Yearly Archives: 2014

This morning when this was spoken to write about. Everything in my flesh said. NO! The little girl in me, the child, began questioning my Heavenly Father. Thank God He is patient, and kind. Not to mention, how loving is our GOD. I was told that it is time to get to the root issues. That the word speaks about overcoming in 2 ways. The ways mentioned are the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. The third way is by the word of God. Using the word as a holy weapon from a place of faith in GOD is never wrong.

However, today we are going to talk a little bit about what happens when the word is used for evil. The word of God is very clear about certain things. It is clear about not touching His anointed children. IT is clear about the LOVE of God. IT is clear about the discipline of GOD. Sometimes there are things in scripture which appear vague. I believe God did that on purpose. IT was to cause us to become Fully reliant on HIM. Not to be fully reliant on each other.

We have had so many people be used by the enemy in our lives. IN fact, WE have been used by the enemy too. But, here is the point Of God’s Glory. It is formed in the darkest places. It is birthed in the places where it appears that ALL the light has been snuffed out. Do you know how many people believe the enemy over God? That are so afraid that they are underserving of God’s love. That was supposed to say undeserving, but both are true. 😉 Do you see yourself as worthy? NOt from a place of entitlement that is unholy, but from a place of love. Do you love yourself, just because GOD created only one you??? I can tell you in ALL honesty for years I did not love and accept myself. I looked to other people to fill that void.

Thank God that HE never gave up on me. He kept waiting for me to come back into His fold. He kept me safe, yet I was exposed to much darkness. In fact, what appeared to be a loving Christian family home was anything but. Does anyone relate? We grew up with religion, but little relationship. Our lives were about fixing others, not loving them. Yet, I still desired so deeply to love. When I was little, my mother said something to me. She looked at me and said, “Katy, you need a lot of love.” She might as well have said, ” I can’t love you as much as you need me to.” She wasn’t supposed to. Yet, no one knew, or if they did, they did not share with me. I grew up hated in so many aspects, yet desperately craving love. I didn’t really want attention, but it appeared that I did. I got so persecuted a s a kid.

I am certain that somewhere it has been discussed how I felt as a child. Specifically, what it led me to, making those emotions my temporary god, is what I’m referencing. This blog is not all about me, but I do believe God wants me, David and anyone else He leads to write here, to be real, raw and relational. That means, we have to get personal. As a teenager at around age 18, I became friends with a “witch.” Now, this person was very open about her “craft.” In fact, I would say she was even proud of it. At this age, I was so unaware. She might as well have said I’m purple. I mean that is how deceived to this world I was. I had no idea that the word witchcraft was in scripture. I just wanted a friend. Now, this was something that God used greatly in my life to teach me about right and wrong. He slowly taught me about what pleased HIM and what does not.

Notice I am not mentioning this person’s name here? There is a very specific reason. I have no desire to slander anyone. IN fact, if I have ever been used to call someone out on this, and it was not in God’s plan, I repent. We are so not perfect, but we thank GOD that He is bringing His perfect out of us. He is molding us as we sit and reflect in HIS GLORY. This friend of mine, she was like a sister. I had such compassion for her. Without realizing it, I saw myself in her. I am not saying I was actively participating in evil with malicious intent. I am saying that I saw the same things affecting here that affected me. YOu see, Gentile or jew, witch, or warlock we ALL have and had an opportunity to be free and receive our savior.

I chose Christ at age 9. I remember when I was little, I cam e into the world craving God. Yet, He seemed nowhere to be found. Occasionally, I would find something that looked like HIM. But, everything seemed to be fake. IT seemed I had death ALL over me from such a young age. I thank God for redemption. I thank GOD that He healed me from speaking death. In fact, He heals me daily of this. He heals US of this. When I chose God I did so from guilt. They spoke of going to hell, and what would happen if we served the devil. I was, quite frankly, terrified. Plus, somewhere inside there was a treasure of holy truth. I knew that HE would love me, even if no one else did.

I was “best friends” with this person I mentioned for 16 years. I find that interesting. She left our friendship. I still love her. I even miss her. But, I know that like Jesus, I had to surrender it. Jesus walked among many people. He visited many homes. But, His heart was guarded and kept for the Heavenly Father. We have divorced ourselves from the enemy. God healed my friend when she wa son the verge of death. I cried out to Him. I’m not sure she even knows. I pray for the children of this world, ones who are so lost. Only God can save them.

Last night I watched the movie “Beaches.” I have seen this movie many times. But, I always get fresh revelation when watching films. God showed me that I have had many brothers and sisters. I have had many of the experiences in the movie, and will have many more. But, the point is, who did I turn to for fixing me? When I seemingly had lost my most precious treasure, whom did I seek? Was is my husband? Was it friends? No….it was GOD. I bask in HIS GLORY every day. Because, nonetheless, He is faithful. He is worthy. He is TRUTH, HOnor, LOVE, compassion, Peace and Holy Clarity. That and so much more…is our mighty GOD.

If you have encountered evil and have not chosen God, please don’t wait. The story is coming to a close. I have visited HELL before, and you do not want an eternity there. You have a GOD who created you and He loves you. He will give you every chance possible to receive that love, until the chances run out. It will be LOVE that conquers the enemy not hate. HIS LOVE….Heavenly LOVE will conquer evil. IT is only a matter of HIS time.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/witchcraft

Thank you LORD for covering and sealing us in the blood of Jesus. You alone can make a way from no way. Our joy and hope is in you alone. We cannot fear DEATH, or even the enemy for Jesus has overcome the grave and so shall we, by HIs LOVE.

IJHN AMEN

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam

This morning, so many things transpired. Long before you ever naturally opened your eyes, your spirit man was awake. The topic today is about Air. It is specifically about HOLY air. The enemy has been called the prince of the air. Because he was given temporary access to this world, and to be a ruler. In this season, that access that was granted is being revoked. So do you think there would be a little bit of push back? Is it abnormal that there would be some opposition? Well, NO. According to GOD, it is Heavenly normal, when Heaven invades the earth, for the plans of God to be challenged.

