If you have ever read this blog before, you know one way God reaches me. It is through movies. 🙂 Yesterday, seemingly out of nowhere, our house had a little speed bump come up. It happens sometimes, in the healing process. It is especially common when families, grow together. 🙂 Many of us know enemy tactics. But, do we really UNDERSTAND the strategies of Heaven?

For example, the one gift we can give God is to surrender ALL, stay repentful, and work in unity. It does not seem like much, but, the obedient sacrifices, are worth so MUCH to Him. He will honor them, so greatly, because each one is a seed. It is a seed, through Jesus, who is our tree of LIFE. I say this, to say that yesterday was interesting to me. I called my husband and asked him a question. It was a simple question. I said, “Honey, Could I go see a movie?” Now, I asked him for one reason, and one only. God led me to, and my husband deserves to be honored. Because, my request, was simple and sincere, He honored it.

I went to the theater, and I began to ask God what movie to see. At first, logic told me to see one movie, then another caught my eye. So, I asked the people at the desk, about reviews. Afterwards, I knew God was calling me to see, ONE in particular. The movie is called “Our Brand is Crisis.” I will come back and add more to this entry. I am going to let that germinate a bit, and we will pick up later. God bless you.

In His Grace and Glory,

E

Okay, we are back and ready to share more of this review, of the film. 🙂 The movie begins with a strategist, played by Sandra Bullock. She has gone through the ringer. She made some very bad choices, and they led to the downfall of many. But yet, she got another chance, to help a candidate. They came to her for assistance, because despite, her fall, she had a good reputation. Looking at our lives, I can so relate.

I have had deep humiliation, pain, embarrassment, shame, hurts, rejections, and more. What about YOU? Can you relate??? As I was watching the film, I not only related to her character, I could see JESUS in it. There is NOTHING that we endure, that He has not. That is VERY good news indeed. Therefore, when we face difficult circumstances, WE can REST in His victory. In the MANY victories, that JESUS brings, WE can REST. His name is, just that, VICTORY.

So, in the film the strategist, goes through much difficulty to help this candidate. There is warfare, that the movie, only touches on. What really stood out to me, was the character who opposes her. This man, in the film, is just dripping with evil. He goes for the jugular, with her. Does the enemy not do this, with us? I won’t give away the plot of the film. I will say though, that there is A LOT there, in the film.

It helped me to see, even deeper just how MUCH God fights for us. it encouraged me, to be even more grateful for the fact, that HE is designed to be my advocate. Jesus is my strategist. He leads and orders every step. Through the power of the Holy SPirit and Heavenly Father, WE see victory happen. BY His LOVE and through His Grace, we exist. He will send many angels in disguise to assist us. Will WE be wiling to receive?

Or, will we be so busy entertaining the evil, that WE miss God’s hand in our lives? Eventually, God has to step back. He will LOVE us, and never leave us, but He may watch for a bit. Because, if WE are not willing to TAKE and apply the strategies of Heaven, then sadly, He has no choice, but to let us have our private hell.

When God revealed to me, I was in agreement with evil, I had to denounce it. I had to divorce it. How? Through the LOVE of JESus. i encourage you, to seek HIS will for your lives. Because, HIS will is the ONLY way, that will work, long term. It is better to be willing to die to us, so that HE can live. I am a testimony of His healing. More every day, He brings Heaven, in place of hell. He does so, because WE are and have been submitting to His desires for many years.

MESSAGE FROM THE KING…

They’re watching. Even the angels are watching. Continue speaking TRUTH, that is rooted in Holiness and Righteousness. Be not religious, or believe I can be limited. My LOVE can, will and HAS conquered. But, will you FULLY do it My way? Many are saying they are for ME, but I see. I know who IS and is NOT for me, and who will be. My BRIDE will be spotless, without wrinkle. She will not attempt to LIMIT my LOVE, in any way. She will be purified, and united with ME. I will cleanse her, of all of this world. She will be given new strategies, and even more, Heavenly instructions and wisdom. So, my precious ones, are you willing to MARRY ME? Can you DIVORCE yourselves from THIS world? Will you let my WORD wash you, white as snow? Are you ready to withstand the FIRE, by my Grace and mercy as well as LOVE. For, I must be your anchor, My shalom, indeed, your portion. This day, for many a New Beginning comes. It will arrive, from Heaven above, on earth as it is, indeed in heaven, your HOME.

