The faithfulness of God, never ceases to astound me. As He uses such a broken vessel, and MANY to reach other broken vessels, and makes us whole. ONLY through HIS LOVE can WE be broken and restored. ONLY through HIS LOVE can we receive our Heavenly reward. Only through HIS Grace, can we face the HELL on earth. Only by His mercy, do we appreciate the worth. HIS LOVE is REAL. We have a choice, to choose or not. WE can strive, and allow our lights to burn out. Or, we can REST and SEE what HE is ALL about. I live under the umbrella of my HOME. I am a visitor here, to walk and roam. To travel far and wide, from nation to nation and tide to tide. His LOVE is where I abide, and AM made NEW. His LOVE delivers me, and gets me THROUGH.

I am so in AWE of JESUS. I always have been. Truly, the story of Christ, has always been something that just cause me wonder. Does it do this for you? How can anyone LOVE us so much??? With all the ways, that we may have been used to disappoint HIM, or hurt HIM, directly or not. Intentional or not, WE ALL have wounds from where WE may have been used to yell crucify. Who crucified Jesus? ALL those who said they LOVED HIM. If we really do, we must RECEIVE. We must FEAST on Heaven’s manna. We must not complain, and be so grateful for each morsel.

We are called, to GIVE up, and release everything before God. WE are commanded to have no other gods before Him. Not our kiddos, our spouse, our pets, our stuff, you name it, nothing. Are we living this out? Or, are we living paycheck to paycheck, barely getting by. It is TIME to come out of the death of the world. Don’t you desire your DRY BONES to LIVE again? Because, ONLY through the LOVE of JESUS, can this take place.

I know that when we are hurting, we make poor choices. I have so lived that. But, in the midst of it all, if there is surrender and repentant hearts, THAT is what matters. It does not matter if everything fits the mold on the outside. GOD is not demanding perfection from YOU. What He is demanding is respect, kindness, and to if chosen, RECEIVE. The hard part is, sometimes you receive the GOOD, Bad, and ugly. Until the bad and ugly is turned to GOOD. There is nothing but goodness in JESUS. He is ONLY made of LOVE.

WE live under the shadow of Heaven. His name is Jesus. We choose not religion. WE choose not to please us or others. WE simply exist to be a healing light, by HIS Grace. I pray He sets things aright, as WE seek HIS face. His heart aches, for the wayward babes. His heart bleeds for the prodigal sons and daughters. But, know that not matter what comes, HE never falters. He just wants ALL of you. He wants you to be TRUE to HIS desires and plans.

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WE can testify of HIS faithfulness. Ever see planted and scattered, HE has redeemed. WE are seeing it, quickly, by HIs Grace. Trusting HIM, because HE is the KEY to freedom. He deserves to be honored and LOVED. He made us. So, we have good in us. I believe, in this season, the faithfulness of HEAVEN, and those who obey will SEE. I believe that they will receive new keys to treasures untold. His LOVE is indeed pure GOLD.

Stay encouraged precious ones. Just as Paul carried Jesus by shadow, so can we. As JESUS is, so are WE in this world. Your faithfulness will indeed be rewarded. Get excited, and declare victory. USE the authority of Heaven, as He purifies. Heaven on earth will come. It will indeed arrive. SOoner than we think, look for the angels in disguise. Worship them not, but be surprised as Goliaths fall. JESUS has and will win it all. REST.

Lord, I come before you and I thank you for MORE than enough. You give and give and give and NEVER tire of giving. YOU are the LIVING GOD. There is NO death in you. Faithful and true is your HEART before your kids. I am so grateful, that no tear was wasted. Even in the times where we felt faithless, you never let us go. WE clung to the hem of your garment. Just along for the ride, we abided in you. We do still now. We live under the shadow of Heaven. With not an ounce of leaven, that can stay for long. YOUR LOVE leads our way, as a light and a gift everyday. MY hope, and that of your family is in you. We praise you for bringing LIFE to old seeds, for ridding the body of ALL disease. Thank you JESUS, for by your shadow healing me.

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam

It is the 26th today. I hope you recall, what that means. Just in case, you don’t I will share. 🙂 Biblically 26 is the GOSPEL of Jesus Christ. A few days ago, He spoke to me about this. What is the Gospel? It is VERY simple. YOU are LOVED by a GOD who created you. Because, you are LOVED, a savior was sent to DIE for you. He arose again, to conquer ALL evil, on your behalf. His resurrection, is why you can exist. He chooses you, and asks to be chosen, in return. He desires ALL of you.