If there were no challenges in our lives, would we not be bored on earth? Cause I know I love a great puzzle, mystery, etc…Don’t you? Here is the trap that we can fall into. WE can hold onto the air. Meaning, we can hold on to things that have been used to wound us, and indirectly give them authority in our lives. This can also be a place of idols being formed, and little mini gods being made. Often, with us, at first being none the wiser. Have you ever had something you just could not let go of???

I know WE have, and occasionally still don’t notice right away. But, thank GOD we do eventually notice. Because, GOD has a plan even for that. His time is perfect. We should not justify sin, or willfully try to make things happen our own way. That is an aspect of evil. People in many cases don’t like certain words. In fact, we have noticed that they scare some. Words such as witchcraft, sorcery, and satan, are used to intimidate in many cases. But, they are just words. In scripture it says witchcraft is the sin of rebellion. I don’t know about you, but I would rather cut off my right arm than rebel against God on purpose.

The other day, I was sitting outside with my AGH (Awesome Godly Husband). We were relaxing and REsTING in God’s presence. We sat and soaked it in, as we worshiped our mighty God. We played volleyball, laughed, and floated on the water. It was truly Heaven. Given everything that has been endured recently, it is a welcome change. We got ready to go inside after a bit, and like usual, I hopped off my float. IT was no harder than usual, but the float popped. I was like huh??? Immediately my logical mind wondered what happened. But, I had to seek GOD on it. Some would say that God doesn’t care about that. However, I would say, “God cares about everything. It ALL matters to Him.” So I sought the LORD, and this is what He showed me.

That float was someone else’s trash, it was found in the garbage. It lasted for a few months. When the float got deflated air was released. Kind of like a flat tire. Do you praise God when you get a flat tire? Cause we should, it means GOD has new ones coming! I got off the float, had this happen and David and I both in our natural mind were perplexed for a moment. Then we almost immediately repented saying, “Lord, speak to us about this.” When I was a child, I thought like a child. Then I became a man and put away childish things.” This scripture rang out to me. God wants us to enjoy His many gifts and blessings. We had done nothing wrong necessarily. He simply had MORE to give us. WE needed to breathe HIS more in and let the LESS out.

Have any of you ever been told you are selfish? I would bet you have. As I kid I was told that so often, it became part of my identity. I knew God loved me, but I ran hard from that LOVE. No one around me was showing it, in a tangible way. I’m not saying love was not present, just not obvious. Our family growing up went to church practically every Sunday. I sang in the choir, and eventually, so did my parents. But, really deep healing was something that seemed far away. IT was like a trip we could never take, a destination lost.

These things would come at me, and I would cry. I mean, I would cry HARD. I got so much persecution for my tears. It was like they were bad, and I should not cry. Little boys many times experience this in life. I was a girl through and through but I loved playing with the boys. I had friends who were also neighbors. I just always had trouble connecting with the girls. I grew up with brothers, so logically I connected more with the boys. But, later would learn there was another reason for this. I was then and will always be incredibly connected to Jesus. To me, HE is the greatest brother of ALL time. I longed for connection with my earthly brothers. But, the connection I did receive was small. So, I clung to GOD. Did I ever fall down? YES. Did I get hurt? SO much at times I thought I would literally die.

I remember begging GOD to kill me as a child. I would pray at night asking for that. I did not understand it was wrong. There was no one telling me this. I did not understand that part of why I prayed this way, was from Fear or influence of the spirit of death. But, I do now. He has healed me of these deep wounds, and conquered death more times than I can count to.  It is humbling to see that multiplying ALL across His land. Did I have to earn it? No. It was and IS simply because WE are loved by GOD and that  GOd loves us forever.

So, here is the question…..What do you breathe in, and hold on to??? It is time to let the AIR out and SEE Heaven manifest. Will it burn your flesh? YES, at first it definitely will. But, the more you experience the LOVE of GOD, and dig deep into HIS word, and presence, healing will come. What was HELL will be transformed on earth into Heaven. God makes very specific promises. Do you believe them? Because HIS promises, and HIS word havebeen proven. He stands even more than the test of time. His LOVE is eternal and time is in HIS hands, as is Healing.

Do you want you, your children He’s given, your spouse He’s gifted, your animals, friends family, the list goes on and on, to WALK in FREEDOM? I mean HOLY FREEDOM…..If you do then LET the AIR OUT. The enemy might be a false prince, but GOD is the KING and JEsus, the SON of GOD is a REAL prince. The enemy is ALL about competition. With God there is no need to compete. He makes us complete in HIM.

I pray He uses this to bless someone. I have been redeemed from so much. Haven’t WE ALL??? Nonetheless God is faithful still. I was a cutter as a kid. I thought I was ugly, horrible, a waste of space. But, that was ALL lies and thank GOD even with them present, I clung to HIM, somewhere inside. With every breath, HE is my ALL and ALL and I surrender. Oh, and when the air was let out of that float, God saved part of that float and made another, and provided 2 more brand new ones. He knows our needs. He brings provision, He alone is GOD and HE will not fail us. He simply wants 100% of who we are, so WE can receive 100% of HIM in return. GLORY.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/heaven_and_hell

This day LORD, on the 27th, representing preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, we stand and we thank you. We praise you for being you. For receiving the good, the bad and the ugly from us. For going after every lost sheep, we thank you mighty GOD. For delivering us from evil, and bringing Heaven in place of Hell we praise you. Heavenly Father we thank you for kicking us in the behind when it is needed. You are gentle in ALL your ways. Holy spirit we thank you for burning off ALL of this world, and for nurturing us as only you can. Like a mother and child and Father and child, so is the family of GOD. We are all ONE in HIM. Grateful, humbled and so in LOVE with our mighty GOD. Thank you for being our voice. We give Glory to your name. In the name and blood of Jesus, we stay repentful before you LORD. Purify us even more. Bring us Heaven. IJHN AMen