This film, helped me to see that, NO matter what it looks like, when we walk away from the evils, THERE is indeed much JOY and GREAT victory there. Our brand in NOT Crisis, it is JOY and HIS name is JESUS. ~

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam

He speaks to me through movies, His word and so much MORE. New open doors, are everywhere. 🙂 HIS LOVE is what is in store. He is requesting us, to come AWAY with HIM. Meaning, Jesus wants us to come play in HIS treehouse. His tree house is beautiful. Yet, when planted on earth, must be planted, where He chooses. You know why? WE are part of it. WE are seeds in HIS TREE of LIFE. You know what is awesome? As WE eat more from Heaven’s table, more LIFE from our TRUE HOME arrives.

JESUS is the tree house. 🙂 He is requesting we come and spend TIME with HIM. In all we do, HE desires to be forefront. In return, He will fill us with so much JOY overflowing. WE are living proof. 🙂 🙂  JESUS is singing  this OVER us tonight.

Nora Jones:

This is a time, that is so exciting and inviting, for His faithful ones. JUBILEE!!!!!! Jubilant JOY, for each obedient, girl and BOY. Those others, will be handled, and loved on with care. But, know this, Jesus will be there. He will handle it. The Lion of Judah NEVER quits. Can’t you hear HIM ROAR, with the sound of LOVE… A new choice, a consistent one, must be made. WE cannot justify old traditions, or things of man. For the spirit grieves, as death is often honored, if only by the ignorance present. He has warned many, and soon ALL will BOW at the name of JESUS.

Full Definition of TREE HOUSE

HE is the VINE and WE are the branches. What tree are we playing in? I want to eat GOOD fruit. I want to be used to produce, GOOD and HOLY fruit. What about you??? Is it a consistent choice, to choose life? Do you want to come and play in the treehouse, of LOVE, known as Jesus?

Years ago, we had various circumstances, that required “play therapy” for our kids. It was how WE as a family, began to grow and heal. In the kids, that were in process, of being adopted, many secrets were hidden. That opportunity, to give them play therapy, was an opportunity to eat of the tree of life.

When Adam and Eve, fell in the garden, it was because they ate of the tree of good and evil. Was that because, God did not want them to know truth? NO. It was more, because God did not want truth, to become manipulated. When Adam and Eve defied and betrayed God, they were so ashamed and afraid of His reacttion. Don’t we understand this? I know, I do.

That treehouse, has thorns, thistles, and broken branches. Ones, that have been damaged, and are barely hanging on, and others, trying to cut the good branches, hidden in between, off. The one of good and evil, houses a lot of confusion, and many questions. THIS leads to MORE questions. DO you see??? The LIFE treehouse, has butterflies, and beauty, and rainbows, and JOY and ALL the fruit you can handle.

The fruit of the spirit leads, the TREE, as it ALWAYS brings and bears, HOLY fruit. The branches, are anchored, by holy roots, and not corroded, at all. THEY are anchored in Jesus. ANY other tree, has roots to the world. SO, you know that we have experienced and awaken, to much of Heaven. We have begun, more each day, to choose LIFE, and play in that tree. WE purposely EAT of the FRUIT of Heaven. LIFE has change and is growing into, HEAVEN on earth. 🙂

Going to share a note, with glympses of HEAVEN, our HOME.

