When I was called to write this entry, I really felt sick at my stomach. Because it is VERY important. If we were to take a pole about people who really believe not only in GOD, but in HIS faithfulness and LOVE, it would probably be disappointing, if people were honest. There are many, quite frankly running churches and schools on counterfeit faith, counterfeit morals and standards and even counterfeit LOVE.

Let’s look at the definition of counterfeit.

Full Definition of COUNTERFEIT

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/counterfeit

Let’s also look at the definition for Real.

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/real?show=0&t=1411492614

Exploring the Definitions

You will notice that the 2 definitions are not only complete opposites, but also that counterfeit is a shorter definition. Cause how many ways can we actually say fake?

It is odd to me, that God called me to write this on a day, or a few days where I am not “feeling” very encouraged. But, that was when it began. By the time it is ending, encouraged does NOT even describe how I feel inside. God often calls us to do the impossible. Let’s explain. He does the impossible through, around and in us.

Today is the 25th. This was begun 3 and a half days ago. I thank God for Grace, because David and I have been doing really heavy intercession. With that, often comes pretty heavy warfare at times. See, the enemy throws a hissy fit when he doesn’t get his way. Like a 2 year olf toddler throwing tantrums, is how he is. But, know THIS God’s power is where the enemy gets his source. There is NOTHING that shocks God. Even the enemy’s team knows that. The problem is, that people think they have so much time to waste.

There is NO time to waste. Now HEAR this. There is absolutely NOT time to waste anymore. Every single second counts. Many prophesies have spoken that the antichrist is taking reign. Now, on the one hand, this is exciting, because it means biblical prophesy is taking place. But, on the other, it means a lot of other stuff. So, I say with deepest sincerity, “Please read the word of God aloud.” God will minister healing through HIS word. He wants us saturated in HIS presence and amazing and unfailing LOVE. But, if we do not let HIS words penetrate our hearts, we will perish, often quickly and some won’t make it to heaven.

This post came at a time where it felt like HELL was barbecuing us for dinner. But, just because it felt that way to the flesh does NOT mean that was what was happening. Our pastor said it well yesterday. She said, “Change hurts sometimes.” It does, but oh how necessary the pruning is in the Harvest. I am not unaware of the enemies schemes, nor are we unaware of those participating in them. But, our goal is to LOVE anyway.

Should that NOT be done? After all the character CORE of Christ is LOVE. So, that leads us to know that at the core of the antichrist is Hate. Because, the enemy ONLY carries HATE. No matter what is said, by the enemy, He hates God’s COGS. In fact, the devil hates ALL humans. Even his own followers are hated by satan.

So, here is the question to ask…. Do you believe in what is counterfeit or what is REAL?

My awesome Godly Husband, hence forth, AGH, told me that Wisdom is the opposite of the obvious. God revealed THIS to Him. Obvious is what is right in front of you. But, people who have HIS wisdom see what is behind the curtain as well. What is REAL to you? Is God’s LOVE real to you?

Because if you understand the idea of HIS LOVE without understanding the cause and effect of HIS LOVE, you cannot receive the LOVE. So, ask yourself have you ever received what is REAL?

Conflict in the world is, as in scripture centered around Israel. Is ra el. Let’s break it down. Is Ra God? The answer is no, the devil is not god. It is also is REAL. Meaning El, the name for God is REAL. Have always been fascinated with Israel. Because it is the “apple of God’s eye.” Also, it is HOMEland. It is the place, where God’s legacy is birthed from.

So, without, getting too specific, and the Hebrew documentation will be included in time, EL is GOD and HE is REAL, and HIS LAND should be honored, period. The counterfeit will try and take advantage, without remorse or repentance, and our one and ONLY JOB is to LOVE anyway. As children of GOD, we should not be doormats, but we should be HOLY DOORWAYS to JESUS.

http://www.openbible.info/topics/fake_christians

In His Grace,

E and Family

These pictures tell stories….LORD, awake the childlike faith within. ~

Years ago, I was fascinated by certain types of music. I have sense sought God about what he desires my eargates to take in.  One song that I would sing at a young age, was live to TELL. I want to take a moment to look at this song.

“Live To Tell”

When I was awoken today, it was impressed upon me to, encourage the BODY to feel what needs to be felt. The last part is KEY. One of the keys to Death and Hades is freedom from the enemy’s hand. God loves in such a beautiful and Glorious way. He LOVES in ALL things and despite circumstance. But, the way that GOD loves can look strange at times.

