JUST the WAY YOU ARE

Posted: 15. 05. 2015 | Author: Ellie Sharpe | Category: Inspirational

Recently, on a day that the world celebrates Moms, WE celebrated the Holy Spirit. We did also celebrate the gift of being a momma too. But, have learned and are learning, it is THAT a gift. It is shared with US, and gifted from Heaven. This BLOG is an interesting one. I was in prayer this last year and a half, and I just often sat SILENT before God. I could barely speak. For a while, I did not speak much at all. It was strange, and unusual for me. It scared my husband a bit, because it was SO unlike ME. I mean, I LOVE people. I love GOD first, and anything else second. I had always been able to talk to HIM. I am a delayed reaction kind of person usually, especially with GOOD stuff. IT takes some time to absorb that. People kept telling us, we were angry at God, that I was. I just SAT, and listened.  It was in that time God spoke to me. He let HIS SONSHINE fall on me. I was built back up, and began healing deeper. His strength, through baby steps began to be renewed, resurrected and reflected.

You see JESUS LOVES you and ME just the way you are. He also loves US too much, to let you stay there. Let me explain this a bit more. YOU are absolute precious just the way you are. He desires us to come as we are before HIM. Yet, part of truly receiving and being wrapped up IN His LOVE is not to STAY as WE are. We can only change for GOOD by HIS LOVE changing us. It happens one bay step at a time. As I reflect on my life, much of it was full of the intangible. That is, what is unseen and tough to explain. I was brought into this world by FAITH, and the FAITH conquered the evil that was meant for me. It was NEVER faith in me. IT was always FAITH in God. Yet, no one seemed to LOVE me just the way I was. Have any of you felt that way? Do you have a DEEP almost gutteral desire, just to be loved?

Because I DO and did then, and it caused so many complications. Yet, the LORD kept watch over me. Even when I drew back, He never took His hand from me, in a way that was of lack, or meanness. I am so THANKFUL that Jesus accepts us JUST as WE ARE. He is a JUST GOD. He JUST is LOVE. This means, no matter the circumstances, HE sees it all. I have never been the fan of the saying, “God is in control.” The main reason is because He is Sovereign. He is indeed aware of ALL things and KNOWS all things. Yet, we are not robots under HIS command. WE are HIS babies. He LOVES us with a LOVE we can barely fathom. He is sovereign, and He permits us to choose to RECEIVE or REJECT HIS LOVE.

My husband and I watched a movie recently. IT had the title of this blog. I was watching and JESUS brought David in. I do believe He was prompted by the Holy SPirit, and the Heavenly Father as well. THe family of GOD indeed, was on a mission. I even believe that MANY angels were involved too. 🙂 We sat and watched the movie together. It felt like we were miles a part, like there was a canyon between us. Not, because of us necessarily. But, here is the point. Little by little as we watched cried, and laughed, the canyon was crossed. HIS LOVE conquered. It always does. If David had come in, and I had told him I wanted to watch this one alone, he would have been hurt. Yet, I was prompted to offer. To say, come away with me, and Jesus will bring us Heaven and healing. Oh, how healing. I weep tears of JOY just thinking on the memory.

The movie was set near where we used to live. He looked at me, as if to say, “This is OUR story. ” I knew He was right in a sense. I just thank GOD for knowing what WE need, and when WE need it. The day we watched was the 10th, and it represents in the BIBLE testimony. There is a part of me that has missed what was before. Yet, I am so grateful that WE got to experience it. I know that may sound ODD. But, I would not, WE would not trade any of the hell on earth. Because, without IT, we would not have begun to truly experience HEAVEN.

Without the sadness, I would NEVER appreciate the JOY. A few years back, I begged God to show me the joy. IT seemed like every day was a battle. I said, please, I know it is present. Where is it? IT was like digging for a buried treasure. He kept LOVING on me, and being patient. I just got so frustrated. I think because I knew, even then somewhere, that some MAJOR sorrow was about to come. It was HARD as HELL, I won’t lie, because parts of it were. But, oh how HE LOVED us. At first, He did not use many others to do so. I mean, He did have seeds planted in the ministry, JUST so we could survive. Yet, no one came to our door in a physical sense. Which is completely okay, and ultimately, it ended up being a blessing.

WE WERE EXHAUSTED. I mean, He and I could barely think, or breathe. It is a miracle we did not just lay down and die. I thank God for my husband, and the way JESUS fought through HIM. I pray He feels the same, and thanks God for me. In that time we remembered a covenant we made with God. We said, when Sarah was 3 1/2, and had her first hospital stay, “We covenant to partner with you LORD, and do all in our power that you gift to us, to be the best examples that we can for our children. That way, they can see it and follow YOUR example.” We have no doubt that our kids do this. WE have angel children, and those birthed through the womb. But, each of them are LOVED just the way they are. God showers Heaven on them. Do they and WE sometimes get overexcited, well yes. But, thank GOD for Grace. The GRACE that comes from HEAVEN is definitely present in our HOME.

 

http://www.openbible.info/topics/god_loves_me

Yesterday, I was given this poem from GOD…

“Coming HOME”