This entry, has required MUCH prayer and fasting. Because, ya’ll, I have to write about my DEATH. I was no like, “Yay, I am so excited, at first.” But GOD. Now, I am thrilled to share of HIS GLORY AND AFFECTIONS!!!! so, HERE WE go. 🙂 I start out, to say, that THIS began in VERY deep intercession. Around Tuesday of last week, I felt the LORD tug on me. I knew He was drawing me into HIM, even DEEPER. I began to think about Sarah, our daughter. When HE drew her in deeper, she seemed to DIE. I say, seemed to, because often, on this earth THINGS look different. It takes HOLY discernment to REALLY digest it all.

Okay, so, I was sitting b4 Jesus, really missing our girl. Not, necessarily, grieving, but just healing from the deep INTERNAL LOSS. As well, as the external loss, but more just focusing on HIS healing in process. So, I sat, and just RESTED. He would not let me connect with anyone, but my spouse. He would come in, and bring me “food and water.” The first time, we experienced this, was when she went HOME, almost 2 years ago. My husband was quite bothered by it, and sought the LORD. Who then told him, to just leave me be. SO, he barely spoke to me. Now, THIS time was very different.

My husband spoke to me, and quite frankly was pretty terrified. I could FEEL it. On my birthday, God had given me a word regarding my LIFE. My 39th B-day would be a time, I would conquer disease. Will explain more about that, in a second. But, when it happened, I think I thought I would wake up, instantly feeling better, looking better and well JUST BEING better. Yet, God had way more important plans, and strategies, I could not SEE. On Tuesday, the 13th, He began to be VERY strict with me.

He let me know, that I must not let in a soul, but DAVID, till otherwise instructed. SO, I, knowing the importance in His tone, agreed, and did as commanded. For 4 days, I sat with GOD and just died, a little more each day. I did listen to His word, on the 16th, and I had many trying to encourage me, to fight. But, I had NO FIGHT LEFT. So, Jesus fought for me. I say this, to tell you, “HE will fight for you, but YOU must be still and LET HIM.” I had to, and God is NO respector of persons.

On the 17th, and really the night of the 16th, something was bugging my husband. Finally, whatever it was backed down, and he left me, to be with God. On the 17th, it continued, and God said, “Let’s do this.” So, He used me to kind of poke at, and nudge my spouse. When this happened, eventually, ALL Hell broke loose. It ended in our room. This room, our sanctuary, is indeed HOLY GROUND. The place where we are has quite a history. I say this, to explain, that IT is a place of DEEP REST too.

At exactly 7:15 am on the 18th of this month, October, I DIED. I mean that in EVERY sense of the word. It was and IS the deepest level of DEATH, that I have EVER experienced. BAR NONE, it is the most powerful resurrection, I have ever seen, thus far. But, it was NOT just a simple resurrection. It was and IS known as ETERNAL RESSURECTION. I was given a choice, to go or stay, in a sense. I knew I needed to stay here.

As far as the details, suffice it to say, that SO MUCH evil, was involved. BUT GOD. I glory not in the enemy or His attempts, but IN MY JESUS, who overcomes. HE does it. He took me over, and as they crucified, and slaughtered me, to the very nth degree, so they did HIM. THIS is what HIS LOVE is truly about. IT is about MOVING forward, ONLY in HIS Grace, LOVE and MERCY. Faith, Hope and LOve, but the Greatest of these, is LOVE.

You see, my fellow readers, friends, family, and more, I was plucked from HELL. So long ago, I was removed from that place. But this, was the time of the promise. The time HIS HOLY seed was brought back, for HIS GLORY, and forth. I LIVE NOW. I was totally DEAD and NOW I CAN LIVE!!!!! Not, again, but REALLY for the FIRST TIME EVER!!!!!!!!

