Monthly Archives: June 2016

Getting to THIS entry today, has been a challenge. BUT GOD. The premise of it, is that, JESUS wants us to eat of the promises, of HIS LOVE. He wants us to partake, and receive as well as digest, the GOOD. Many of us are used to doing THIS with the bad.

As a kid, i had a parent who would say, “Expect the good, and prepare for the worst.” Sadly, most think that way. They don’t however recognize, that The first part, gets LOST in the second. It is LIKE they switch places somehow. This definitely has happened to me, and our family. Yet, the awesome LOVE of GOD, always conquers, as we allow it to overcome.

Agreement with HIS plans, not just belief is part of partaking. I think many of us know this, but sometimes get moved by the circumstances around us. Thank GOD for HIS Grace. Thank GOD for HIS mercy. Thank GOD for HIS LOVE. To be able to say, I am sorry. To be willing to let HIM change us. Not for our comfort, because it is VERY uncomfortable.

To FORGIVE when something comes against someone we LOVE, and they lash out, is often a challenge. But God. It can ONLY be done, in FULL by HIS LOVE and wrapped, in HIS Grace. There was a time, that there was Grace to learn about the BAD. For some, that has changed, and it is TIME to ONLY receive the GOOD, and the BEAUTIFUL.

Only HIS LOVE can reframe our hearts, minds, and spirits. ONLY HIS LOVE will bring HEALING. But, how does one, who has NEVER known it, recognize it? It feels like foreign territory, at first, to be HONEST. I can say that, because eventhough I arrived, on THIS planet, by the LOVE of GOD. I had LOTS of trouble showing it. Because, everytime I tried, it was rejected.

SO, I felt rejected. Have you ever experienced this? Putting your heart and soul into something, and having it discarded, can just seem devastating. At first, we want to just give up, and not try again. But we do, eventually, until we become so wounded and HURT, that we can’t, in the same way, as we began.

I have come before God, asking for forgiveness, and repenting of my wrongs. Yet, my greatest struggle has not been, in HIS forgiveness. The battle that has been MOST intense, for me, and my family, is FORGIVENESS of ME. Why is that? Why did I get tired of tasting the good? Was it weariness? Was it FEAR? Perhaps, it was more than one reason. But, the FACT is, that when I refused to forgive myself, I was dishonoring God.

I wasn’t trying to hurt God, on purpose. I would NEVER hurt anyone, on purpose. Because, I know how PAIN feels. I do my best to encourage our “Heavenly Kids” to ALWAYS be KIND. I want to CHOOSE the GOODNESS of GOD< consistently, and never EVER fall prey to the BAD choices. But, sometimes, I do. I am so NOT perfect. I simply pray, that somehow in the midst of my imperfections, HIS LOVE, will BREAK through.

This morning, the 5th, Grace and Favor; I woke up. When I did, I got in our vehicle. But before that, I chose HIS BEHICLE. I went to HIS word, and ATE of the GOODNESS and LOVE of God. To honor HIS desires, and to allow HIM to bring about that, from HEAVEN to EARTH. A BEHICLE, is the BIBLE has a vehicle. 😉 He wants US to just BE in HIS LOVE.

That means, that HIS LOVE guides and transforms, everything we touch!!!! How awesome is THAT! But, how does that happen? One moment at a time. In the vehicle this morning, I heard a few songs. The VERY first one, was called “GRACE WINS.”

In my weakest moment I see you
Shaking your head in disgrace
I can read the disapointment
Written all over your face

Here comes those whispers in my ear
Saying who do you think you are
Looks like you’re on your own from here
Cause grace could never reach that far

But, in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear you call my name sayin it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat
So loud now, drowning out the doubt
I’m down but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time

Words can’t describe the way it feels
When mercy floods a thirsty soul
A broken side begins to heal
And grace returns what guilt has stole

And, in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear you call my name sayin it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat
So loud now, drowning out the doubt

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I’m down but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time

For the prodigal son, grace wins
For the woman at the well, grace wins
For the blind man and the beggar, grace wins
For always and forever, grace wins
For the lost out on the street, grace wins
For the worst part of you and me, grace wins
For the theif on the cross, grace wins
For a world that it lost

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing hallelujah
Grace wins every time
Read more at http://www.songlyrics.com/matthew-west/grace-wins-lyrics/#xr5XLKf6MKTW2UvL.99

I TRULY believe SONGS like THIS are PART of TASTING HIS RAINBOW. They are a HUGE reminder, that there is NO PLACE WE CAN GO, WHERE HIS LOVE LEAVES US, and HIS GRACE IS NOT PRESENT. The ONLY IMPOSSIBLE, is for anything but HIS LOVE to conquer.