In His Grace and Glory,

E and FAM

I have been out of the  “blogisphere” for a bit. Just taking time to heal. Taking in God’s LOVE and seeing that the weight of HIS Glory can absolutely crush us. But really, that is what we need. Because anything that is left afterwards is of HIM, and not us. This topic came to me a while ago. It is interesting that this day was chosen for writing. It is the 22nd, and the number 22 biblically represents LIGHT. It is the month of May, which is 5 and that biblically represents Grace and Favor. I enjoy numbers, yet I have no fear of them. What I have fear in is one thing, and that is GOD. Because when that is the ONLY thing we have FEAR in, ALL else fails. No idea which direction this was going today, thankfully God knew. I woke up feeling fresh out of battle. Grateful to once again still be alive. Yet, part of me still longing for home. Perhaps that is why my heart has been aching. I have had people influenced by many evil tell me things. They say, “You should not play with fire. Especially fire you don’t understand.” In saying that to someone, often they expose themselves. Have you heard of the devil’s playground? Why of course you have. It is seemingly all over the place. But, did you know God has one too? Cause that seems to be a bit less advertised. But, He does. His playground is Heaven. Do you believe that you have to wait till you physically die to receive it? Because that is simply not true. It is a lie that has been circulated for a very long time. Thankfully, God is making HIS presence very known. Do you know how to tell when something is of God? It is very simple really. There is peace. It is a PEACE that cannot be stolen or removed or even manipulated. It is stapled to us and US to HIM. There is a HOPE that cannot be denied. God’s LOVE is like that of no other. So many try to do things of this world and call it God. There are churches being made to worship people instead of the holy creator. God is not amused, yet is also NOT moved. His position remains the same. Calling Heaven a playground is not meant to take away the GLORY. It is simply hoping to redefine how the world sees it. It is so much more than a playground. It is a place of 100% PEACE, REST, COMFORT, HOLINESS, JOY,HOPE, REASSURANCE, LOVE and so much more. Movies like “Heaven is Real” are being used to pave the way for more of HIS GLORY to arrive. Are you ready? Or will it crush you? I am starting to get really BORED with the things of this world. That is because I spend a lot of time on God’s play ground. On His land no one falls and has broken bones. People might get bruised, but heal quickly. With GOD you know what you are getting is holy. On the enemy’s playing field, you can be certain that not only is it unholy, but it will destroy. No credit given to the enemy here, because when we repent for spending time on the enemy’s playground, where there are minefields hidden as you play, GOD removes us and takes us to HIS. There is something called the spirit of amusement. It is that thing that drives us to ONLY want fun, no matter the consequences. It causes us to look out for self and often call it God. This can happen mainly because of what we have seen, or been taught. In many case this happens because we have wounds that have not been healed. We have not gone from the playground of the world, to GOD and asked for it to be dealt with. Personally, to know that if we feel the need to justify our actions, they might not be of God is part of being openly corrected. I could list all the demons that are on the enemy’s playground. But, why should we give credit, or space to that? Just know that the enemy and his minions do not work separately. The enemy knows power in unity. It is high time God’s people get this revelation. I want to be on HIS playing field. I desire not only to see the miracles but to experience them. You can be a guinea pig if you like, but I am choosing redemption. Thank you GOD that your playground is NOT just ALL fun and games. It is major battles at times and a very real WAR to LOVE the people from the other playground. It consists of a constant surrender of self, to learn more how to be holy and selfless through your coaching and guiding. Heaven will come to EARTH but will you recognize it??? If you are not coming before HIM with a PURE heart, odds are not in your favor.  Stay repentant before GOD and only GOD. If you are afraid of the enemy then be ready to fall prey to him. It really is that simple. ONLY fear, respect and revere the Heavenly FATHER, the holy son, his child and our holy brother JESUS, and the Glorious Holy Spirit. ~ Heaven is for REAL indeed  and I am not waiting till my last breathe to experience it. What about you??? It resides within you according to the word of GOD. We house HIS spirit.

Today is the 30th. It represents the BLOOD of Christ and dedication. It is the month of MARCH. Which is the 3rd month of the calender year. It is the GLORY month. What is the opposite of Glory? Consider this because it is important. When researching this topic, was led to the antonyms of this word, Glory. They are insignificance, ugliness, criticism, blame, and condemnation. Many other words are given to describe the opposite, but the point is simple. Are any of these things positive? Are any of them holy? The answer is NO.

The title for this post came from prayer time about what should be. We were crying out to GOD on behalf of ALL of HIS kids. This includes those who have rebelled from HIM and turned away. They have left HIS holy bed and home and chosen to bunk with the enemy. Yet, GOD wants the divorce NOT to be with man, but with the devil. He hates divorce in a holy marriage. He wants holy unity.

This particular entry is going to be very vulnerable. I cannot say that in my flesh, the first reaction was JOY at the thought of it. But, GOD impressed upon us the NEED that is VERY deep for HIS truth to be spoken by HIS kids. For it is HE who is the speaker. It is GOD alone who gets the FULL Glory. We will share about many attacks, but the enemy gets none of the credit for anything. Even the stuff that could be devastating, and at times was did not DESTROY. Why is this so? IT is because GOD said NO, my children will NOT be defeated. He reminded us then, and NOW that the enemy is the enemy. The spouse we marry is NOT our enemy, our children are NOT our enemies, there is one enemy and it is satan.

In the movie back to the future, it showcases a mixed up teen. He is not an awful kid. I would say, pretty normal as far as “normal” goes. The family was fairly typical. It was full of dysfunction. These days, whose is not? But, here is the point. An adventure, whether someone sees it as holy or not, changed HIS Life.

I am fairly certain that my husband and I married too quickly. We knew God wanted us together, but we were terrified of the judgement of just dating when I had a baby coming. In fact, one that was NOT officially his. My husband and I then were very bound up by our wounds. We were so terrified of everything. Most of ALL we feared disappointing GOD. Yet, as time went on, we began to get revelation that God would be pleased. His JOY comes when we come before HIM repenting of our pain, hurt, sin, etc…and surrender it ALL.