When praying about this entry, it became VERY obvious the topic. Was thinking of foreign countries. They have an embassy. Let’s look at EMBASSY defined. But, before we do, what does it mean to you? Because, when I consider it, I think of a SAFE HOUSE, or HARBOR. I think of a place, where EVIL should NOT be able to touch ME. I think of movies, like “The Saint.” Incidentally, my hubby’s favorite movie, is this one. 🙂 So, now to get to the “world” definition.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/embassy

http://www.openbible.info/topics/jesus_my_embassy

Today I was speaking with a dear sister of mine. I am so grateful for those who often don’t even know, they are angels in disguise. When talking to her, I was so touched by Heaven. Every time, God uses her to counsel me, and I’m set free, even more. I had no desire to write today. I mean less than none. i have always liked to write, when I am calm and completely at peace. But, God wants me to do this broken. So, here we go…

In order to make the point, He wants made, I need to give a bit of background. In some ways, this last week was one of the most challenging, of my life. Not for any reason, that is obvious to most. But, because God called me into HIM. Usually, when He does this, I have plenty of time to prepare. I am usually allowed to let those who are connected to me, know. But, THIS time, that did not happen. I was caught, pretty much off guard, when God did not just ask for time with me. Yes, He is a gentleman, but this was more like, and order from a Holy General.

It was more like, if I did not take the time with HIM, there would be dire consequences. So, I did. I obeyed Him, knowing I would likely be misunderstood, and it was a risk. But, I have learned, often the hard way, what happens when I disobey. Very few times, has God been so stern with me. In fact, the last time, I was in a hospital. But, that is another story. This time, it was like I was lost in time. I know it may be tough to grasp that.

You see, God is NOT a vending machine God. He is a loving Father, brother, and for me, like a mother. God is my family. He is the ONLY family I really ever let in. I grew up, looking like I was a spoiled brat. But, the TRUTH is, I just wanted acceptance. No one ever wanted to hear, what I had to share. People would pretend that they did. But, they really didn’t. I was a lot like Joseph.

My “family”, did not understand me. They put up with me, until my mom died. Then, my dad passed, 15 years later. My dad passed only 4 weeks, almost to the day, after my only child birthed. I haven’t talked much about how I felt. You see, as I kid, I was basically told not to feel. So, when my feelings got too intense, I went to a very bad outlet. It was like a drug. In fact, for 10 years, I would say I was a lot like an addict. I was addicted to causing myself harm. I did not realize that it was an addiction, until today. Truly, it was like this light bulb came on. All of the sudden I knew, I was addicted to that.

I grew up in a religulous environment. Yes, I mispelled that on purpose. It was not just religious. It was so much more than that. I was born into a family, of broken individuals. No one knew how to be free. Yes, we went to church, as a family. But, the same church telling us God loves us, would speak death over us too. It is like I was birthed into a curse. I tried to stay positive, and rely on God. But, it was like, He was this foreign being to me. I just could not plug in.

I made A LOT, I mean A LOT of very bad decisions and choices. I own it too. It really is a miracle, for me to still be breathing. It is a miracle, that God loves me, still. I dealt with and exhibited, abuse, and manipulation, and control. Because, I thought then, that was normal. To this world, it is normal. But, I don’t want to be of this world. I never did. Yes, I go through times, where I just want to be HOME. But, doesn’t everybody? Don’t WE ALL want to experience REAL LOVE? Isn’t it a desire that God gave all of us, to be what He wants?

I believe God wants us to be ALL that WE can be through HIM. But, our brokenness, can be a curse, when it is all we have known. You see, I was birthed into a family affected by many things. That is absolutely true. But, thank God, that by His divine Grace, the buck stops here. You know why? Because HE says so. He says so, and THAT is enough.

I was watching a film, that I have watched many times. In the film the woman is a writer, and a mom. She has young children. I have been there, and done that, and I am certain now, that I will do it again. But this time, it is going to be VERY different. This time, I realize that ALL God really wants from me is one thing. He wants the same thing from all of us. Any guesses???? He wants me to LOVE Him, and to allow HIM to LOVE me, in the amount that HE chooses.

The last part has been REALLY tough to swallow. In fact, it has been so tough to swallow, that it has almost killed me, literally. I know in my mind that God is sovereign. He is not just in control, He is OVER everything. This means, He does not and will not let anything take HIM away from us. NOT EVER! Now, THAT my friends and family, is GOOD NEWS. When tough things have happened to me, I have asked God one question? That question is, “Why can’t I just get over it?”

