originalRecently, on a day that the world celebrates Moms, WE celebrated the Holy Spirit. We did also celebrate the gift of being a momma too. But, have learned and are learning, it is THAT a gift. It is shared with US, and gifted from Heaven. This BLOG is an interesting one. I was in prayer this last year and a half, and I just often sat SILENT before God. I could barely speak. For a while, I did not speak much at all. It was strange, and unusual for me. It scared my husband a bit, because it was SO unlike ME. I mean, I LOVE people. I love GOD first, and anything else second. I had always been able to talk to HIM. I am a delayed reaction kind of person usually, especially with GOOD stuff. IT takes some time to absorb that. People kept telling us, we were angry at God, that I was. I just SAT, and listened.  It was in that time God spoke to me. He let HIS SONSHINE fall on me. I was built back up, and began healing deeper. His strength, through baby steps began to be renewed, resurrected and reflected.

You see JESUS LOVES you and ME just the way you are. He also loves US too much, to let you stay there. Let me explain this a bit more. YOU are absolute precious just the way you are. He desires us to come as we are before HIM. Yet, part of truly receiving and being wrapped up IN His LOVE is not to STAY as WE are. We can only change for GOOD by HIS LOVE changing us. It happens one bay step at a time. As I reflect on my life, much of it was full of the intangible. That is, what is unseen and tough to explain. I was brought into this world by FAITH, and the FAITH conquered the evil that was meant for me. It was NEVER faith in me. IT was always FAITH in God. Yet, no one seemed to LOVE me just the way I was. Have any of you felt that way? Do you have a DEEP almost gutteral desire, just to be loved?

Because I DO and did then, and it caused so many complications. Yet, the LORD kept watch over me. Even when I drew back, He never took His hand from me, in a way that was of lack, or meanness. I am so THANKFUL that Jesus accepts us JUST as WE ARE. He is a JUST GOD. He JUST is LOVE. This means, no matter the circumstances, HE sees it all. I have never been the fan of the saying, “God is in control.” The main reason is because He is Sovereign. He is indeed aware of ALL things and KNOWS all things. Yet, we are not robots under HIS command. WE are HIS babies. He LOVES us with a LOVE we can barely fathom. He is sovereign, and He permits us to choose to RECEIVE or REJECT HIS LOVE.

My husband and I watched a movie recently. IT had the title of this blog. I was watching and JESUS brought David in. I do believe He was prompted by the Holy SPirit, and the Heavenly Father as well. THe family of GOD indeed, was on a mission. I even believe that MANY angels were involved too. 🙂 We sat and watched the movie together. It felt like we were miles a part, like there was a canyon between us. Not, because of us necessarily. But, here is the point. Little by little as we watched cried, and laughed, the canyon was crossed. HIS LOVE conquered. It always does. If David had come in, and I had told him I wanted to watch this one alone, he would have been hurt. Yet, I was prompted to offer. To say, come away with me, and Jesus will bring us Heaven and healing. Oh, how healing. I weep tears of JOY just thinking on the memory.

The movie was set near where we used to live. He looked at me, as if to say, “This is OUR story. ” I knew He was right in a sense. I just thank GOD for knowing what WE need, and when WE need it. The day we watched was the 10th, and it represents in the BIBLE testimony. There is a part of me that has missed what was before. Yet, I am so grateful that WE got to experience it. I know that may sound ODD. But, I would not, WE would not trade any of the hell on earth. Because, without IT, we would not have begun to truly experience HEAVEN.

Without the sadness, I would NEVER appreciate the JOY. A few years back, I begged God to show me the joy. IT seemed like every day was a battle. I said, please, I know it is present. Where is it? IT was like digging for a buried treasure. He kept LOVING on me, and being patient. I just got so frustrated. I think because I knew, even then somewhere, that some MAJOR sorrow was about to come. It was HARD as HELL, I won’t lie, because parts of it were. But, oh how HE LOVED us. At first, He did not use many others to do so. I mean, He did have seeds planted in the ministry, JUST so we could survive. Yet, no one came to our door in a physical sense. Which is completely okay, and ultimately, it ended up being a blessing.