Little by little, we began to slowly get insights. David and I came into our marriage broken, needing healing, and really confined by guilt. The interesting thing is, even that guilt died on a cross in Calvary. In a church recently, doe not matter which one, we were told that only spiritual sins died on a cross with Jesus. Yet, even THAT statement defiles the word of GOD. We fight not against flesh and blood, yet we have been trained to by the world. GOD in us should be fighting against spirits.

Start praising GOD, and see what happens. At first it feels like pulling teeth. Because every time we praise GOD it’s like punching the enemy in the mouth. We have as a whole spent LOTS of time dwelling on our past. So much so, that we often cannot appreciate the present as the gift it is. There are many futuristic things that are coming. Many will see it as exciting, and in some ways it will be. In other ways it will feel horrendous at times.

In revelation it describes our future. It also describes the future of those who REBEL against and HATE God. To say the latter is bleak would not be descriptive enough. Let’s look at the word and see what it says.

This morning I was awoken around 5 something. I looked at the CLOCK on my cell and it said 5:36 AM. That was interesting to me. 5 is HIS GRACE and FAVOR and 36 stands for overcoming the enemy. It is also the 2oth, which is REDEMPTION. GOD is FAITHFUL. He just is! Does that mean we won’t go through anything? Well, NO it does not mean that. What is does mean is simple. GOD and HIS LOVE prevails against ALL EVIL. Because of HIS unfailing LOVE for us, we can choose to NEVER SURRENDER to the enemy.

THIS is a precarious season. It is one where it seems from every direction there is FIRE. It comes from family, friends, people who see us as enemies, you name it. BUT, as much unfriendly FIRE comes, know that HIS FIRE will overcome it ALL. God’s command is HOLINESS. Are we living it? Are we giving it? Are we asking GOD to do so through us on a consistent basis?

Just so ya’ll know the pushback and “warfare” around this topic is NOT small. This post was begun yesterday and is still not finished. We serve an awesome GOD. His mercies are knew every single morning. He is nonetheless a faithful GOD. This begins to show up in more ways as days goes on. The more surrendered we are to HIS ways and plans, the better. He will always ROAR on our behalf. Cause GOD’s power cannot be undermined or taken away. IT is timeless, all encompassing and never ending.

In this season, I truly feel sorry for people who are NOT receiving or walking in the LOVE of God. We FIGHT not against flesh and BLOOD but against spirits and principalities. We have had so much psychological garbage fed into us. Only GOD can wash us clean. He will do so by the BLOOD of the LAMB! So who are we surrendering to? Are we using God’s holy weapons to have the victory HE has promised we can live in?

http://www.openbible.info/topics/surrendering

I say to YOU right now. If you are surrendered to the enemy already, you will see DEATH manifest. But, choosing GOD brings LIFE! It brings FREEDOM that is HOLY! To us it is a no brainer cause the enemy is a defeated foe to  GOD and HIS children who adhere to HIS words. There are so many getting FINAL WARNINGS. SO many falling into hard core enemy traps, but GOD can rescue you, as long as you RECEIVE the rescue. Captivity can often appear a comfort, but it is NOT. It is a prison. It can be a mind, body and soul one. But know that even PAUL and SILAS endured prison, and they were set free in HIS LOVE.

Years ago I heard this song and thought then about GOD’s faithfulness…it was likely written about FEAR of failure. But read it through GOD and see the TRUTH. We can NEVER surrender to the enemy. That is blatant disrespect to GOD who made us. We have small hands but HIS hands are HUGE. ALWAYS surrender to GOD. It is the ONLY thing that will sustain, heal and deliver us from the enemy hands and keep us safe.

http://www.lyricsg.com/24102/corey-hart/never-surrender-lyrics

Corey Hart
Never Surrender

JUST A LITTLE MORE TIME IS ALL WE’RE ASKING FOR
CAUSE JUST A LITTLE MORE TIME COULD OPEN CLOSING DOORS
jUST A LITTLE UNCERTAINTY CAN BRING YOU DOWN
AND NOBODY WANTS TO KNOW YOU NOW
AND NOBODY WANTS TO SHOW YOU HOW

SO IF YOU’RE LOST AND ON YOUR OWN
YOU CAN NEVER SURRENDER
AND IF YOUR PATH WON’T LEAD YOU HOME
YOU CAN NEVER SURRENDER
AND WHEN THE NIGHT IS COLD AND DARK
YOU CAN SEE YOU CAN SEE LIGHT
CAUSE NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY YOUR RIGHT
TO FIGHT AND TO NEVER SURRENDER

WITH A LITTLE PERSEVERANCE YOU CAN GET THINGS DONE
WITHOUT A BLIND ADHERENCE THAT HAS CONQUERED SOME
AND NO BODY WANTS TO KNOW YOU NOW
AND NOBODY WANTS TO SHOW YOU HOW

SO IF YOUR LOST AND ON YOUR OWN
YOU CAN NEVER SURRENDER
AND IF YOUR PATH WON’T LEAD YOU HOME
YOU CAN NEVER SURRENDER
AND WHEN THE NIGHT IS COLD AND DARK
YOU CAN SEE YOU CAN SEE LIGHT
CAUSE NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY YOUR RIGHT
TO FIGHT AND TO NEVER SURRENDER

AND WHEN THE NIGHT IS COLD AND DARK
YOU CAN SEE YOU CAN SEE LIGHT
NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY YOUR RIGHT
TO FIGHT AND TO NEVER SURRENDER
TO NEVER SURRENDER
OH TIME IS ALL WE’RE ASKING FOR
TO NEVER SURRENDER
OH, YOU CAN NEVER SURRENDER
TIME IS ALL WE’RE ASKING FOR

If we are NOT surrendered to our ALMIGHTY GOD, who comes AS the Heavenly Father, His son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit we shall surely perish. He desires for NONE to perish. But, we know by reading Revelation that some will. NEVER SURRENDER to the enemy’s plans. Command ALL unholiness to be stripped from your life and that of those you are used to PRAY for. GOD does it through us, and HE never FAILS. He cannot fail, because HE alone can breathe and resurrect what is needed for HIS purposes.

