Unmaking UP

I wake at 5:09 today. Second time. Wondering will I EVER have sleep, like before?!? Yet, when I awaken, to Jesus knocking on the DOOR, I am at REST. There is PEACE like I cannot explain. It clears and wipes away every ounce of DRAIN. He is INDEED my strength, and JOY. And, thank GOD for Grace, to be LOVED. I know, that seems ODD. But, WE need Grace to be LOVED, and HATED. Especially, those who have GONE through intense trauma, and simply, NEED recovery. He knows. If that is YOU, THERE is HOPE. And even THIS morning, as yucky thoughts, try to POP IN; I am reminded of GOOD. The FAITHFULNESS of God, NEVER ceases to AMAZE ME. And what is EVEN more strange, is how many do NOT recognize it. Or, how many can credit ANYTHING else, other than our KING, shocks ME. But God. He is NOT moved by IT.

 

 

Scene 1 : I walk into THIS beautiful ROOM. It is GOLDEN, and glittery. Oh, it is LIKE a fairytale. As I walk around, EVERYTHING is pristene, and just perfect. Jesus has MANY angels there, ready to help. And I look up, and say, “This will be FUN!” He smiled, “There will be some FUN. I promise. But, WE are going to continue, working through things. Okay?” I kind of get this pout on my face, and then say, “Yes. Because THERE is NO OTHER WAY. Your WAY works. ” He smiled again, and said, “Yes and sometimes there is just hurt. But, MY LOVE will heal you. You will SEE! As you REMEMBER, with ME.” I look to the right, and there is this Glorious chair. It says, “Elea Grace.”  Tears well up in my eyes. I say, ” I am Soooooooo NOT ready for THIS. I don’t want to LET you down. ” He says, “You NEVER could. JUST be YOU, and see what I do. Now, come have a seat. It is your chair!!!” My eyes, begin to burn with tears. Happening HERE and there. He says, just a few minutes, those can come down, and then….time for your MAKEOVER. ”

So, I sit in this beautiful chair. All the while thanking GOD, for this amazing gift. Laying down EVERY single fear, doubt, and question. Maybe not consciously, but straight from my heart, I give ALL to HIM. Angels come one by one. The first one, washes my face. I look up, and catch a glimpse, of Jesus watching . He says, does it feel better? I said, “Yes sir. It FEELS clean, and whole.” He smiles again, and says, “Good” Now, look at the cloth. I look at the cloth, and there is BLOOD, SWEAT and TEARS, on it. I say, “WOW. You are wiping away vestiges of striving. ” He says, “Yes, but NOT just that. I am WIPING away the FEAR of SURVIVING, and the GUILT too. It cannot STAY on YOU. I want YOU to REMEMBER and FOCUS on the GOOD. The “Bad” will try and play, but you’ll see. I will ALWAYS SAVE the DAY. #yourhero. ”

 

 

“Thank YOU,” I say. It is ALL I can SPEAK. He said, “Oh yes, SHAME must GO. Let’s WIPE one more TIME. Guilt, Shame, and FEAR. I take this sword, right HERE, and cut that CORD, with my LOVE.” I see this cord, like HANGING onto ME. I say, “I’m sorry my LORD. He says, “For what my LOVE?” I say, “Should I not have known? Especially by now, should I not ? He says, “Beautiful ONE, I am ALWAYS merciful. There is NOTHING too dirty, I cannot clean.” Thank you Jesus. He places, a cloth over my heart. He says, “Grief will not slaughter YOU. JOY will be present, in a NEW way, THIS day!” LIFE, RENEW, STEADY BEAT, He continues, as HE has HIS hand on the cloth, over my HEART. “set upon my HEART as a seal, YOU are. I promise, neither YOU, or ANYONE ELSE, will MESS things up. #promisekeeper”

 

 

I look up again, He can read my thoughts. He says, “She is rather busy today.” I frown. He says, “Don’t worry, beautiful girl, She knows. ” I smile. He says, “Next we wash your hands, I see blisters, on the cloth. I look up, “where did those come from?” He says, “the yuck from the past, can create that, and the BURN. This day, I speak , “Revitilization, to your HANDS, and FEET, and BODY! I command Heavenly ALIGNMENT. Youth RETURN NOW!” All of the sudden, MY BODY, begins to tingle, with BEAUTY, and LOVE. I smile, and say, “I FEEL like a thousand tons, has just been lifted.” He said, That STONE, you are dragging, must be LET GO. He takes an AXE, and chops the cord. I say, “MORE WEIGHT GONE. Thank you. I ask, “What was that?” “A STONE of NEGATIVE EMOTIONS,” He says. ANYTHING specific, I ask inquiring. He says, “Lots. there was a MIXTURE, and it was WEIGHING YOU down. ” I SAW in that STONE, fear, failure, hatred, Anger, Longing, unmet desires, guilt, shame, degrading, and MANY more. ” I had NO idea, that was holding ON. ” I look up, He says, “You know, when it is REVEALED, not UNTIL.”

 

 

“Okay, that is enough CLEANING, for now. Let’s work on the outlook” , He says.  The angels are sitting paitiently, and READY for instruction. One comes over, and Begins to paint my Face. I have a memory hit me. I remember, getting HER face painted, and mine too. A few times. Tears in my eyes, but I let her paint. She starts with eye shadow. BLUE, but lightly we will go. Maybe a touch of pink too. It will match the blush. But, not too much. And a slight gloss on the lips. Yes, That will be perfect. And the foundation, “FAITH” It is so SMOOTH and EASY to receieve. It began with a tiny seed. And, oh how the garden has grown. How He makes me, and US to RISE. I stand in AWE. It is quite literally, “AWEsome.”