We have noticed that when someone has any influence of the enemy, they are NOT openly corrected. It is always a red flag that God gives. Our JOB is to LOVE anyway. Through the power and BLOOD of JESUS, we must keep loving without fail. To do this, means, we must feel, BUT we cannot permit the feelings to reign. This is VERY important. The feelings cannot and should not be GOD in our lives.

We have endured and are endured heavy FIRE. The fire of God and at times, fire from the enemy is present. BUT, what we have noticed is the more we permit GOD to bring HIS FIRE, the more the enemy stays under our FEET. I have a dear sister who posted a request recently. It was for prayer for her feet. Another sister mentioned she was having the same problem. The deduction would be, perhaps they are interceding for each other, or even another not mentioned.

EVERYTHING we endure is related to the ENTIRE BODY. This is because WE truly are ONE in Christ JESUS. I am led to share something about our testimony. When Sarah Elizabeth passed, not ONE person brought us food. At first, I was really frustrated. But, GOD knew something. He knew that WE, as in David and I, did NOT need to have others around. He knew that IF we had others come to bless us, most likely we, would end up ministering to them instead.

Do you know what He sent us? He sent us back our animals. In fact, HIS animals. They were sent to remind us, that HIS LOVE is nurturing. His LOVE is unconditional, and HIS LOVE never ever fails or ceases.

He gave me this today.

HIS LOVE-

The solution to the persecution – HIS LOVE

The way of provision – HIS LOVE

The cure for division – HIS LOVE

The key to the Heaven – HIS LOVE

The BREAD we eat, our manna – HIS LOVE

We give thanks to the LORD above, because what drives us and causes PEACE is HIS LOVE.

When God removes something, or someone, even if we don’t understand, it is because of and OUT of HIS LOVE.

When we learn to receive the LOVE of GOD, WE begin to understand that feelings are PART of it. We have to FEEL deeply in HIM. However, again, those feelings cannot control us.

Was considering the part in scripture about self control. There are so many aspects of this. The biggest one that jumps out to me is this : SELF surrendered before GOD, is one of the greatest weapons we have. Unsurrendered, it is by far our greatest hindrance.

There is GRACE to FEEL. But, definitely not GRACE to sin. There is GRACE to endure, but again still not GRACE to sin. There is GRACE to learn, but NOT to sin. The Grace gospel has been distorted in many ways. There are many who will say, you don’t need to repent. Some will say that, “they repent ALL the time.” But, when you TEST the fruit, you will SEE the truth.

God LOVES always YES. But, you need to understand something. HE chastens those HE LOVES. Which means HE disciplines them. God is NOT a GOD of punishment. HE is a GOD of Grace, mercy, love, peace, hope, JOY, patience, kindness, understanding, compassion, tough love at times, and He is a GOD who never ever fails.

There are many who are BOUND by and to, their feelings. I cannot count how many times, people have told us we were accusing, when in actuality that person was doing it. I began recently to get a revelation. WE can LOVE, because JESUS is LOVE. However, when that LOVE gets infective, from an unholy place, WE must walk away. Jesus gave everyone an opportunity to know HIM. He still does. But, He also gives us a choice.

God is faithful. He is faithful still. No matter WHAT it looks like, HE is. God is the ONLY one we can have 100% confidence and trust in. We have been told, when we praise GOD it is for us. I would take that a step further. It is to HONOR God in us. It is to honor GOD around us, and GOD in others. It is also to call upon GOD from the deepest most guttural place.

Where do we feel from? It is FROM the heart. The word says, ” Out of the abundance of the HEART, the mouth speaks.” It also says, “Guard your heart, because from it springs the well springs of LIFE.” It is by far one of the most important organs we have. In fact, as many battles come against the mind, they come against the heart. If our hearts are complacent, and disconnected from God, the enemy can gain access to us.

The point is this….where is your agreement? are you in agreement with GOD and HIS plans? Or, are you in agreement with the enemy. Our pastor has been doing a series on Covenant Keeping. We must trust GOD to keep the covenants He has made. But, WE can only receive them with a pure heart. Otherwise, we will naturally reject what we do NOT understand.

Recently, David and I were hit pretty hard. We found ourselves looking at GOD asking, “What the HELL?” Because, we knew what was being attempted was NOT Heaven. See, what comes from HEavEN succeeds. Anyway, I say this about what was endured. We have come face to face with the spirit of satan many times. When that spirit has been present in any form, it feels like torture. But, JESUS is so much more powerful. HIS presence will cause THAT spirit to flee. It might seem that the enemy gets a few jabs in, but JESUS knocks the enemy out, for good. He has the victory, and the enemy, no matter how it seems, never ever will.