Today we pray that GOD be our strength, hope, JOY health, peace, equilibrium, and everything else that is needed. Do it ALL LORD through your children. YOU alone are GLORIOUS!!!! YOU alone are everything PURE and righteous. WE surrender to you and reaffirm that we are divorced from the enemy an his plans. We repent for any areas that have not been fully surrendered. We thank you that enemy plans are thwarted already. You alone will continue in Victory and we will walk in it with you. Thank you for you LOVE, word, and beautiful holy weapons of warfare. You are faithful GOD. Bring comfort to those mourning and grieving. The blood of Jesus at the root of any negative spiritual influence. Thank you for delivering us from ALL evil. In Jesus Holy Name and BLOOD. Amen

I beseech you all to choose HIS LOVE. For one, hell is not a joke. But, most importantly our awesome GOD deserves to be honored above ALL else. GLORY to our mighty and righteous GOD!!!!

In His Grace and GLORY,

E and FAM

As a child I thought like a child. Or did I? People tell me how wonderful my childhood was. Yet, all I can recall is the challenges. I mean, if I really sit and think hard I can remember a few times of LOVE and laughter. But, what stands out most is the false truth…LIE that the enemy told me about being TOUGH. My mom would tell me, “Don’t wear your emotions on your sleeve.” Yet, guess what my mother did? My father would never speak about strength. My parents LOVED the LORD, but in many ways had difficulty receiving LOVE from HIM. Yet, they hungered for it, as we ALL do.

I desperately wanted LOVE. From the time I was little, I had  a deep desire for it. I came in almost mantled with rejection. It seems that I encountered it on every turn. I did not know then, what an honor that actually was. Because look at the LIFE of JESUS. Who has ever been more rejected than CHRIST? NO ONE. I slowly as I got older found more and more passion within for GOD and HIS purpose. I feel into the darkness thinking I had to stay as TOUGH as NAILS. BUT GOD, pursued me and sought my heart, patiently waiting on me to come and let HIM LOVE me.

THREE very different views of what we can only picture happened to CHRIST our SAVIOR. ~

When this topic fell into my spirit I was kind of not happy about it. On one hand it is an awesome topic. But, on the other, we get more persecution than anything for being vulnerable. Does anyone ever LOVE being persecuted? Jesus didn’t enjoy it, though He rejoiced. He kept praising GOD no matter the challenges. Because HE is GOD, He is tough as nails. YET, when He was here He was not, because HE lived out the human journey. It is part of why we MUST walk out that portion of the journey too.

These horrible things that happen should soften US not harden us. THAT is GOD’s plan. He wants us to have compassionate hearts. HIS heart is not a HARD heart. It is QUITE the opposite. But, how many are walking around literally bleeding out and not knowing? Because they fell they cannot show their hearts, for fear that it will lead to slaughter. Can you relate? I know I can. I know David can. I know when Sarah Beth walked this earth she hated to see suffering. This child of HIS was used and is still to teach us that GOD’s LOVE never fails.

We could stay hurt, angry, wounded, destroyed, couldn’t we? But, maybe when we choose NOT to, then THAT will multiply. We will know that because of the NAILS on the CROSS and what was done there. The way that JESUS took everything we can ever imagine against himself, and even unto DEATH, overcame is beyond inspiring. THINK for a moment about THAT LOVE. TO LOVE us so much that HE would be slaughtered, crucified, condemned, and you name it on our behalf.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/vulnerability

I thought about little boys and how they are often taught NOT to cry. My husband was led to speak tonight about how tough that was. It was NOT until Sarah Beth, our butterfly, passed that DAVID began to shed tears from a place of healing. No more anger that had been held in for so long. NO more links to the enemy’s plots. All unholy ties CUT away. ONLY GOD can do this. I am not saying that we are 100% or perfect, but WE can say that because of GOD’s LOVE, Grace, MERCY, PEACE, HOPE, JOY, ENDURANCE and every other part of HIS HOLINESS WE can WALK in FREEDOM. WE can SEE HIS TRUTHS. WE CAN BECOME BULLETPROOF in HIM. GOD CAN and WILL SUCCEED. He will NOT FAIL. So therefore, when we are surrendered to HIM and HIS perspectives, neither will we. 😉

Today WE pray for the many families who are grieving LOSES. It feels like it SUCKS the LIFE out of us at times. GOD, you know. This is NO surprise to YOU. Father you watched your son literally conquer HELL. Thank you for the comfort which you are pouring out on US and ALL of these families. YOU LOVE to a degree that we can barely even fathom. You are GLORIOUS. You are tough as nails, so we don’t have to be. THANK you for never leaving us or forsaking us, never giving up on us and always encouraging us. Thank you that you ALMIGHTY GOD ARE not A god OF GUILT AND CONDEMNATION, BUT ARE  A GOD OF LOVE AND ADORATION!!!!

In Jesus HOLY NAME and BLOOD,

Amen

LOVE to ALL of YOU. Know that WE do NOT have it ALL together, but we are grateful for GOD and for each of you. Thankful to be ALIVE.  Grateful to LIVE in HIS LOVE.

In His Grace and GLORY,

E and FAM

TODAY….the GATES of HEAVEN are OPEN. It is the 7th which we know is HOLY completion. March is the 3rd month which is GLORY. IT is the 2014 – 20 is REDEMPTION and 14- Deliverance according to HIS WORD.  Today GOD is working hard on your behalf, if you are serving HIM. It may not LOOK like it. But, be NOT dismayed by what you THINK you see. THere is SO MUCH more behind HIS holy veil and curtain. The question is DO you want to SEE it? Because GOD is showing HIS TRUTH and GLORY to many of HIS chosen COGS.