 

“Let’s COLOR her hair!”, I hear them say. “How bout rainbow?” I smile, and say, “I LOVE rainbow!”  Let’s start with PINK, and give her a rainbow clip. That sounds WONDERFUL! I am just overjoyed, at even the thought. LOVE. They had finished painting my FACE, and now, here comes the HAIR. They take a brush, and brush through, ” Tangled, a bit. That won’t do.” Jesus comes over and say, “UNTANGLE and UNRAVEL gently and without havoc. ” ALL of the sudden, my HAIR is finished. I said, “What about the water? JESUS says, “I AM THE WATER. ” He had simply touched my hair, and IT was completed. Perfectly PERFECT. I look in the MIRROR, and I begin to weep. He says, “It is okay, it will stay. It will not APPEAR broken, anymore.”  #HEKEEPSUSASWEPASSTHROUGHHEALING

 

I say, “THIS is ME!” The REAL ME. It is NOT about the outside, but it is about YOUR heart, inside. IT will BE the SHINE, and SHIMMER. I will be BRAVE, and I will TRUST you. For you are WONDERFUl, Beautiful, Glorious, and truly most Matchless in EVERY single WAY. Thank YOU, for LOVING ME. Especially, in those MOMENTS, where I do not FEEL , ALL that LOVEABLE. I believe, those moments, will be LESS. And the JOY, will be MORE. Our Heavenly salvation, is at hand. Thank you Jesus. #resurrection

 

ONE more THING…and it will make, it complete. I smile, and say, “YOU have done SO much, already.  He says, “Here is your DRESS of HONOR, Valor and Humility. I smile, and say, “It looks like hers. ” He says, with one small adjustment. Look at the label. “Butterfly Designs” MADE TO FLY. With this, you will FLY, and REACH new HEIGHTS, and it comes, with a lovely pair of shoes, designed for you. Hidden underneath. They are glittery, your favorite, and white. And they will fit, no struggle. ”  I SLIP into THIS beautiful GOWn, just effortlessly. Yellow, of course. Mustardy, from some angles. #beautiful. He says, “ARe you ready? It is almost time to go on stage? I will be WITH YOU, EVERY step of the WAY. ” With ALL FEAR GONE…MELTED AWAY, I say, “Let’s do THIS THANG!” #Jesusadventure.

 

1 Timothy 2:9-10

Likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self – control, not with braided hair and gold pearls or costly attire, but with what is proper for women who profess godliness– with good works.

 

Today, I encourage YOU, to come to a quiet place, and let JESUS LOVE on you. #nothinglikeHISLOVE

You won’t regret, GIVING Him, FULL access to YOU. He has Sooooooooo MUCH GOOD in STORE. #storehousesofheaven

 

In His Grace,

 

E

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

03 Feb 2019

Beautiful Place Breakdown

This began today at 333. That definitely means MUCH to ME. As I listen to the song. “I know how to LOVE you well” (Tim McGraw) I keep thinking about, something that was said. “GOD is doing SOMETHING EXTRAORDINARY, in your marriage.” I REALLY had to have JESUS break that down for ME. Because, what I can tell YOU most, is, that our marriage is beautifully BROKEN…and HE is making it WHOLE. In so many ways, it is at the VERY best place, it has EVER been. AND THAT, is Because, of the LOVE, of JESUS. It just is ya’ll. He gives us GRACE, STRENGTH, ABility, to overcome and ALWAYS surrender , in the process. MOST of ALL, He helps US forgive…and to have HEARTS, that are being cleaned, so WE can LOVE more. WE have a LOT of tangible blessings. WE have had plenty, and little. and NOW we know, that … it’s important, to just BE GRATEFUL, for EVERYTHING. The GOOD, the bad, the Ugly. Be Grateful. Choose that. It is where the JOY….lives. In the HOUSE of Gratefulness.

 

 

When I was asking HIM, about this entry, HE said, simply. “MANY are going through LOTS of trials right now. And when in trials and suffering, it’s often, hard to SEE the LIGHT, at the end of the tunnel. But, I AM that light. And I will make the darkness FLEE. If ONLY my children would TRUST Me. Tears. I Hug HIM, and I say, “I’m so sorry.”  I can feel His heart breaking, for the things happening, in THIS world. Yet, He is not surprised either. As in this world, the song…”THERE GOES MY LIFE” (Kenny Chesney) plays. He says, “Me too. But, it will be okay. There is ALWAYS a plan. and it does NOT fail. He smiles, through His tears.

 

 

I am often comforted, when I SEE HIM, share in the emotion. That might sound strange. But, in THIS world, it is SOoooooo EASY to Feel alone, and just isolated. For ME, that can happen, in a room full of people. But God. When I see JESUS, this way, it helps me remember, that…He is like US, in a lot of ways. LOVE. Breaking down, is NOT always easy, or BREEZY. Again, but GOD. However, it is necessary, and there ALWAYS is beauty, that comes, through, from and IN the process. #HISLOVEHEALSUS

 

 

I remember, a TIME is my LIFE. Oh man…I was SOooooo not as close to JESUS. I still LOVED HIM, yes. But, I was REALLY HELL bent, on MY OWN ways. It was rough. And, I experienced a LOT of Hell.  THIS was one of my favorite songs. “Breakdown HERE”

“Paved with pretty lies and broken dreams…. ” Those are just SOME of the lyrics…. “SURE hate to breakdown here, nothing up ahead, or in the rearview MIRROR. Out in the middle of nowhere nowhere. I’m in trouble, if these wheels stop rolling. God help me keep me Movin’ somehow…” I would BELT this song out…over and over. I think, I even bought the single. It might have been a ONE hit wonder. But, now, I look at the lyrics, from a different perspective.