Grace – 2014

We have the Grace to feel. It is there to show us what is real. Sometimes the grace is simply being alive. It is there to treach us to THRIVE in Him. What we think is a typo, often has Heavenly resource. We receive the instruction and believe GOD’s Report. For, He teaches, preaches and gives reproach, through His faithful COGS. We simply cannot get bogged down by this world. Breaks are good. You live in GOD’s neighborhood. are you of this world? Are you proud to be? Or do you boast in HIM, who made the mountains and the seas? Because ONLY one is worthy. ONLY one is holy. ONLY one is GLORY. We need humility, in our community, so that we can be FREE in Jesus name. So get mad at God if you must, but don’t stay in that place. It only leads to HELL and then there is no turning back. The world is full of colors, but someday it will seem to fade to black. Just know this, “His Grace us sufficient.” It truly is a KEY to receiving the LOVE of GOD, and walking truly free. Thankful for HIS Grace, as His FACE becomes our own. We are one by the LOVE of GOD and grace is at the core. Lord, make us no more, and you to take over the race. For you win, you have won. It is finished and on earth has begun, to be ALL that your promised your kids. We stand in awe of you. ~

Led to share a WORD God gave. It is a word that He has shared a few times with us, but we have not been led until now to see someone writing it, and us being privy to SEE it in print. Humbling and grateful.

“BROKEN FAITH: When You’ve Lost Your Strength To Believe!

Many of you have been in the place of waiting on the LORD for a long time, now! You’ve done most everything that you feel He’s asked of you, and yet your faith has remained fruitless of that which He has long promised you! 

Many of you continue to stand even though your shield of faith has become battered beyond all recognition. Your faith today no longer even remotely resembles what it looked like when you first lifted it to ward off the enemies fiery darts hurled against you. And that would be OK if your Sword Of The Spirit was stained with just a little more of the enemies blood as evidence of your over-coming faith victories or otherwise fruit, that you would have to show for your long years of sacrifice and service.

But as it stands now, the condition of your faith has been beaten beyond recognition, while your sword, worn and dulled from years of constant and intense combat, is stained with very little of the enemies blood. Very little, indeed.

In fact, the only blood loss visibly shed in all your battles has seemingly been mostly…your own!

You try to encourage yourself, reminding yourself of the promise the LORD has given you that one day, you will receive and enjoy all that which the LORD has promised you. One day…! One day, your life will make a difference. One day, the LORD will use you to make an important contribution in His Kingdom. One day…!

One day, all this waiting and suffering will make sense…not just to me but, to all the onlookers who misjudged, misunderstood, ridiculed and disdained me. One day, I’ll be vindicated by the LORD and all will finally understand what the LORD was doing in my life, the whole time. But, until that day, the LORD has concealed me in what is a special preparation…hidden me for a special purpose and a special time. One day…! One day…!

But, after years and years of holding unto this hope, you find that something unexpected has happened—something that you never suspected would or could happen. Many of you have awakened to the awareness that the shield of your faith was somehow cracked under the strain of the constant pressure of deferred hope and disappointing faith failure. And as you stand today, your faith actually feels…broken.

And now, that we are finally here in the season of the crossing over into the Promised Land, many of you are feeling that you’re not sure you have the faith or the wherewithal to enter into and receive the promises given to you, long ago! You just don’t feel as if you have the strength or even the conviction anymore, to believe and receive as you once did. The continuous and devastating disappointments have taken it’s toll upon you so that now, not only are you finding it challenging to walk by faith anymore but, many of you are finding it even difficult just to stand in faith, to believe. You are feeling broken, powerless, and even…defenseless.

And so there you lay…next at the threshold of the Jordan, the entrance to your perspective Promised Land— much like the impotent man lying by the Pool Of Bethesda…his body and will broken by the combination of being visited upon by life’s unceasing savagery and from to many failed faith attempts—hoping for someone to show up with help or even understanding that might aide him or guide him into the pool of his moment.

But, the LORD would that we gain the pivotal revelation of ‘Broken Faith’. For, in His sovereignty, the LORD often ordains that we be bought to this breaking point, that our faith might be broken after our own will, to be re-established after His!

Jesus said it this way in John 15: 4-5,7-8

“4) Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.
5) I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.
7) If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.
8) Herein is my Father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples. As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love.”