It is high time that WE as nations come together in HOLY UNITY of the LORD. That we fight back in the spirit against things like FEMA. Things that were put in place to hurt and harm. But, GOD will turn it around. IT absolutely will work for HIS GOOD and for the good of those who LOVE HIM, receive that LOVE and are called according to HIS purpose. BE NOT AFRAID. Put on FAITH. REaffirm YOUR ARMOR. Ask Father to drench you in HOLY OIL!!!!! IT works!!!!

This morning I was thinking, WE still need to have communion. I repented and said, sorry Father GOD that we have not. He said, “Daughter know that my time is PERFECT. You will not me up my plan. Just keep LOVING and worshiping me. I will walk you through my HEAVENLY GATES. Funny that should have been we will NOT mess up HIS plan, but BOTH are true. 😉

I will NOT justify sin. I have fallen into that trap before. The spirit of justification leads to DEATH. Eventually we must face that head on. WE cannot run from demons. It is a command from GOD to send them to the ABYSS where they belong. Persecution will HEAT up, but so will the BLESSINGS and FAVOR of GOD when we RECEIVE His LOVE. We walk in LOVE not to get something but to HONOR our mighty GOD!!!!

The HEAVENLY GATES are open, it is what is meant when “UNDER AN OPEN HEAVEN” is spoken. One of the many layers of this is open gates. Also, OPEN SKIES are present. This is why the enemy is trying so hard with his last resorts. SOme things may not be directly from GOD, but will often be permitted by HIM. His plan is always in action, and remember that HE wins! GLORY to our mighty and HOLY KING!!!!!

This morning as GOD awoke me, 4 hours after sleeping, for the first time in months without assistance; THANK GOD for that it was placed into my spirit to write about the WAR. This is a topic that has been discussed A LOT. Believe me when I say it will be beat to DEATH. Quite literally I mean that. It is the one subject matter that cannot be discussed enough.

We are at a place where people are TAKING positions in the ARMY. Are you in GOD’s ARMY?

This last week there has been an increased intensity. I would say a NEW FIRE. Up till now we have been, many of us warriors experiencing “friendly fire.” That is when people who seem to be friends are used to throw darts. In THIS level we are experiencing “Unfriendly fire.” It is directly from HELL.  But here is the wonderful thing. There are heavenly warriors being used to deflect it from you. THAT is JUST how much YOU are LOVED.

I am definitely walking out the HUMAN aspect of this journey. Honestly I would LOVE to stay in the spirit 100%. But, GOD told me just recently I must embrace through HIM being a Human. That, it does not have to be a weakness. Nor, does it need to be a license to sin. It was very eye opening to me. For years I had hated with a passion being human. Finally I can accept it as PART of the process.

It does not mean we LIVE in the BROKENNESS or that WE stay wounded. But, we must become very aware that getting wounded is NOT a failure. It is simply part of the healing process. Look at the LIFE of JESUS our holy brother. HE was wounded for our transgressions, NOT His own. We need not worship the wounds. THAT is the place of WAR. Many of us have been bound by the SPIRIT of EMOTION for years.

We NEED very DEEP healing. The enemy will try hard to use those wounds to KILL us, inflict more pain, torture us, torment us.  When WE is spoken of it refers to not only our family, that is growing in GOD, but the BODY of CHRIST as a WHOLE. GOD is saddened by the many warriors and leaders in what the world sees as high positions not listening. Not only that, but not hearing in many instances and the blatant ignoring of correction.

If we cannot sit at the FEET of JESUS in each other, at the feet of the HEAVENLY FATHER and HOLY SPIRIT, what good are we? Yes, GOD can use us but not nearly as effective as HE could otherwise. As much as this grieves GOD, you have to know HE sees the bigger picture. Thank GOD he does not STAY in anger or disappointment. Neither should we. But how often do we live there, or does it stay hidden.

The battles, all the mini ones that sure did not seem miniature, have ALL led up to this place. THIS WAR. There have been world wars and LOTS of rumors of WAR too. BUT THIS is different. THIS is the WAR of the HEAVENLIES coming against the EARTH. THIS is what we have prayed for. LET’s REJOICE! Is it easy? NOPE Does it suck at us and often feel like LIFE is being sucked out of us? YEP

GOD is separating US….HE is doing it. There are some walking away from people calling it GOD when it is NOT GOD directly, but may simply be permitted by HIM. Remember HE uses everything, yet HE excuses NOTHING. NEVER hold onto personally what GOD deserves to have released. THIS is a HARD LESSON.

Some have to physically die to achieve surrender. I know, I have a few times. The POINT of this post is to remind you that GOD WINS the WAR. There are many who read the blog. They think we are unaware, or that GOD is. Some of them think they are getting away with the evils they attempt. But even that is a LIE. GOD sees ALL….HE LOVE US ALL until, that place comes when HE cannot anymore because we won’t receive it.

This is posted to say one thing…..EVEN if you have been ONE of them. GOD can change that. He is waiting to, in the WINGS. ~

So here is the question of the hour? What is your position in the WAR? YOU might have many hats. I know I do and WE do. But, KNOW what GOD has called you to DO. One thing I know for certain. WE are ALL CALLED to share HIS LOVE. THAT is what WINS THE WAR. 😉

http://www.openbible.info/topics/the_war_in_heaven

Before getting into the post today, I feel led to mention that Sarah Elizabeth’s testimony is on the page under God’s Grace faces Us. It was put in the comment section, mainly because my husband is the tech person, and it was the only way I could post it without his assistance. 😉 Love to ALL of YOU. May this be a Blessing unto GOD for you. ~

FORGIVE….not because anyone deserves it but simply because GOD needs us to, over and over as many times as it takes. KEEP on FORGIVING. It is a part of this process. IT damages and destroys enemy plans. Keep on forgiving, it is simply part of LIVING in GOD’s LOVE. ~ GOD alone is worth it.

On around four hours of sleep, roughly I was awoken today. But, the point is GOD who created me, awoke me. I will not try and stifle the challenges in what my husband and I are enduring. I won’t try and compare or contrast it with anything either. But, what I will say is it is something that in order to survive, you MUST have GOD inside. There are many people who walk down this path. In fact, last night at a Steven Curtis Chapman concert, we heard about and could relate to, the pain, the dark places that hunt you when you are simply just trying to crawl, let alone walk THIS out with GOD.