WE WERE EXHAUSTED. I mean, He and I could barely think, or breathe. It is a miracle we did not just lay down and die. I thank God for my husband, and the way JESUS fought through HIM. I pray He feels the same, and thanks God for me. In that time we remembered a covenant we made with God. We said, when Sarah was 3 1/2, and had her first hospital stay, “We covenant to partner with you LORD, and do all in our power that you gift to us, to be the best examples that we can for our children. That way, they can see it and follow YOUR example.” We have no doubt that our kids do this. WE have angel children, and those birthed through the womb. But, each of them are LOVED just the way they are. God showers Heaven on them. Do they and WE sometimes get overexcited, well yes. But, thank GOD for Grace. The GRACE that comes from HEAVEN is definitely present in our HOME.

Isaiah 41:10 ESV / 658 helpful votes

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Romans 5:8 ESV / 453 helpful votes

But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

John 3:16 ESV / 430 helpful votes

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 8:35-39 ESV / 373 helpful votes

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

1 John 4:16 ESV / 308 helpful votes

So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

Ephesians 3:17-19 ESV / 286 helpful votes

So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

1 John 4:10 ESV / 240 helpful votes

In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.

John 15:13 ESV / 236 helpful votes

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

Psalm 118:6 ESV / 234 helpful votes

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?

Psalm 147:3 ESV / 214 helpful votes

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Romans 8:31 ESV / 197 helpful votes

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Psalm 103:8 ESV / 178 helpful votes

The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.

Jeremiah 31:3 ESV / 175 helpful votes

The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

Ephesians 2:8 ESV / 138 helpful votes

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God,

Isaiah 43:4-5 ESV / 132 helpful votes

Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you.

Romans 5:3-5 ESV / 119 helpful votes

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Romans 10:13 ESV / 115 helpful votes

For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

1 John 4:19 ESV / 109 helpful votes

We love because he first loved us.

Isaiah 53:5 ESV / 108 helpful votes

But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed.

Revelation 21:4 ESV / 106 helpful votes

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

Psalm 62:8 ESV / 98 helpful votes

Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah

Psalm 62:7 ESV / 95 helpful votes

On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.

Isaiah 49:16 ESV / 90 helpful votes

Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.

Psalm 139:14 ESV / 82 helpful votes 

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.



Yesterday, I was given this poem from GOD…

“Coming HOME”

I tried to run, but you captured me. With your love enraptured me. You never let me go. Through it all you GLOWED. The light, so bright, that many did not get. But, your LOVE stuck to me like glue. Even when you could not hold me, you watch me. I was NEVER in danger, because YOU saw every scene. No matter how MEAN it appeared. Forgive me my my LORD. SO thankful for your Grace. So sufficient indeed, with each tear falling from my face. I was so weak, but you were NOT. Your LOVE was ALL I ever truly had. But, it was enough. SO much MORE than I can say. It kept me warm on the coldest of days. Now, still I see the holy mirror, and finally I can share. No more being locked up in the prison of HATE, for the KING has declared. FREEDOM.

The LOVE of GOD will overtake you, if YOU receive. He LOVES you just the way you are. That is a fact. Yet, should we not LOVE HIM enough to grow, change and be transformed by HIS LOVE? Today, many are talking about the stuff of the world. Some are getting caught up in Heaven, like a drug. It is NOT meant to be that way. It is meant to be a place of JOY. Such jubilant JOY, that it overflows into everything, and everyone, SUCH is the LOVE that flows from our permanent HOME. Years ago, I was given a lyric.

THIS is my temporary HOME, my place to walk and ROAM. I have never forgotten, and I thank GOD that what He desires to BE accomplished here, will be done, and it will be completed from Heaven. You are LOVED, treasured. Please look to Jesus for freedom. Because, anything else is  a trap, and a snare. You are a precious treasure, just as you are. Yet, YOU cannot see the luster and shine of Heaven’s glow. He wants to heal you so that you can finally SEE who you really ARE. It is time precious ones. IT is TIME. Take a baby step, and before you know it, the mustard seeds will turn to orchards of fruit for and filled WITH His GLORY. Share HIS LOVE today, as YOU receive what a gift and miracle you are that HE created.

In His Grace and Glory,

E and FAM

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