 

What is in YOUR rearview mirror?

 

Is it a Beautiful, place of breakdown? Because, at TIMES, mine was LOVELY scenery….on the outside. This pertains to cities, I lived in….My physical body, and actual vehicles. Yet, inside, there was chaos, that ONLY …HIS LOVE could help. And much of the time, I just wandered around, hoping I was doing some good in the world. Yet, I was tormented, just by existence. Again…but GOD.

 

 

 

LIVING in that horribly fearful place, created opportunity, for VERY poor decisions. Thank GOD for Grace. I continue to ask Forgiveness, for anyone, i directly, or indirectly harmed, in that time of life. Even with words…I so apologize. For then…and NOW. My heart…is so to LOVE. I come by it, Heaven made, straight from ABOVE. Lord knows, I am not a perfect child/or adult. I’m so thankful, that GOD sees fit, to LOVE me ANYWAYS. He LOVES me back to LIFE, EVERY single DAY. And for that, I will forever, have more than gratitude. #onegratefullionkid . LOVE.

 

Today is the 31st, and 31 is offspring, in the LIFE book. In the bible, it says, WE are HIS children. SO….WE are protected, and SAFE and WE are LOVED. And THAT, is a beautiful place, to breakdown. Don’t you think?

 

 

In His Grace,

E

31 Jan 2019

Do YOU Trust ME?!?!?

These Words Echo inside Me. As I AM suddendly (spelled wrong for a reason, in THIS season) It is 5:52 HERE, and “MY OLD FRIEND” (Tim McGRAW plays. To give you an idea. The lyrics… My old friend. Good Bye… Good Bye… Yes. All, about letting go, not holding on. Because, AS Much AS WE want to, in the NATURAL, WE can’t HOLD onto HURT, FOREVER. As the SONG, “BRING ON THE RAIN” Comes ON. And what YOU have to UNDERSTAND, IS I have NOT been, TRYING to. And, I have been releasing, a little every single day. But, THIS, IS NOT Just, About ONE THING. Contrary, to popular belief. And, as God often reminds ME, WE do things, to help others too. It is part of LOVE.

Today with JESUS, I hear, “TIME to wake up”  Thank GOD too. I was not having a happy dream. But God. He is a rescuer. Always. When He woke me up, it wasn’t LONG after, that He had me, typing. I heard HIM say, “WE are going camping. ” I shuddered. He knew why. There is a film, that I watched, that had to do with, a campground, and the child was taken away. And she was killed. I looked at Him, and said, “Please no. He said, “It is time, to deal with the childhood stuff. We ARE going to DO THIS TOGETHER. I won’t let ANY HARM come TO YOU. I promise. DO YOU TRUST ME?” And I said, It isn’t going to feel good? He said, I’m not going to lie, it won’t always feel, like a bowl full of cherries at first. But as you listen to me, and release the old stuff, you will  SEE more FREEDOM. THEN, it will FEEL so MUCH better. ” LOVE.

 

I Thought back to the book, I had begun to read, the other day. And i looked up at HIM, almost ashamed. He smiled, and said, knowing my EVERY single thought; ” YOU are NOT ” MUCH AFRAID” You WERE once but THOSE days are LONG gone. You received MY SEED of LOVE long AGO. And I know, YOU DO TRUST ME. I AM Asking, Can you trust ME, AGAIN?  ” As HERE the song “EVERY LIGHT IN THE HOUSE IS ON” comes ON (Trace Atkins) I LOVE that Song. I often hear it, when I am praying for children, whom I LOVE, that I can not talk to. BUT, I TRUST HIM to LOVE and care for. NOW, because of NEW circumstances, that HE knows about, it has more meaning.

 

We walked around the camp ground, and it looked deserted. Like a wasteland. I said, THIS place looks dead. It is so dark. What is it? He says, It was an Amusement Park, that got turned into a campground. That explains the trash on the ground, I see, I said. Then, I had this thought, that popped, into my head, from childhood, of myself as trash. Jesus said, “You are not trash. You are beautiful. I began to cry. Here. The song. “One of these days” Lyrics…”One of these days…I’m gonna LOVE ME.” Tears. BUT I do LOVE HIM. Always. People always say, if you don’t LOVE yourself, you can’t love someone else right? Well, I LOVE myself. But, I often fight with the child in me. Because, THAT is who gets hurt most. AND who connects with JESUS most.

 

SO DO I trust, YES.

 

Proverbs 3: 5-6 TRUST in the LORD with ALL your HEART, and LEAN not ON your OWN UNDERSTANDING. in ALL YOUR

WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM, AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT….

 

THIS VERSE HAS NEW MEANING TODAY…..

25 Jan 2019

No Wrong Turns

This morning I was awakened by my Jesus. That is NOT unusual. For many years, that has been such a gift. Though recognizing His present, in the presence of HIS LOVE, is NEW each morning. Especially in the mourning, which HE is turning to DANCINg as promised. This morning, as I woke, the song, “CINDERELLA” (SCC) was on the radio. There is so much significance to that. And it was 3:28. Part of ME wanted to go back to sleep, but I know, when it is TIME to write. There is an unction, from GOD, when HE wants to speak. And TODAY is a BIIIIIG day. LOVE will show itself. As the song on, is, “Love’s Been Following You” (Twila Paris).