A few days ago, early in the morning when my husband and I were chatting, GOD was very present and speaking. He showed us a compass as a reminder that HE is our direction. He showed us a gold course and reminded us lovingly that with HIM, we always get a hole in ONE. the ONE who created us and LOVE us, regardless of the ODDS of the world, will prevail every single time. No matter how it seems, HE and HIS LOVE NEVER ever Fail.

God revealed that part of this, is the process of becoming bulletproof in GOD. He didn’t take Sarah Beth away. She chose to go. I mean, who could blame her? I have many times kicked myself for not going with her. But, if I had, it would have been defying GOD. We need to really SEE the hurting. Those who are carrying heavy burdens and pain. In fact, GOD says, “who will bind up the wounded?” Someone mentioned to me that this year is ALL about SOULS. I don’t dispute that. But, would add this year is ALL about healing and FREEDOM as we WALK in deliverance through HIS LOVE.

Part of the process of GOD saving a soul is compassion. Without that, people whom GOD loves and created do NOT receive the truth. They choose to worship their wounds, because no one has told them not to. It does not matter how HIGH up God puts us, we must always stay humbled before HIM. Being bulletproof is something that happens when constant and consistent surrender continues to be put in practice, unto our awesome GOD.

Many people are scared of bullets, of canons, of bombs, earthquakes, disasters that are natural according to the world yet supernatural to GOD. Yet, we should not be. We are both DEAD and ALIVE. The enemy cannot kill us of we are in Christ, harbored in HIM not as a fugitive but as a captive who has been set FREE. We should come to a place where our faith in HIS abilities far exceeds any amount of FEAR that WE can FEEL or that can be put on us.

Yet, here is the question. What will it take to get us there? Long ago, He showed us that it takes, what it takes. He reminded me recently after coming of out of the darkness, that He apologized to me in 2011. God, my father, brother and Heavenly everything said sorry to me. He said,” if there was any other way, around the pain, suffering and agony we would have taken it together. ” These words ring out to me. They are a CALL out of the darkness. When the enemy points his guns at us, or provokes us to spiritually throw stones at each other, we must seek God’s FACE. Every single time, when we DO, the LORD Roars on our behalf, and the enemies plans come crashing down in defeat. For GOD alone gets the VICTORY and GLORY.

Does this mean we will never fall for an enemy plot? NO! What it means is simply this. God’s GRACE is sufficient. In that place where it feels like we have fallen farther than we could ever go, GOD is there. He even makes HIS bed in Sheol. We have only glimpsed the HEART of GOD. It is not religion that will be the entry path to salvation. It is simply HIS LOVE, HIS TRUTH, and HIS purposes and plans. It is relationship with GOD alone that brings release from the HEAVENS.

While GOD was using us to share butterfly’s story yesterday, we truly were enveloped by the presence of GOD. There were people who were sent to that concert last night to cause trouble, but they did not succeed. The enemy sends people to create problems. But, GOD sends HIS GLORY to cause those plans to be burnt up by the HOLINESS and presence of GOD. You see part of GOD making us BULLETPROOF is about Crucifixion. Our physical and mental process that GOD gifts unto us so that we can be more in tune with HIS process. This beautiful yet at times horrendous blessing in disguise that is a catalyst for many others to follow, can only be given by GOD.

GOD is our holy SOAP. His blood was shed so that we could REST in HIS fighting through in and around us. HE is the Greatest WARRIOR. He makes us Heroes in HIM. ~

I will never ever forget the time on the 25th of November Just 1 day before the day we took Sarah Beth to the hospital, when GOD spoke BLESSING. My heart dropped to the pit of my very SOUL hearing it. I cried out and said, “Father, there are times that at first I don’t like or even enjoy your blessing. But, I will receive it because I do know that your purpose is much greater and that you waste not an ounce of any pain or suffering. ” He told me, ” You are about to get blessed.” Both is preparation, and on some level in warning. GOD knows what will come. The good, bad and UGLY He knows.

But, make no mistake that HIS blessings far out way the challenges of the world in which we reside. HIS ways are so much better than ours. He is unlimited and in HIS ways and timing HE will do exactly what HE has promised as long as YOU are willing, ready and able to receive the BLESSING of GOD. So, will you count the cost and realize that HE has need of you? Will you endure being used, in some cases abused, cast aside, mocked, and persecuted to the nth degree? Or would you rather miss the GLORY of GOD? Sit idly by and not be part of it, or surrender completely even your children, which to some are prize possessions. To GOD they are HIS treasures, WE are HIS COGS. But, in order for HIM to make us Children of GOD Supers, we must give HIM ALL.

We must take a stand against darkness. Ask GOD to strip it from you. Truly, look around the home you have been given and seek HIS LIGHT to permeate anything NOT pleasing to HIM. There are many times I do not please people, but as long as I and you stay surrendered with a repentant heart and MOST of ALL open for correction we will ALWAYS be pleasing to GOD. Not from a place of striving, simply from a place of being HIS child. RESTING in the peace that NO weapon formed will prosper. The LION of JUDAH will ROAR and quite simply the enemies will scatter. Glory be to our mighty GOD. We praise not because of the circumstances, but simply because we know that we know that we know that our GOD is far above them, and so must be be. Hidden under HIS wings fragile as a newborn baby, resurrected each day and healing with every breath. LORD, make us bulletproof whatever and however it must be. We LOVE you.