I finally have the answer? Because, I actually cannot do that. I never will be able to get over it. I admit, I am a bad mom. I am not a great wife. I’m not saying that to speak negative. It’s just, that these things are true, when I do them. The ONLY time, I am successful, is when God does it. He blesses. He LOVES without requiring me to change instantly. His GRACE really IS sufficient. THAT is a miracle. HIS LOVE is the miracle WE need.

We can get so trapped, by even the way the church views things, or our friends. But, HIS LOVE will reach us, if we accept it.. It is through HIS LOVE that you and me can BE FREE. There are many circumstances, that have just devastated me. It was not because, God was last place. It was because, I thought it was a different plan. It is so hard to understand, how you can do EVERYTHING He requires, and still it happens differently. Often, it happens in a way that CUTS us to the core.

But God. My favorite words, the last few years especially, have been 3 words. Not, I love you, or thank you God. My 3 words have been a plea. Jesus Just Breathe. I did not realize, until today how significant those words are. Do you know those three words, tell such a story. I would not be surprised, if the Heavenly Father said those words to Jesus. In a particular situation, and that is the crucifixion.

I have watched a crucifixion. Not in the same way that some have. Still, VERY real and VERY impactful. at one time, it was like I had PTSD. But the truth is, I had HTSD. That last one, stands for Heavenly Truth Stress Dismantling. I am so grateful for it, know that. Though, I would be lying, if I said it was easy to endure. Because, it has NOT been. There has been MUCH persecution. But, His LOVE has overcome. If I am an overcomer, it is for one reason alone. HE NEVER FAILS.

So, as my friend, and dear sister, spoke to me today. It is a NEW DAY, and a NEW TIME, and sometimes it will feel really uncomfortable. But, God says, “YOU are FREE to BE.” So, I tell you today, the 18th, which Biblically represents Bondage, that He is waiting to break you out. It is TIME. Choose His FREEDOM. He wants you to fly on HIS wings, in PURE JOY.

I LOVE YOU all. I don’t know who, if anyone is reading these words. But, I pray that even if no one does, they touch Heaven today. You are SO LOVED, and so AM I. Lord Jesus, I repent for anytime I have hurt someone you love. Not just that I LOVE. i repent for having expectations that have not been pleasing to you. I ask for you to COME and bring Heaven to this place. Because, I am READY NOW, to fully let you LOVE me.

Before anyone freaks out about the title, let me explain it. 🙂 A few days ago, I was sitting with my husband. He wanted to hear some music, from musicals. At first we started, by listening with our “kids.” But, then we retreated to go to sleep. He requested a song from a famous Broadway show. I bet by the title, you can guess which one. It was “Phantom of the Opera.” I listened to the lyrics, for maybe the first time ever. I mean, I had sung them before. Even with passion, I had vocalized the words. But, until that day, my  39th Birthday, I had never realized how much DARKNESS was there.

Many are believing in a phantom Jesus. One that just lets us do and be, whatever we like. The problem is the REAL Jesus is often, getting shafted. Do we realize how many reject HIS LOVE daily? I would say billions, in one way or another. The REAL Jesus is about LOVE. But, disobedience comes with consequences. Sometimes those consequences are obvious. Other times, they are a bit more subtle. The Phantom Jesus allows us to take Grace for granted, and never says a corrective word to anyone.

Just look around you. I am certain you will see many serving this Phantom. It is sad really. SO many affected by religion, and justifying bad choices, that do not honor God. But, yet it is NO surprise to the REAL Jesus. In the show that I mentioned earlier, the main character is filled with evil. In fact, He has been overtaken by it, and yearns to torment and bring it to others. Is this NOT like our enemy? I never considered the parallel before, until recently. The times that God put something together, and satan, would come in and try to destroy it.