The #1 thing, I have really battled with, is fearing I will mess something up. Or, that someone else will. Do you struggle with this too? I definitely do not believe my heart is to rebel against God. And I desire to simply LOVE others, and share HIS LOVE. Really, that IS my Ultimate goal. It amazes me, how many come to attempt harm, and yet God says, Love them. Because, the truth is, they are NOT coming against YOU. And THAT is truth. IT is ALL about where, EVERYONE is with GOD. That seems, so simple, yet so profound. For example, if someone is angry at God, they will likely, take that out ON you. And YOU cannot take that personally, or to heart. Because, it is really not about you.

So , to the title of this entry….

This morning, picked up where I was yesterday with Jesus.

I was catching lightning bugs with Jesus. I used to love to do that, as a child. We were at my childhood home. But, it looked so different. It looked joyful. He was reminding me, of the “GOOD” memories. He reminded me, of playing softball, with my mom and dad. He said, ” Beautiful ONE, there were NO wrong turns. I know YOU feel like you messed up. But you did NOT. I am so VERY proud of YOU. I want YOU to ALWAYS stay FOCUSED on the GOOD. Remember to pray for those who have ill intent, LOVE always. This is key. You deeply know, and that is not EASY.”  Tears fall. He catches them, and puts them in a bottle.

I hear the song, the lyrics… “in need of resurrection….take the pieces, make me whole again. ”  (Resurrection – Nicole Sponberg)

Father forgive us, for fearing the motives of others, I say. My heart is not to judge, from pain. Jesus smiles. He says, “Darling, You are ALWAYS learning, and GROWING. Remember, there is Grace to heal. Always, as You are healing with me. My promises are true. Yes, and Amen. Walk with Me, Talk with Me. I am Here. YOU are NEVER alone. Thank you for your willingness to surrender, and forgive. Choose to forgive you too. Love.”

I look up, and I see my sweet husband, has joined today. I smile. “Thank you, I say. That matters, so much. This is a NEW day, and NEW FREEDOM will come today, won’t it sire?” He smiles. I hear HIM laughing with JOY.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Today READ this, through HIS eyes, and lay down, ALL. Know, that to JESUS, who knows EVERYTHING, you MATTER MOST. He wants YOUR HEART, in FULL. You are so VERY Loved.

In His Grace,

E

13 Jan 2019

Sparkles in the Sand 🐾 🚶 👣

12166887_10207993635856946_547456957_n10356327_797736560298840_800842292463146719_nthankyouthe-time-travelers-wife-fieldToday, is the beginning, of something new.  A wonderland of sorts.  But, it doesn’t always “feel ” wonderful to me.  I often feel like Alice in the story.  But God.  I will be just walking along, and then Heaven appears .  This happened today.

 

Not everyone takes in the sites, the same.  Let alone the sight view, we all have.  And me, well I’m “different .” And, people either love that, or don’t. Thankfully, those God surrounds me ,most often with do.

 

So to the title, of the entry 🚪.  Was walking on the beach, with Jesus, and more.  It had been raining for days.  We went for breakfast first.  And, Jesus had us, mention her story.  Particular, the “green ticket” part.  If you don’t know this part, it’s from when she was, maybe 3. It was around Easter, and she wanted, it for Sunday School. I was puzzled at first, what she meant.  Then I saw a dollar flash, b4 my eyes. I looked in my purse, and pulled one out.  I said, “This? ” She said, “Yes. ” ❤️

I remember being so humbled by her. Still am.  I prayed that she always stay, that humble.  And, that we as well.  ❤️  God has kept that, in tact.  Humility doesn’t always feel fun.  But, that’s not, it’s purpose.  That is simple.  Humility ,draws  you closer to Jesus.  You can’t go through a humbling season, and not need God.

 

After we finished our meal.  The Sun came out.  Were told, It hadn’t been out, in days.  And it was exciting to see people ,come enjoy the sunshine.  Little did they know, it was sonshine too.  ❤️

 

 

The Sparkles in Sand happen, when the Sun shines on them.  ❤️  To Jesus ,WE are the sparkles 💖 in the sand.  As are the gold 🌟 nuggets of wisdom, hidden in each story, He writes and shares .❤️

 

 

Was walking on the beach, beside my Love ❤️.  And I hear,  “You see those beautiful little angels 👼 ?”  Jesus shows me a little boy, and girl.  In so many ways, it was healing.  They stayed on the beach, and played.  The whole time, He said, “Remembrance of the good.  That’s what makes you sparkle and shine. ”  I watched them play some .  And He said, “Like you and he.  Always and forever my kids, my family.  My sparkles. ”

 

I see Him smile 😊, and I say,  “He did it.  I just want to be apart of it.  ” He looks up,  and says, “Beautiful one, YOU are NEVER left out. You are ALWAYS, a part of my world. I’m so proud of you. You’ll see.  Joy, in ALL things.  1,2,3 jump.  Love ❤️

 

#jumpingintonewbyHisGrace

 

There was a big puddle.  He held my hand, and jumped in.  #splashheardallaround ❤️

 

#laughterandjoybeautifulsounds ❤️

 

Healing…. Freedom… And Refreshing.

 

A beautiful way 🚦 to end, and begin.