The gospel is about repentance for any part, WE have prayed as well as played, that may have been a hindrance to the plan of GOD. It is about being willing to lay down, our lives for HIM. You know why we should? BECAUSE He did so for us. He LOVES us, and because WE LOVE HIM, we are willing to keep going without. But, does that mean, WE go without forever? NO! It absolutely does not mean this. What it does, is it is used to cleanse us. We must be purified of this world. Let me explain this further; His LOVE heals us. But, what if WE do NOT receive the healing?

The answer is simple, WE stay sick. Sickness is a funny thing. It is not just physical. EVERY sickness has some spiritual root, as well as a natural one. The ROOTS are very important. If we do not seek HIM, about what they are, WE can stay ill. But, when we do, we learn that there is FREEDOM in HIS LOVE. Our family claims divine health, daily. Does that mean we never ever suffer? Well, honestly no. Does it mean we never experience a negative symptom? NO. Here is what it does refer to; JESUS has full authority here.

In His eyes, WE are completely beautiful. He does not worry about money, bills, looks, or Anything of THIS world. He has no anxiety. He is ONLY filled with good things. He is LOVE. In HIM, WE are LOVE. He does not get bogged down by sickness. He does not stress over a single thing. His word says, “BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING, BUT IN EVERYTHING, Praise the LORD.” Yesterday, when He was prepping me to share, He sent me a song. I heard this song years ago. The first time, I heard it, was in a movie. The movie, “Say Anything” really spoke to me. This movie was about an outcast, who was brought together with someone of favor. In the midst, the one of favor endures deep betrayal. Who can relate to this? Why, the outcast of course. Jesus knows, HE encountered ALL that WE do. Yet, He never chose darkness. Not EVER! He stayed pure then and NOW.

Do not buy the lies that what was done, matters not. Because, what JESUS did and does, MATTERS. It is everything. Anything that says otherwise is antiJesus. Be not deceived in THIS hour precious COGS. Know, not only WHOM you serve, but how you do so. You do NOTHING alone. If you are a good parent, praise GOD. If your kids know their HOLY identity, praise GOD. If you have struggles and difficulties, thank HIM. For think it not strange the fiery trials.The afflictions last just a moment. HIS LOVE lasts forever.

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“In Your Eyes”

“The mirror of Jesus ‘s Eyes.” Finally, all those things told so long ago, I can see. How bout you? Who’s mirror are you using??? I want to see ME, through HIM. I choose each day, the filter of HIS LOVE. I choose to EAT of LIFE and not death. I choose to eat of HEAVEN now. Why? Because, it is the destiny that has been sown for me. What about you? ARe you under attack attempts from darkness? According to the word, you were bought with a price. JESUS has saved you. Do you receive that? Will you look into HIS mirror, HIS eyes?

Or, will you choose comfort, the pathway to death, and darkness? The CHOICE is yours. It always has been. I assure you, there is NO place like HOME. He will LOVE you, regardless of your choice. But, know that the measure of that LOVE, will be so much smaller. I want ALL of HEAVEN. It is my HOME. I only visit here. I repent for times I saw myself through other filters. Because, HE deserves to have my WHOLE heart. Doesn’t He deserve to have yours?

In Jesus’s eyes I know that I am “Fearfully and wonderfully made.” In His eyes I know that I am “More than a conqueror.” In His eyes, I am “HIS sister, His kid, His princess, His Queen, His bride, and so much more. Who are you in HIS eyes, He will show you, and YOU can heal along the way. Here is what is amazing, those around YOU will heal too. He spreads LIFE not lies, because there is ONLY truth in HIM. Only truth resides, in HIS eyes. Forgiveness lives there, healing, JOY, and so much more. Look into the eyes of Jesus, and HE will bring the changes you crave. His desires will become yours, and you will finally be truly FREE. Whom, the SON sets FREE is FREE indeed.

In His Grace and favor,

E and Fam

How many times must we die, through the LORD? I have often asked this question. Going to HIM and saying to HIM, “When is the time of redemption and resurrection?” Have you asked something similar? Like a child in a car, I sit before HIM, saying, “Are we there yet?” I am wanting ONLY to be real here. I experience, like you, the human journey. It is NOT an easy process. It was NOT meant to BE EASY. At times it is uncomfortable, to the nth degree. But, having said that, it is SO worth the process. You know why? Because, it is MEANT to prepare US for Heaven.

The title of this entry, came to me at a very ODD time. I had just come off a fast, that quite frankly, I did not even know I was on. I had never experienced a FAST like this one before. It was related to faith, yes, as most are. However, THIS one was not just related to it, it actually WAS it. You see, my faith had become a THORN in my side. What does God tell us about those? That, they cut us, right? I read a post recently about leading while bleeding. Though, I do believe that someone can get healed from a leader who is bleeding, I also feel strongly THAT cannot and should not last forever. Meaning, JESUS must come and bring healing, or the person dies. They will NOT just die to the flesh, they will leave the earth.

