PAIN is HIS Gain

When I woke up today, I had no plans of writing. In fact, I tried to go back to sleep. I got up, walked around and felt pain. But, I wasn’t mad, like I usually am. I was grateful. I am grateful to be alive. Today is the 11th in the month of July. 11 Biblically stands for disorder and judgement. 7 is Completion. Look around you….can’t you see that happening? God is bringing it from the Heavens. The hardest part about it is the more GLORY that arrives, the more pain our flesh will feel, at first. The more pure God makes us the less the pain will have access from a place of Fear.


I went through something recently for 8 days. Biblically 8 is New Beginnings. I was having very intense physical pain. I was not led to take much medicine, or use the normal methods to deal with it. I was simply led to wait. I praised GOD, without verbal words, because the pain was so intense. It was probably more intense for many reasons. I wept with God. I stayed with HIM only. so much so, that it was like I wasn’t even here. When it was done, the pain was GONE.

I used to be ashamed to talk about these encounters. But, not any longer. The Lord, gave me much revelation about pain. In fact, it was a few years ago that He began discussing it with me. The best way to get through it is to praise HIM who brought us to it. It is NOT to complain, because THAT creates MORE pain. God does not want us in torture. But, He does want to teach us the difference about the world’s view on pain and HIS.

As a child, I would hear a phrase I NEVER liked. It is the phrase, “NO PAIN NO GAIN.” I thought, are you kidding me? What on earth is the purpose of pain. But, now we have more insight on that. The earthly pain, and our humanity prepares us to receive the GLORY of Heaven. In Romans it discusses this.

Yesterday I had a dear friend mention that she was in pain. I sought the LORD as to why we have pain. This is what I received. “If my children would only learn that the PAIN is temporary, than it would NOT overcome them. It is a breaking that happens on the way to the Glorious Promised Land. Look at the Israelites. Why did it take them so long? Was it because of the pain? NO! It was because they grumbled and complained about the pain. If my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray, then I will heal their land. It must happen in my way and my time. Your job is to praise me for handling it ALL.”


It seems simple when God breaks it down. We will have pain. But, that does not mean we are not free, or that we haven’t done enough. IT simply means, it is PART of the process. Our God breaks us down, to feed us to the multitudes. I rejoice in the PAIN because the more GOD feels I can handle here, the closer I am to HOME, in Heaven.

Be STILL and know that HE is God. do you know that during the 8 days, I was refreshed and brought to much encouragement. It was not because I opened my bible every single day. I’m not saying that is not a good thing. I am simply saying this, the word is in me. I was led to just SIT at the feet of JESUS. so much so, that I was almost not even conscious here in this world. My husband has been married to me for 8 plus years. He now knows that these sabbaticals, though at times feel inconvenient to HIM, are necessary for the plans GOD has in mind.

When I awoke from this strange state, which to my flesh was HELL; I was filled with Heaven. I had NO pain, and when the pain comes now I rejoice. Because the praise of GOD really does shut the door to the enemy. I am grateful for God’s mercy on me. Because He knows how much I am used to pray. He knows the works that others do not see. He knows because it belongs to HIM. I’m saddened by what is to come for the enemies of God. More pain than some can bear. Because they have been warned, and yet continue on against Him.

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Be prepared, anything that is held over GOD will be removed in this season. I urge you to NOT fear and to surrender especially the children to GOD. Because it ALL belongs to HIM. The gifts are shared with us. But, know that He will offer them a chance to go home first. In the next few years, we will see what looks like an increase in deaths. This will be especially true with young children. Yet, in many cases it will be releasing of the captives. Because GOD is bringing and has been bringing increase of HEART knowledge to this world. It is coming straight from the THRONE of Heaven. Some are not prepared to receive it. Are you ready? Because if you are NOT ready and if you are a hindrance to the process, in any way God may just remove you. Tomorrow is NOT promised on this earth, but it absolutely IS in Heaven.

This song came into my spirit……It was written by Kim Hill.

Holy, You are still holy,
Even when the darkness surrounds my life
Sovereign, You are still sovereign
Even when confusion has blinded my eyes
Lord I don’t deserve Your kind affection
When my unbelief has kept me from Your touch
I want my life to be a pure reflection of Your loveCHORUS:
And so I come into Your chambers
And I dance at Your feet Lord
You are my saviour, and I’m at Your mercy
All that has been in my life up to now
It belong to You
You are still holyHoly, You are still holy
Even though I don’t understand Your ways
Sovereign You will be sovereign
Even when my circumstances don’t change
Lord I don’t deserve Your tender patience
When my unbelief has kept me from Your truth
I want my life to be a sweet devotion to You

And so I come into Your chambers
And I dance at Your feet Lord
You are my saviour, and I’m at Your mercy.
All that has been in my life up to now
It belongs to You
I belong to You

And so I come into your chambers
And I dance at Your feet Lord
You are my saviour and I’m at your mercy
All that has been in my life up to now
It belongs to You
I belong to you

You are still holy, You are still sovereign
You are still holy, Lord
You are still righteous
You are all knowing
You are still holy, You are still holy

Kim Hill's You Are Still Holy album cover
The whole point is, PAIN is REAL. I was asked if I was real yesterday. I thought, well YES. It was a silly question to me. But, the question is one that deserves reflection. Are we REAL? This person asked this because she couldn’t see my FB page. It was likely a glitch in the system, or could have been an attack attempt from the enemy. Or, it could have been God holding off things for HIS timing. What was interesting was, right after I said YES, another friend piped in. She said, “I can vouch for her. She is real.” I thought wow. Because instantly, the scripture came to mind….no man loves His brother more than to lay down HIS life for a friend. Could that mean to vouch for one as well? I think so. 🙂
The world is in a seemingly tumultuous state. But, God is NOT unaware. I personally have wept tears of blood at least 37 times in the last two years. IT does not make me more spiritual, or more connected to God necessarily. But, what it does show me is the PAIN felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. 37 Biblically is the word of the FATHER. It represents wisdom. I cried out to GOD hard. I let go of, to HIM what I considered my most prized possession. She came like a fesh wind, and she left the same way, even more fresh and beautiful. It is to date one of the most painful and yet PRECIOUS experiences I have ever had.
We DO not celebrate the PAIN itself, but the release. Just as we don’t celebrate death. We celebrate GOD overcoming it! Perhaps as a dear sister pointed out to me, the PAIN is how GOD keeps us close. For HE is close to the broken hearted indeed. We can testify to this.
Do you believe God has freed you from the pain? Then rejoice and DANCE before HIM. He is watching.
Heavenly Father we thank you for the JOY and the PAIN. We thank you for the sonshine and the rain. We are grateful that you LOVE us so relentlessly. You alone are GOD. It is because of your LOVE that we are here. Thank you for the passion you have for your COGS. We repent for places we falter, we lay it ALL on your altar. ALL the pain, and ALL the gain. You alone are GLORY.
In Jesus Name and BLOOD,
In His Grace and GLORY,
E an Fam



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