 

#Lifteduponangels ❤️

 

In His Grace,

 

E


 

01 Jan 2019

When it Rains ☂

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10551057_10153035975977785_1329849181222001721_ntimthumb184414_10151642914512863_1045860989_nYou’ve heard the saying, when it rains it pours. Well, that is triply true, when you are a “heaven kid. ” You get up, like it’s gonna be a normal day, and then.  Bam.  Remember recently, the blog extension , “I hear Jesus? ” I’m praying about how, He wants that, to come about.  Is it a new page?  Truly, I don’t know. For now, we will continue here .📌 ❤️

 

 

Have you ever just had, Life fall 🌻 apart?  Funny, that the sunflower would, pop up.  Perhaps, a reminder ,that when life appears to be in ruins, Jesus is still working.  There are flowers blooming, in His Life garden .  But is it easy, to SEE that, when WE are naturally grappling for control?  And not just that, maybe a way out, of the mess. ..Perhaps? Most would answer, No!

 

 

I know, for ME it’s a constant surrender process.  Not one day passes, that someone does not misunderstand. But, I’m so trying, not to take that to heart.  💞  Years ago, someone along the way, told me , “I take the good with the bad. ” I appreciated that.  Whether they knew it, I learned a lot about compassion, from that individual .  Jesus is the good, and He never SEES us as bad.  No matter what.

 

 

I was walking in a restaurant. A familiar spot.  My husband chose it.  Many of you know it.  It’s a Christian place.  As I walked in, I had my headphones in, and there was a song about resurrection on.  Maybe the 2nd or 3rd time I’ve heard it today.  Apparently phone plays it, in offline mode.  ❤️  But, as I hear it, I then hear,  “Look around and up. ”

 

 

My heart 💞 aches.  I see a sweet family.  A man, a woman, and a little girl.  #memories.  Tears.  I’ve cried lots this morning.  After all, it has only been a few days, since her 5 year.  So I continue on.  And I hear, “Take this. ” He hands me a net.  It’s huge.  I see words.  They say outcast, misfit, different , controlling, prideful, arrogant , judgmental, cruel,  mean, hateful,  rude, gross, disgusting, insane, unloved. I see Him take His net and capture them.  Then He instructs me, to specific ones.  I do the same.  We work together. Sweating ,we stand up.  “These words represent many things,  He says.  But , my love ❤️ covers EVERYTHING .

#Jesusisafisherofmen ❤️


 

 

He looks at me, and says, “You are NOT these things.  None of my children are. Choose the attributes that, belong to you.  I died for, your freedom.  I look up, and say, I’m sorry.  He says, “I love ❤️ you. I will NEVER condemn you.  Because of my Love ,nothing can harm you.  Joy,  Peace , Gratitude of Kindness ,  the 3 chord strand of my Love.  ❤️ ”

 

 

Heavenly Father, thank you for Grace ,to face the day.  To succeed to fail.  So, that you can prevail ,in every way.  Create in us clean hearts.  Thank you Jesus ,for your Amazing and Abundant Love ❤️, that comforts us.  Especially in the midst of changes ,and challenges .Holy Spirit ,we appreciate the nurturing, that only, you can bring us.  We come with repentant, and broken 💔 hearts to, receive today.

 

In Jesus name ,

Amen

 

 

In His Grace,

 

E

 

 

 

31 Dec 2018

Receiving the Call ~#5 ❤️ 💫💣

As I woke today, feeling the pull to write.  I must admit I fought ,throughout the night.  But God.  Tears already falling.  There’s just something ,about this day.  Part if me dreaded the arrival.  Most of me celebrates.  Because, inside, that’s who I am.  No matter, what I’m a joy child.

 

As I listen to the lyrics on… It says, “In the morning, when I rise.  Give me Jesus.  You can have ALL this world, but give ME Jesus. ” (Jeremy Camp)  More ➕ tears fall.  #meinanutshell ❤️

 

 

It’s sometimes, hard to hear Him.  Not everyone likes His plans, or wants His Love ❤️ .  And when He instructs you, to step back, or walk away sometimes, you must.  As the song, “Be still and Know” comes on again.  Tears

 

This morning, I was sitting in, a familiar room with Jesus.  I asked , “Why are we here?  ” .You’d think it’d be my childhood house.  But, it wasn’t . it was her last place.  The Hospital room.  I looked around .. .Everything looked the same.  Even the rainbow butterfly light.  I was so sad, I never got a picture of . But I have a forever picture.

 

He looks at me, I look at Him.  I start to get upset.  “Why are WE HERE! ! !”.  He takes a breath, then says. ” Because , it’s time.  ” .  So I say,  “Time for what?  Aren’t we doing what we’re supposed to do, following instruction.  “. He says simply , ” Breathe.  It is time for new ,to come.  But, you must, release ALL the old.  ” .  Tears fall.  I want Him to hug me.  But, I’m feeling so much.  He opens His arms says,  “Come. I remember. Let’s feel together.  I can take it.  Give it to me.  I love you.  ❤️ ”

 

 

It was about midnight, when we got the call .  The doctors said, “She’s in trouble .If she codes again, we won’t be able to do anything.  ” .  My sweet husband, heard those words. I know his heart was hurting.  Yet, he barely showed a weakness.  I saw Jesus, in a new light.  There was strength, might, authority . It was incredible.  But pain… That makes it tough to breathe.  Even still, some days.  But the Grace. Thank Heaven’s for the Grace.  Just to continue …

 

 

As the song… “I can Only Imagine ” ( mercy me)   plays.   There are many things, we don’t have to imagine.  We have lived them.  We live them daily.  #lifeofloveandgrace ❤️

 

“That call, was not just about Sarah.  Nor, is that room…  As my tears continue flowing…  He speaks to me…   Every resurrection, has a tomb.  It’s time for yours.  In this room.  Many dreams died.  I am bringing them, back to life! ”

 

Tears.