Paying special attention to vs 7) “If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.”

Jesus is essentially saying that I must first entrust Him WITH my EVERYTHING before I can believe Him FOR my ANYTHING! For unless I am connected to Him by faith, His sap— His Blood…His Spirit will be unable to flow in my life, to bear forth the fruit He has ordained unto me in the form of the fulfilled promises He has given me! And verse 8 here says that The LORD considers part of my fruitfulness to be answered prayer! The LORD desires to see His children’s prayers answered, fruitfully!

Indeed, I cannot believe Him FOR—until I have first entrusted Him WITH!
We are connected to Jesus, the Vine—by faith. So too do we abide in the Vine by faith! Often it can be much easier to connect to Him than it is to remain connected to Him during the bronco-like ride of the trials and tribulations of this life. And this is what the author and finisher of our faith is developing within His children: the determination to abide with Him—to keep step with Him, and to stay with Him in unbroken faith on whatsoever path He chooses to lead us upon. For remember, the Good Shepherd that makes me to lie down in green pastures and leads me besides the still waters, is the very same Good Shepherd that prepares a table before me in the presence of my enemies, and leads me through the valley of the shadow of death.

It will be impossible to be able to abide with Him in unbroken faith, unless I learn to trust that He is Sovereign…that He is ultimately in control over all things! He is ever strengthening the grip of my faith in Him so that I might KNOW that He is in all things and that all things are in Him—in His hand, in His sovereign plan!

The LORD is with us that we not react to trouble when it arises, but rather, we choose to respond to Him, instead! For, to act or pray as if a situation is out of control is to in effect say that GOD is not in control…that it is up to me and that GOD is not GOD in my situation! And any reaction on my part outside of responding to the LORD by placing my faith in His sovereignty is to cease abiding in the vine, and so condemn my efforts of faith to fruitless failure.

And even though in some instances, I may seem to temporarily managed to escape my troubles, I will not have truly moved forward. Rather, I will find myself trapped in the same cycle of wandering around the same kind mountain in the same kind of desert over, over and over again—until I yield to what He is determined to instill within me regarding Broken Faith!

It is written “Be still and know that I am GOD”! This means that in the moment when trials and tribulation would beset themselves round about me, instead of yielding to the temptation of reacting, I will instead, ‘BE STILL’! I will not react by either fighting or fleeing. For, to fight is to try to take control, and so deny that GOD is GOD, and is in sovereign control. To flee is avoid facing the problem that the LORD has ordained and to likewise deny that GOD is GOD, and is in sovereign control!

The LORD told Abraham, “I am thy SHIELD, and thy exceeding great reward”. If the LORD Himself is in fact, our shield, then whatever gets through to us, had to come through Him. And if it came through Him, then there is a purpose in this problem. This is in fact, not meaningless pain. But rather, it is pain with a purpose! The LORD is doing something in it! But, that doesn’t mean that the LORD intends that the problem have power over us. He intends only that the situation develop our faith much the way a small vaccination immunizes us from the greater disease.

Therefore, even though the problem may often seem truly terrifyingly big to us, the LORD has in reality, allowed only a small and controlled measure…a tiny restrained taste of the over-all problem, into my life…to vaccinate our faith, to develop our character to withstand the soul destroying diseases or darkness of the Devil!

This is why He says in His word that He won’t put more on me than I can bear because, the whole point is for me to bear up under the problem to overcome it and put it under my feet. The LORD’s goal is not to destroy me but, to develop me. He doesn’t mean to hurt me but, to help me…to become fruitful in an area of my life that I would otherwise be fruitless and barren! Therefore, the LORD has no desire to put more on me than I can bear because, too much pressure becomes counterproductive to His plan to bear forth His fruit in my life!

The encouraging revelation of this understanding is that this means that no matter how big and bad the troubles that I maybe facing may seem to be, with just a little bit of faithfulness to have unbroken faith in Jesus, overcoming victory over whatever calls itself plaguing me, is absolutely within my grasp! Absolutely…within my grasp!

For, if I remain stable or single-mindedly confidence in Jesus’ sovereignty throughout the process of my deliverance, I will at long last, cease to fall prey to the curse of the “Double-Minded”, who is said to be unstable in all his ways. And as a consequence for his Broken Faith is unable to receive much anything from the LORD!

Now, after that I have stilled myself by letting go and placing the situation into His hand, so that I am not reacting to the predicament, I take the time to KNOW that He is GOD; to KNOW that He is in control; to KNOW that He has a plan. I KNOW that what I am going through is for a reason, that it was He who bought me here.

