVE, through that show. I was one of those kids too. Isn’t HIS LOVE Glorious???

I have seen the GEM room in Heaven. It is stunning. It is Heaven, so THAT part is no shock. Everything in Heaven is glittery and beautiful. THIS is how Jesus wants US to be. HIS LOVE needs to shine through us, and DRAW people into HIS place. We should, through HIM, be a light in the city on a hill. But are we? I think that is something to ask HIM. His answers are all in HIS word, about what we are to HIM. Yet, are we choosing THIS, naturally speaking? I know it is a challenge for us sometimes. But, thankfully, He gives a clean slate, any times, as we repent from our hearts. Hos forgiveness is healing indeed.

Now, remember something there is also another word for Jem, which is GYM. I find it so interesting that there are 3 ways to share this one word. The last way is significant. Because, JESUS should be our personal trainer. We need to workout with HIM. He should be the ONLY one pushing us. No other individual, should be our EVERYTHING, but Jesus. So, why do we look to others, to do, what ONLY He can?

I believe it is simple, we have been TOLD we should.

Forgive us LORD, for falling prey to the lies, and remind us, that ONLY YOU hold the KEYS to death and Hades, and ONLY YOU can complete the process of our freedom. WE LOVE you JESUS, Heavenly Father and HOLY SPIRIT. We thank you for a new day, and we, by FAITH decide to decree and declare, that WE LIVE in your world today. Bring em’ Heaven LORD. We choose YOU. In Jesus name. Amen

Proverbs 3:15

She is more precious than jewels; And nothing you desire compares with her.

Proverbs 31:10

An excellent wife, who can find? For her worth is far above jewels.

Ezekiel 27:16

“Aram was your customer because of the abundance of your goods; they paid for your wares with emeralds, purple, embroidered work, fine linen, coral and rubies.

Revelation 21:19-21

The foundation stones of the city wall were adorned with every kind of precious stone The first foundation stone was jasper; the second, sapphire; the third, chalcedony; the fourth, emerald; the fifth, sardonyx; the sixth, sardius; the seventh, chrysolite; the eighth, beryl; the ninth, topaz; the tenth, chrysoprase; the eleventh, jacinth; the twelfth, amethyst. And the twelve gates were twelve pearls; each one of the gates was a single pearl. And the street of the city was pure gold, like transparent glass.


19 Nov 2015


29caf0651dd94f57758d9befcb449fc81393995_10201078220131542_2001900371_n12189871_730291773768079_329414883154103138_nYesterday, when I was getting, the prompting to write, I heard this phrase. I thought of the movie, with the same title. “TWO WEEKS NOTICE.” Have any of you seen it? The movie is about a lawyer, who takes a job, for a purpose she believes in. She takes a job, with a man that everyone sees as a BIG WIG. Once she gets in the position, she realizes, that the man, is Just a MAN. Meaning, he has a heart, pain, desires, and wants LOVE. I won’t tell you the plot completely, but suffice it to say, it has surprises in it.

So, as I was praying about this, I realized something. That MAN can represent Jesus. We come before HIM, often law based, and demanding our purpose be revealed. When the TRUTH is, HIS purpose is what matters. Don’t WE want that? Because, if WE don’t REALLY desire, fully HIS purpose, we need to take a hard LOOK. The scripture came to me, “Work out your own salvation.” Also, “Study to show thyself approved.” Both of these are really significant here. WE are HIS BRIDE. We have to choose to receive HIS LOVE. We do this, by FAITH in Jesus. TRUE FAITH comes from the finished work, that HE has completed. He is BOTH, the tree of LIFE and the ROOTS.

There are MANY that are in desperate situations and circumstances. Always, God gives us a choice. We can HEED His instructions, and receive HIS blessings, or WE can reject HIM. For us, and our family, the choice is simple. HIS LOVE conquers everything. This does NOT happen, from a place of religiousness. It happens from a beautiful garden of intimacy. I ask you something now. Are you willing, to give God 2 weeks? Can you give HIM 14 days, to turn around your burden? Not just to turn it around, but to handle it. God can and WILL do it.

God does not need THAT long. He can do it is a minute, hour, day, couple days, anytime HE chooses. But, 2 weeks is specific. 14 is the BIBLICAL number of DELIVERANCE. I urge you, to by FAITH in Jesus, surrender the TIME b4 HIM. We have done this, and ARE doing this too. Because, WE always need MORE FREEDOM. We always need MORE healing. He wants us purified, sanctified, and cleansed.

HE is our purpose. HIS LOVE Grounds US. His HEART unites us. HE is why WE can exist here. God does not ignore His kids. Yet, He waits for us to come to HIM. As patient as it appears that the enemy is, GOD is MORE. As strategic, and relentless, as it appears, the enemy is, GOD is MORE. Jesus, the Heavenly Father, and the Holy Spirit united are UNSTOPPABLE. Does God say it will be easy? NO. However, I would not even want to imagine, how much more difficult without HIM.

There is DOOM and GLOOM without JESUS. But, with HIM, there is HOPE. There is GRACE, MERCY, FORGIVENESS, JOY, PEACE, and MORE in JESUS’s ARMS. All the desires that WE have, that are GOOD and HOLY, are held in the hands of God. Also, they are held in HIS heart, and are waiting. He is a GREAT God, and He gives as WE receive. His giving also often arrives through surrender. That is an interesting word. Because, MANY want to have one foot, in Heaven and one in the world. But, He is clear that WE cannot serve BOTH God and Mammon. So, why are so many trying?

There are numerous reasons, why people stay stuck. The number 1 reason, is because they feel UNWORTHY to move forward. Even DEEPER, they have judged themselves, unworthy to receive HIS LOVE. But, that actually negates what Jesus did. When we choose guilt, rejection, unworthiness, it causes sadness to the LORD. I don’t know about you, but I want to make HIM happy and joyful. I want HIM to look at me, and be pleased. Even if NO one else, were pleased with ME, my desire is that HE smiles.

The challenge set before you is THIS : For 2 weeks say thank you to God. Begin with 5 minutes, start slow. You can even start with 3 minutes. A devotional is a good tool as well. Increase the time, and list of what you are giving over to HIM. I am beginning this today, with our family. Believing that Heaven will come, and Hell subside. I have FAITH in HIM, that HIS LOVE will conquer ALL EVIL. No weapon formed against US will prosper, and HE will bring the increase. To the enemy, JESUS has given you 2 weeks notice, and you will see HIS ROAR, soon enough.

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam

14 Nov 2015