 

I tell Him, ” I’m so sorry. I feel I failed, in so many ways.  But, I know you have not.  That, you never will.  I truly, am grateful that, you are making me new.  Thank you. ” .

 

He says,  “Look up, into the light.  And do you see the bed, where she was?  Go lay on it.  ” As I do, I see this light ,come from the rainbow light.  It’s a swirl of rainbow.  Looks like a light show.  Then, I see Jesus direct it.  I hear Him say, “New Life begins.  The Old   is Gone.  Now!   Hit swirling light hits me.   And ALL the pain… Is gone!  My body electrified, by His Love.  ❤️

 

And then…. He looks at me, and says, “That question you have. I’m working it out.  It will multiply. You’ll see.  My Love ❤️ won’t fail.  My Grace will carry… ALL of you. #unitedbymyheart ❤️ ”

I stay..  In His embrace.  As He transforms into the lion .  Smiles from me.  My favorite #Hislionkid ❤️

 

He knows ,there are a few heart questions.  But one, that must be surrendered daily. #Heknows ❤️

 

Today, I pray for the many families… Dealing with Loss.  Yes, our loss is His Gain.  But, He knows the pain.  Heavenly Father, comfort their hearts .  Bring them special presents ,that only you can.  Holy spirit nurture and heal the wounds, as often a mom, looks over the children.  So delicate and beautiful .And brother Jesus, walk with US, into this new place of healing.  We come, with repentant hearts, and receive.

In Jesus name,

 

Amen

 

There is a time for EVERYTHING. And for EVERYTHING a season.  ( Ephesians)

As the Last 🌜 song… Playing is “Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus. ”

 

In His Grace,

 

Elea Grace

#foreveramomofmanyangels ❤️

 

 

 

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23 Dec 2018

GOOD MORNING!!!

Now, seriously for me to say this at um 3 :25am is totally GOD. To say with smiles and JOY, yes…it is JESUS. LOVE. Been up and awake, for about an hour. Just getting into a space, where I could AWAKE. It is RARE that I get a DEEP night sleep. SO, when I do, it is a MAJOR gift. YOu can imagine my excitement, when Jesus woke me, saying, “I need you.” There was this teeny tiny part of me, that JUST wanted to sleep. Can YOU relate. I would bet you can. It is totally NORMAL. As our first response, for us, to want extra time, or extra grace, is okay. JESUS knows, we need that. HE is a merciful GOD. Hence, why the writing, did not begin, the moment I tumbled out of bed. Giggles.

 

There is this song, called “Angels” that keeps playing on the radio. “Darkness cannot reach us, let the angels tech us. ONLY LOVE remains.” As if on cue, I look up and I see, and hear Jesus. Yes. Guess where He is. He is in like, a carpentry shed today. I said, “Funny you have been coming to me lately. And I did hear you call me. Well you and our Heavenly Papa. And here today, you brought me to you. ” I smile. I continue. “It reminds me of that scene from the movie, “Back to the Future. ” That awesome line, that George Mcfly has. Yes. “DEstiny has popped me to you.” Jesus laughs. I love that one! Great movie. 🙂 WE both sit, and reflect. I look over, and observe, what He is making. My eyes get REALLY big! And i say, “YOU are making TOYS!!!!!!”

He says, “I sure AM! That is NOT ALL I AM making though. 🙂  I sit and listen, and He says, “I am making, tools. Tools to help many. They will help to rebuild. THEY will bring much JOY to the nations. I am so excited, for all these TOOLS will be USED to accomplish. MUch healing will come to the LAND. Redemption, in the most beautiful way. ” I am still just, in awe, and enamored by the toys, HE is making Each design, so intricate. He has NOT even added the color. Yet, I see it beginning to peek through. THat is how, amazing HE is, . I watch and listen. JUst hanging, on EVERY single word, He says.

I hear music. I smile. He says,” I want to pause a moment. Beautiful…Can I have this dance?” I blush, and say, “Of course.”  We begin to dance. The song is from a movie called , Hope Floats. The song….”To Make You Feel My Love.” I was struggling with memory. I was getting frustated. He said, “Breathe. Let me hold you. I am ALWAYS safe. Listen to MY music. I am YOURS. YOU are mine. ALWAYS. Forever. Heaven’s design.”

I start to just CRY in HIS arms… He says…”Just release it precious.”  I say, “THis is so hard. They think I am so strong . Yet I….You know. My voice trails off. But you. ” He looks up at me, tilts my face up, and kisses my forhead. He says, ” I know, and I have got you. We are in THIS together. ALWAYS.  As I am listening to that song… LIVE in the natural. And an AGT/Britian’s got Talent video comes on…on UTUBE. Yeah. #JESUSSPEAKS

The woman is singing about people being lost. Wow. They are telling her, to be more emotional. Wow. Bless her heart. Jesus says, “Preparation, beautiful one. WE always prepare….together. I smile. I cry. I cry some more. Jesus is moving, in this child. And, wow. My heart is smiling. I so get this. Because, wow, every lyric…holy heaven….just WOW!

“Every place…I want to be, I want to see you there…. and you took MY life with YOU.” WOW….yes THAT. ”

Because, EVERY day….I miss HER and feel HER. #LIVINGBOTHOFTHESEBYHISGRACE LOVE

He says, “See that. I say, “Yes sir. I am gonna do that….but even MORE. And my heart just pounds. He said, “I have so much GOOD in store!” It is time to say “GOOD MORNING WORLD!!!!!!”  “It is TIME to LOVE in a whole NEW way. MY HEART…. and no way, you will mess up. Because, I do NOT fail. I am already making ways for you. ENJOY the ride. Enjoy EVERY single dance. I LOVE YOU so. THIS is OUR ROMANCE.”