That doesn’t mean I simply have knowledge of this- (adjective) but, that I KNOW (verb). This is what faith is…KNOWING! I make up my mind to know in my knower. And it is in this place that I KNOW GOD…that I KNOW Him…THAT I KNOW HIM! Faith is KNOWING…GOD!

As I’m trusting Jesus for the best, and the worst seems to be happening! I KNOW that He is in control! In so doing, I KNOW Him!

What if, I’m believing the LORD for healing, and the Doctors give me a bad report, saying that my condition is worsening! Instead of reacting in panic and praying harder and even more earnestly, I choose to trust Jesus’ plan and KNOW that He is LORD over my health, and over every sickness and disease! I KNOW He is! I KNOW Him! And in KNOWING Him, I KNOW Him!

Maybe, my marriage is falling apart and despite my constant prayers and attempts at reconciliation, my spouse files for a divorce. Instead of going on a long fear-based fast or redoubling my own efforts to fix things, I trust that Jesus is at work and I KNOW that He is doing something special in my marriage! I KNOW He is! I KNOW Him! And in KNOWING Him, I KNOW Him!

And I KNOW Him even in the face of temptation. That’s right, temptation! Jesus, when teaching His disciples to pray what would become the LORD’s prayer included the statement: “…and lead us not into temptation but, deliver us from evil.” Jesus more than implies here that one of the paths that the Father may lead us on is upon the paths of temptation. Jesus didn’t imply that the Father would tempt us Himself, as GOD tempts no one. But, He may lead us into temptation for the purpose of delivering us from evil!

Jesus knew from experience of what He was teaching His disciples to pray regarding temptation because, the Bible says that Jesus Himself, was led by the HOLY SPIRIT into the Desert to be tempted of the Devil! Therefore, many of us unknowingly break our connection with the Vine because of ‘reacting’ in guilt because of the sinful feelings involved in temptation! We break faith with Jesus once we try to take control of ourselves, to keep ourselves from sinning…or at least we try to. We may do so at the expense of bearing fruit in the area of our lives vulnerable to that temptation!

Therefore, whether I find myself led besides still waters, or deep within the depths of the valley of the shadow of death, or even in a desert place to be tempted of the Devil, I will fear no evil for I will…Be Still and KNOW that thou art with me! I will KNOW that the LORD’s got a a reason and a plan for my being here. I will not allow the Devil to use guilt and condemnation to deceive me into taking control of my life out of His hands to break my connection with the Vine to the forfeiture of the preordained fruit He has appointed unto me.

Gone are the days of my attempting to bear fruit after so easily allowing myself to lose step or connection to the Vine, because of leaning into my own understanding instead of trusting in the LORD with all my heart! Gone are the days of being prey for the enemy; the shield of my faith battered beyond recognition as I am reduced to powerlessly hiding behind it…and in a faith rooted in fear— cowering under it; relegated to living defensively…barely surviving, instead of fruitfully advancing and victoriously, thriving!
Powerless.
Defeated.
Barren.
Fruitless.

Gone are those days now. Gone are those days!

For, we as a Body have discovered the secret of wholeheartedly trusting Jesus in all things. And because I trust Him enough to abide with Him in all things, He says in verse 7) that His words, His ‘rhema’— revealed or spoken words will also abide in me. His voice to me and in me will continuously be crisp and clear regarding all that I have entrusted into His hands. I can now, freely enjoy with unflinching confidence that “If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.”

You who were waiting for your “One day..!” Today is that day, child of GOD! Today is your day! Rise up again in renewed faith! Today is your day! Begin pressing in to walk by faith, again! Today is your day! For now, you have at long last grasped the revelation of Broken Faith! And as a result, you are now free to walk in Unbroken Faith!

Take up again, the Shield of your faith but, no more reacting and using it defensively, as you did in times past. Rather, in the season of this new day, use it offensively, in tangent with your Sword Of The Spirit; pressing in—to the point of bearing some real and overdue fruit! Remembering that we walk by faith and not by sight; no more becoming so easily discouraged by your lack of understanding of the LORD’s plan regarding the path He may have you on.

Cry with a loud and fiery voice child of GOD, with all your love, with all your determination, with all your fervor, and with all your vengeance! For your enemy has been unknowingly waiting for some 2000 years to be placed under your feet! Let’s not keep him waiting any longer!”