There are SO many times, I have literally died. I say literally because, for me it is not just a heart beat that keeps me alive. It is one thing, for me, JESUS. Now, that I am reconnected, no matter how I feel, there can be no disconnect. In fact, in truth there felt like one before, but even that was deception. Because, at that time, Jesus was still watching over me. My testimony has been somewhat hidden to me. In some ways, I could not explain it to others. Until, Sarah Elizabeth, our youngest daughter, came into our life.

When she was birthed to us, and through me, our LIFE began to experience Heaven. I will never forget that day. people say, God is not a confusing God. The word says, “he is not the author of confusion.” I firmly agree with that. Though, I also believe that PEACE from God can FEEL like confusion to us. It definitely does to a non believer. So, we need to consider this, and that WE cannot expect evil to leave when GOD shows up. However, the GOOD news is WE can and should, expect it to BOW!

I have been FLATLINED and thrust forward. I have sat before HIM, and said, “I have died too many times to count, when does that part end?” There are seasons, as We know, through Jesus. A season is a specific amount of time, kin to an era. It can be an hour. I am SO learning this part, that seasons in the natural, sometimes LOOK different than those in the spirit, at first. But, in HIM and through Jesus, the Heavenly Father, and Holy Spirit, they become solidified. Tangibleness, and LIFE comes, through JESUS, our awesome and Glorious guide.

As a child, I thought like a child. Here is why, because, I became a product of my environment. I became a product of death, essentially, that looked happy sometimes. But, LIFE was always about drudgery. I sought the JOY, and I just did NOT get that it was ALL in JESUS and IS HIM. Every time, I tried to love it was rejected. I was SO LOST. I seemed to live my LIFE in the valley of Baca.

This morning, I was awoken early, as often happens when I am preparing for this. I was not consciously aware of what needed to be talked about. But, in my spirit, I have known for a while, that this topic must be broached. First off, for you who have followed our ministry, that WE steward, thank you. Just a heads up, that there will be changes happening in the writing. God has let me know that I need to share my feelings a bit more. Let me be clear, I have no desire to turn anyone to what I believe. I ONLY desire what HIS will and plan is. My goal is to share HIS LOVE.

In prayer recently, He put it on my heart to share MY heart. Because, in it is also the heart of Jesus. I encourage you, to always pray before listening to or reading anything. Mainly because, one thing I have learned is, anyone can be influenced by spirits at play, in the world. That is, anyone but God. So, with that intro, and that said. We shall move further, into the topic point.  🙂 Thank you for your patience, and  taking time to discern, and to honor God. It really is an honor to be a scribe for the KINGDOM of heaven.

While studying about the israelites, God began to open my eyes about a few things. He gave them the VERY best while they were traveling toward the promises. Yet, He gave it in limited amounts. For those who were traveling there, but were not truly willing to surrender, they did not APPRECIATE the manna. Those complained and even when God sent help, it was NEVER ever enough.

I realized that the minute we come into the world, life here begins. The journey to see fulfilled promises, starts right as we come out of the womb. I started reflecting on my childhood, and how many times I had experienced Israelite mentality. As a kid, I did NOT appreciate anything. I was so affected by entitlement, pride, anger, gluttony, and so much more. I loved GOD. I so wanted to be different. But, I just kept falling into the same traps. It seemed like an endless cycle. Every time I would try and fix it, or make a change, NOTHING got better long term. It was seriously depressing.

I observe the past, and now understand a lot more. No wonder I battled depression, suicidal thoughts, hatred towards self, and horrible self image. I am not ever going to blame anyone for my choices. At least not again, because I am responsible for the decisions that were made then, and now. There were some really bad ones, that showed up, and that I chose then. Even now, free from the prison of the past, the enemy still tries. I fall down, and skin my knee spiritually speaking. I do sometimes, and cannot lie and say otherwise. Many of us fall, and then we take Jesus’s hand. We get back UP again. WE repent for the fall, and we choose to trust HIM to move us forward.

Since God is calling me to share how I felt then, I will. But, just bare with me, because THAT part is tough. Here is how I felt, if I had to put it in one word. I felt, overtaken. My body, mind and spirit was just harrased, and overwhelmed by the evil that was haunting, and tormenting as well as torturing me. Not only that, I could see it doing so, to everyone around me. Here is what I now know, that even when WE feel overtaken by evil, it does not mean we ARE. His Grace is indeed sufficient, and power perfected in our weaknesses. We can REST in HIS victory, that is already accomplished. Then, we can receive what was done, is done, and has been through HIS amazing LOVE. We can choose FAITh in Jesus alone, and nothing more. When we are weary and tired, as WE come unto HIM, we will find the REST.

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Fam