“Time to say GOODBYE to the bad, and HELLO to the GOOD, and you will SEE….my PLANS arrive. Smile. Laugh, and RECEIVE.”

 

in Song of Songs…. it is expressed in ch 4… the observation of beauty.

 

HOW fair and BEAUTIFUL YOU are MY DARLING,

How VERY Beautiful!

Your Eyes behind your veil, are like those of a Dove

 

 

 

#BELIEVEASHESAYSMYCHILD

 

In HIS GRACE,

E

16 Dec 2018

Home SWEET Home

Sweet like Candy. Yes, that is what Home, should taste like? Right? But, there ARE many types of candy. And some are pretty bitter tasting. And when you grew up, being the “problem” child; HOME is not a word that makes you smile. UNTIL…Jesus knocks, that is. As if, right on cue…. the song, “Right here waiting for YOU.” (Richard Marx) comes on. The lyrics I hear, in a BRAND NEW way. Just me and JESUS hear. I see JESUS listen, and play with him too. #beautiful LOVE.

REdemption of a hard memory…… #HeremembersforMEandholdsALLMYmemories

I hear JESUS…. The new BLOG Extension. Yes. Tears. I do too. Always. Every moment, and in EVERYTHING, I hear HIM. And, HE hears ME too. And, HE hears YOU. He sees YOU….He feels you. You know the 5 senses? THEY are from GRACE. Is that not just AWESOME!!!!! The song on now…. “Let’s hear it for the BOY!” Definitely…. Let’s Hear it for JESUS!!!!! YAY!!!!!

Okay, now I am doing cartwheels,,,,with Jesus, and backhandsprings, as He spots me. It looks like a scene, in “Girls Just Wanna Have Fun.” He knows, I love the dance scenes in that film. Smiles. You SEE Jesus, knows, EVERY single detail about ME. He knows, EVERY hair on my head. Every pain, EVERY single wound, and ounce of brokenness, HE knows. He knows this about ALL of US!!!! AND the BEST THING is, HE will NEVER EVER EVER USE THIS INFORMATION to HURT YOU or ME! HE is ALWAYS 100% SAFE! WOOHOO!!!!!!!

So, He says, back to thinking about, how you “grew up.” I look up at HIM, and say, “Do we have to?” He says, “Beautiful fun is great, but you have to heal. You know this. THERE is ALWAYS more healing, that can come. ANd the healing and love multiples. That is how it works here. In your permanent HOME. ” I sigh, and say, “Okay, then afterwards, more JOY.” He says, “You got it dude!” He was referencing a show Sarah loved. (Full House), to make me smile. I bust out laughing, even in the natural. As something hysterical, just happened. Oh how i LOOOOOOOOOVE HIM!

So He says, What about the smells? Do you remember good smells? I had closed my eyes, feelining like I was in therapy. #Jesustherapyoflove. (seasons change on the radio) I said, “My mom always cooked. That always smelled good. Probably why I like cooking. Hmmm, I see where you are going with this. wink. And now, He says, “What did you hear? I shudder. He gets a blanket. He wraps me up. I instantly warm up, to perfect temperature. Well, It was kind of a loud and proud house. But… behind closed doors. And I was always trying to get everyone to talk openly. But no one would listen to me. And when you gave me thing, they just dismissed me. It was scary. I felt very unsafe.

He says, okay. And you felt, you did not fit in, right. “YES!!!!!” I cry. “I never did. I still don’t. Eventhough, everyone says they love me. You know. You get it. I just want us ALL, to get along. I always have. Is that too much to ask?!?! ”  He looks at me, and says, No. But, that can’t fully happen, until EVERYONE forgives. And that happens, in each individual’s own time. Remember, your job, is to love, no matter what. I created YOU to LOVE, and BE LOVE. TRy to remember, the way they act towards you, is more about ME, than you. They mght not understand that, but it is true. ”

 

He looks at me, and says, “Is this helping precious?” I look up, and say, “Yes sir. Thank you. The other stuff, why does it keep coming back, to frighten me? He said, “Ah childhood fears and shadows. Yes dear. They simply pop up sometimes. Remember, the popcorn, we talked about. But, it will be alright. We will process together. I will ALWAYS be HERE for YOU. I will NEVER let YOU down.

 

When you pass through the waters, I will be with YOU; And through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. when you walk through fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.

 

#everywaterishealingwater LOVE

 

In His Grace,

E

15 Dec 2018

Highway to Heaven

What matters MOST… “Faith Hope and LOVE.” These are the LYRICS. on today. Especially LOVE it emphasizes. “Are WE LOVING each other LOVING our brother? ” This Lyric continues. Next song on…. “Beyond Justice to Mercy” Oh MY this SONG hits ME HARD. Jesus knows. I recall singing it DEEPLY. As He comes knocking on my MUSIC studio. Knowing, I am still, a tiny bit saddened, bout the broken string. He says, “it is okay. It has purpose. ” Because, at this point, I have happily opened the door and let HIM in. To the house, that is my Cabin. It is my safe place. And, He says, I know beautiful one, in a perfect world, things would NEVER break. But, remember humpty dumpty. All the kings horses and ALL the kings men, could not put him togethere again. But, good news. I CAN!!!!!. I can do ANYTHING!!!! Nothing is impossible for ME!”