The enemy may come to steal, kill, and destroy, but should he get to? Where is our authority? Do we not remember who we ARE in Jesus? Because, the phantom is simply something that looks like God, but is anti. It is appearing to be good, but clothed in evil that may look pretty. Isn’t it time, over 2,000 years later, for the REAL Jesus, to be respected? The one who is moral, kind, loving, compassionate, correcting, healing, and so much more; deserves HONOR. He dies on a cross, the most gruesome death. He took on HELL and had victory then, and NOW.

It is because of HIS valor that WE exists at all. EVERY single gift we have, we ow to HIM. Yet, the church has fallen away from it’s first LOVE. It has, as a whole lost it’s anchor. No wonder the earth is crying out. No wonder there are floods, and stormy weather. Heaven is calling us, into our HOME to be made whole. But, will we respond with JOY? Or will we respond with ANGER? It’s a choice. It has always been a choice.

Know that when you choose JESUS, you choose LIFE. There is a season to learn and Grow. In fact, there is Grace in that place for a while. But, Jesus loves us too much to let us stay in darkness. He is a rescuer. There is Grace to grow, yes, and Grace to learn, but not Grace to stay stuck in the muck and mire. His refining FIRE is present. But, will we receive, from a good place, or a bad?

In my life, I have had a lot of Phantoms. It seemed that I was always searching for the REAL Jesus to show up. I took a lot of bait, and fell into a lot of pits. But, even when I could not SEE, He was watching over me.

The world is so different to me. I don;t live much in it. I live from Heaven, and I highly recommend that. However, you must know, that when you do, you will indeed be tested. The fires of hell will hunt you, but Jesus will extinguish them. He is a conqueror. Even when we fall, and skin our knees, He is a victor. HE keeps on going and HE alone can win the race. So, who are we? What is our purpose exactly?

The disciples, were a lot like interns. Here is the definition of intern.

Jesus’s Rainbow

A while back, I was on an adventure, and God spoke to me. What I hear was simple. “Come play in my treehouse. Now, at first I took that as something specific, that I and our family had been working with. But, later, I realized that it was more than that. What Jesus was saying, was, “Climb up my rainbow of promise.” Perhaps, at the time, I was more reactive to things. In fact, up until VERY recently, it was much more natural for me, to react from pain, than respond fully from LOVE. Is this a struggle for you too? Parenting, is a piece of cake, in relation to say, marriage. Though, not, on purpose trying to compare the two. It’s just marriage is about union with another, and in essence with what that person carries.

I choose UNION with Jesus. I get picked on, and persecuted because of it. This does NOT mean I am perfect. The scripture that came to me, was “be ye perfect, as your Father in heaven is perfect.” This means, through surrender GOD perfects our ways. In our weakness, HIS Grace is indeed sufficient. There is Grace to grow, learn, play, cry, to exist here. Jesus’s rainbow is all about the promises of HEAVEN. Be not conformed of THIS world, but be transformed, by the renewing of your mind. What transforms us? The LOVE of GOD. How does it do so? Through knowing His words are true, and letting that truth penetrate the pain in your life.

This world can be full of “headaches.” You know who is the healer and lifter of our head? Jesus. The hardest part about growth is that, if there is anything hidden, it comes out. The degree that it does so, is between each individual, and God. I used to believe that Grace was given when we messed up. That is a lie. Grace is given, by a measure, to obedient children of God. Not to say the disobedient ones, never receive it. But, those ones, eventually have it cut off from them. Grace is a gift and a weapon. For us to climb up Jesus’s rainbow, we have to OPEN more of our hearts and minds before HIM.

This world, often shoots or tries to kill it’s wounded. But, Jesus picks up and hugs them. He reaches down and gives them kisses, and LOVE. If we have experienced memories of others that beat, hurt, or try to destroy wounded, those must be given to God. As we do this, HE will redeem them, and bring us new memories, and remove the old hurts. We cannot beat ourselves up, when we appear to fail. Just as we cannot beat God up, He created us. WE are treasures b4 HIM, gifts, and precious jewells. It hurts our awesome amazing GOD, when we try and agree with tormenting ourselves, for a mistake or bad choice. This is why repentance is a gift.