In Your Grace and GLORY Heavenly Father, Brother Jesus and beautiful Holy Spirit we thank you. You are faithful. Nonetheless you are FAITHFUL. In Jesus holy name, AMEN

http://www.openbible.info/topics/suffering

Honored and Privileged to be loved by GOD. Walking, running, crawling, and even swimming in the ocean of emotions we face. Yes, we have an enemy. yes, HE is defeated. God will teach us about the spirits, but we must NOT ignore the wounded any longer. We cannot assume that emotion is a spirit. We must ask GOD to minister through us, so that HIS ways are completed and WE are not made into idols. Who will bind up the wounded? Who will tend to those in captivity? Who will allow GOD to take first place in their lives? Is it YOU? He is standing there waiting and many windows are closing quickly. Don’t miss this incredible MOVE of GOD. Choose to let HIM make you bulletproof, no matter what.

In His Grace and GLORY,

E and FAM

For days, in fact since the third of this month, I have been unable to speak much. When I woke, and it was put in my spirit, and on my heart to write today, I wasn’t exactly jumping up and out bed. I thought, look at what is going on in the world. How is what I and we are enduring even important?

http://www.openbible.info/topics/darkness

Yet, it is to GOD. Our very breath is important to Him. He doesn’t focus on the wrong, but rejoices in the right. In my life, I have truly never been so weary. For weeks I have cried out to GOD from my soul. It isn’t just because of the death of our only child. It is so much more than that.

Darkness has been calling. In fact, everywhere I have looked, there has been darkness. Or, so I thought. It came through friends who were hurt, lashing out and assuming. It arrived through memories. For all intensive purposes that darkness was death.

But yesterday something happened. God used someone who didn’t know me, to reach out into the darkness and sincerely offer HIS LOVE. Yes, many have been praying. But, so few have reached out. I know it’s scary to watch someone suffer. when we are so wounded ourselves, we often want to or choose to run away. I hold no ill will towards anyone, or harbor any unforgiveness. I simply thank GOD that He used someone.

THIS is where HIS Glory is birthed. It comes into the darkness. It comes slowly and gently and at times painfully, it is formed here. Without really knowing it, I have been seeking God for answers. I have been sitting with HIM for weeks, just allowing GOD alone to stroke my shower and bathe me in LOVE.

I have been screaming on the inside. My body started just a few days ago to tremble. I thought, it’s just the grief. But, it wasn’t it was and IS the presence of GOD. I feared He was gone, had left me. Yet, all along, He was with me.

This is a very personal entry. It is very self reflective, from HIS perspective. Because this morning, I saw GOD crying. I am not saying I have seen GOD per se. But, I have seen what we know as GOD. I saw images of HIS children suffering.

Yesterday, I watched something. You see, I know the WORD of GOD. I know it deep within. But, having said that, what I didn’t know is GOD in us is HIS word. He wants to LOVE us with it. He desires to HEAL us with it. There is a balm is Gilead. There is healing in HIS hands.

The things in this world will look really bad. Darkness will call, and sometimes we will answer. But, I am very thankful to GOD alone that, even when we do, HIS LOVE will not end. Yes, we may not feel it the same way, until we come to HIM in TRUTH and realness seeking HIS FORGIVENESS.

I used to speak of GOD resurrecting me. In fact, I would say daily that He does this. But somehow over the last few months, I had forgotten that He does this in sorrow too.  I am beyond words grateful for the brothers and sisters who reach out even when the darkness is thick. Those who take time to cut through all the rigamortis.

God is using many people. He is, in this season. He is even using people trapped and confined in darkness. For a few days, I didn’t post anything. Because, I didn’t have anything nice to say. I simply prayed silently. Most often not even knowing. I was reminded that sometimes the most effective prayers come in the form of tears.

Years ago when mom passed into God’s arms, I wrote a power. It was called “the Rainbows”

I don’t remember much about it, except this. It was written after seeing my first double rainbow. I remember looking at it and recognizing the reflection. It is an illusion, that comes from fragments of light. Yet, it is beautiful. It captures just how we look in reflection to GOD. Backwards, faded, yet Glorious in His LIGHT. ~ like a mother and a child….or a father and a child. WE are the FAMILY of GOD.

This morning, shortly after God woke me, I got a phone call. I didn’t answer. I simply handed it to my husband. David, though half asleep answered. The person said they had the wrong number. I thought, “wow that is what happens when GOD takes the phone call.” It was something so simple yet, so profound. when the enemy calls, GOD says, “wrong number.”

Many people in ministry, well meaning people kept telling me to read the word every day. Yet, I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t read. I couldn’t even listen. I could just watch. I could just stare. I could just be. All I kept hearing from GOD was this. “Rest my child. REST in me.”

For days, until yesterday in fact, when David and i prayed at night, only HE would pray. I would simply agree. Even last night I could barely come up with anything to say. So, I mumbled, thank you.

I hope somehow in the midst of this nothingness, this darkness, GOD is still using us. I have wondered how He could? Yet, again I know that NOTHING is impossible for HIM. I thank GOD for reminding me that she, our butterfly is not gone. She is simply more hidden than before.

I thank HIM for the honor of being able to shoulder pain for others, even while walking through the Valley of the Shadow o Death. I thank GOD that in the time where I could have caused great harm, I did not. I forgive the many people involved, because even if they think they knew what they were trying to do, they did not.

I CAN LOVE AGAIN

THE DEAD WILL NOT CREATE DEFEAT

IT IS ONLY THOSE WHO LOVE FROM HEAVEN

WHO WILL MAKE THIS WORLD COMPLETE

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GOD walked with me, hand in hand for 18 days. He was with me in bed as I just sat and often wept. He broke me out of many a prison. Thank GOD for HIS Grace, mercy and love to endure even the darkest most cavernous darkness.

Thank you for the sunshine. Thank you for the rain. Thank you for the JOY. Thank you for the pain. Thank you that YOU alone have overcome, again.

REMEMBER that GOD never promised NO PAIN and SUFFERING in the PROmISED LAND. He simply said, the promises are kept there. ~

DARKNESS will CALL. LET GOD Answer.

I have wanted to scream, but couldn’t. I have wanted to curse GOD, but wouldn’t. I have wanted to HATE, but cannot. Because deep within I know that when darkness calls, even on the phone, that GOD will overcome. He already has. We simply must receive it.

In His grace and GLORY,

E and Family