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GOD bless greatly the ones who obediently shared this word. It is VERY confirming and encouraging. The enemy will fight us, or attempt to, but rejoice. Because JESUS has overcome the world. He will keep overcoming in you. ~

The praise of GOD is what will KILL the enemy’s plans. Continue to praise HIM. He is a GOD who will come through. It may NOT be as you think HE should. But HE truly does know BEST, always. We can 100% have confidence in HIS ways, plan and LOVE.

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Family

I really had a strong urge today to write. Usually, I wait when enduring the warfare we have, but I know it was important to get this out. It was like when I woke up, I could hear the ALL points bulletin going off. The title started me a little bit. I began to think, but it’s not. Then, I heard this part. “Without DEATH there can be no resurrection.”

Jesus CHRIST of Nazareth is the ONLY one who has ever died and been resurrected. Even when someone else is resurrected, it is GOD who does it. Ultimately JESUS is them is what is resurrected. Let’s explain it this way. The word of GOD says, “We must be crucified in Christ.”

Galatians 2:20Amplified Bible (AMP)

20 I have been crucified with Christ [in Him I have shared His crucifixion]; it is no longer I who live, but Christ (the Messiah) lives in me; and the life I now live in the body I live by faith in (by adherence to and reliance on and complete trust in) the Son of God, Who loved me and gave Himself up for me.

The word of GOD is our lifeline as COGS. This means it should be present in ALL ways and areas of our lives. Someone called me a bible scholar recently. I thought. Huh? Because it is Jesus in me who is. THAT if for sure, that HE not only knows the word but IS the word. This means that as WE secure ourselves in HIM, and delve more into HIS food, the WORD, that WE will become the word as well.

The transformation that happens is, JESUS in us, can do what JESUS walking the earth did before. In the word it states “As a child, I thought like a child.” He then said, “But then, I became a man and put away childish ways.”

I was terrified of death as a child. I grew up hearing the word spoken from a place of FEAR. People would say, “You better straighten up. You don’t want to go to hell.” Wow, there was a lot of FEAR. But God. There was little faith that I could see. Yet, it turns out there was some, it was just hidden.

The world we live in now glamorizes evil. It even glamorizes death, which is NOT the purpose of this post. The purpose of THIS post is to point out, that DEATH is beautiful in God’s eyes, because it is a step to resurrection. WE can no longer choose to be afraid of it. Because it will happen, one way or another.

People have been discussing wars for years. The bible discusses them to. It says there will always be wars, or rumors of wars. I am not saying ignore what appears to be happening around us. I AM saying, “Praise and worship GOD for handling it.” It is HIS job to be the orchestrator, savior, everything, redeemer, etc…not ours. BUT, it is our job to agree, and have FAITH that HE will NOT fail and that HE has a plan, beyond how it appears.

In fact, it is our JOB to do this not just in our own lives, but for the lives of others. Look in scripture at JOB. Do you know why he endured all that he did? Because GOD trusted him. Yes, God qualified him for the JOB. As my husband points out, “That was is his name after all.” He went through persecution, pain, betrayal, and you name it. He even endured death, LOTS of it. But, GOD. This beautiful amazing process of even deeper surrender appeared. SO beautiful to witness, yet excruciatingly painful to watch.

Without ALL that was endured, the HARVEST could not come. I heard that VERY clearly today. In 2011 I heard the Heavenly Father speak. For some reason, it was always easiest to connect to HIM. He apologized to me. I was in shock. I looked at my life, and it was pretty great. I had 3 amazing children and a wonderful God fearing husband. Sure, there were things I would have changed. But, all in all I enjoyed our life. When I heard this, “I’m sorry, for all that you have endured and will have to endure. But, you know that if there were another way, we would have taken it together. I love you,” I was stunned. I remember being on the phone with my then prayer partner.

This season is a strange one. It’s like a dream. Somedays, it is like a bad dream, other days it is Heavenly. No one but God understands completely. But some do understand at least partly. Grateful for those who faithfully pray HIS will for us and others. GOD alone has the victory, even in DEATH.

I look at our life now, and I see the things that have been endured since then. Now, having no official children with us, and giving up our home, and many friends, the perspective has changed. Even then, I laid down everything before God. But now, I lay down everything past, present and future, and even things for others if led. See, I had to die. I die daily. As our daughter began to die to self, she began connecting more to Heaven. When we do this, we run a slight risk. We might get called home. But, isn’t that worth the risk?

In His Grace and Glory,

E and Family