Smiles from me. As the song in my music studio….plays on the radio. Gloria….. In an effort to praise YOU…. I look UP and say, ” YOU know JUST what to say to ME, ALWAYS.” Thank you for travelling with me. In every single vehicle you choose. It is such an, ENJOYABLE journey. True, it is NOT always EASY, but you and our FAMILY, are so VERY faithful. Truly, it is beautiful. Fresh, and new. Thank you, for loving me, and allowing me, and us, the gift to love you too. And to share that LOVE.

He looks up, and says, ” I am so PROUD of you!”  YOU did so great, and YOU are doing so WELL! You are truly living the life, you are supposed to now. He smiles. It is just going to get better. You will see.

 

Continuing On…  ( 12/ 13/18 ) Yesterday, I heard this Song…. “Id Sure Hate To Break Down Here.” It is a country song. And, I am such a cowgirl at heart. Smiles. Jesus knows. Today, I so am at this RANCH in the Heavenlies. One of my VERY favorite places. “Rainbow Ranch. AKA, Promises. I actually LOVE to break down here. So, as that song plays. I look at Jesus, and say, Opposite day HUH? He smiles. He knows, YESTERDAY was seriously ROUGH on me. And, that I need THIS to recoupourate.  I have this DEAR friend, who has a blog, called “I SEE Jesus. ” And, like a child playing the game I spy, I giggle. He literally has a spare TIRE. I say, what is THAT for? He says, come HERE…. I want to show you something. So, I go out to the barn. The most colorful barn. It is ALL paint spattered. Rainbow. And there is a specific car there. And He says, look at the tires. there are 4. One is shredded. I said, how did that happen? He said, It does not matter. It needs fixin’. Let’s work together to replace it. We could actually literally fix it, and make it work. But it is better to replace it, with LOVE. Yes. In this case, WE will replace it, with LOVE. and it will SUSTAIN through. LOVE sustains. I start to cry. He says, why are you crying. I say, ” I tried to do it again. I fell into that old dumb trap of trying to fix EVERYTHING my self, again. I thought I was done with that. I am so VERY sorry. When will I be finished with that? Seriously, what is wrong with ME?” That song plays quietly again… UGH…that song. Jesus smiles. “You didn’t do anything bad. ” “I didn’T?????” NO!” He says. ” I am not a GOD of guilt and CONDEMNATION. I am a GOD of LOVE and ADORATION. You know that precious. No need for you to beat yourself up. Receive the GRACE. It is OKAY, to break down. Completely OKAY. ”

 

 

#HISLOVEAMAZESME

 

 

As the song, “You are MY Hiding Place ” Plays 🙂

 

He says, “You wanna play Hide and Seek?” I say, YES! I LOVE that game!!!!! I have not played it in AGES. Who goes first? He says, “Your choice. So, I think about it, for a minute, and I say, “You go first, because, YOU will know, where I am hiding. Giggles. So He agrees. And, then goes to hide. And, we play. Next thing I know, we begin to play. And He begins, to kinda, say… ” You are getting warmer, or colder. I giggle. Loving the hints. Oh, our merciful and childlike, amazing JESUS!!!!! As, the song, “LIFTED UP ON ANGELS” Comes ON . YES.  #HEAVENSPEAKS

 

“Darkness cannot reach us, let the angels teach us, ONLY LOVE REMAINS. Lifted UP on ANGELS. ”  (ashton,becker dente)

 

 

THERE WILL BE HEALING, RESTORATION and RENEWAL. THESE ARE PROMISES HE MAKES TO US. HE does NOT LIE. WE are ON HEAVEN’s HIGHWAY. It just HAPPEN’s TO BE on EARTH. But, IF YOU look for IT, you will SEE it, HERE. It is HIDDEn, and yet NOT. It takes GRACE to see it, that is for CERTAIN. Often, it feels like it is concealed behind a curtain, or a veil. Yet the veil is torn.

 

 

Years ago, there literally was a tv show, called “Highway to Heaven. ” It was a VERY significant show. BROKE through MANY barriers. To this day, if you watch it, you can still learn quite a lot. Truly, we have watched it a few times, and kind of been in awe, of what is still present, and true. The number one theme is that LOVE wins, and humility is key.

 

 

“You have a WAY of turning winter to spring. Making something beautiful, from ALL this suffering. here, I am one again, in need of resurrection. YES. a beautiful. representation. Make me whole again. Take the pieces. make me whole again. ” (Margaret Becker)

 

All that Glitters is NOT always GOLD ~~~ But HIS Heart makes us BOLD #JOY in JESUS # WALKONBYTHEYUCK

 

Now the song….Let your LIGHT SHINE DOWN on ME …LOVE this song 🙂 …so SIMPLE yet so profound. I look UP at JESUS.

With my EYES of WONDER. Before I can speak, He takes His hands, and touches my head. He says, RENEWAL of your MIND. For I know you feel so weary, beautiful one. Then, He touches, my heart, and says, strengthening here. And a guard to be set here, of protection. I smile. I sit still and quiet, as the master physician, takes great care of ME. Yes, Dr, Mc Jesus . Smiles. Oh, how I love LOVE THEE. Let ME count the ways. I stand in AWE of your LOVE and GRACE. Truly, you take me out of every ounce of grey, I have every had. THANK you, does not seem sufficient. Even the song now, says, “How can WE thank you?”   So WE sing unto YOU . Love you so much.

 

 

May you be encouraged THIS day to come to the ONE who LOVES you most, and give HIM, your ALL in ALL. You will NOT regret it. #LIVINGPROOF. Be the miracle. IT could truly, save a life. You absolutely can DO ALL things, through CHRIST who GIVES you, strength. ALL things.

#THEGREATESTOFTHESEISLOVE

 

IN HIS GRACE,

E

11 Dec 2018