The toughest part, about existing, in THIS place, is having the one, who was the MoST accepting, in such a tiny package, be watching now. Don’t get me wrong, I am SO very grateful, for every single thing. Having gone through the motions, and still enduring them, the perspective, from before, inn some ways, is just no more.
But, in others, more daily, is given, a new vision. But be aware, that new vision, can very much disrupt the OLD. Especially, in a natural way, and sometimes it is VERY ODD. But, make no mistake, that it is God. His love, no one said would be easy. Not to mention, in this place and time, it can make us feel queasy.
I used to give WAY more credit, than was needed, to a place, of hurt. So many are living in the prison, of religion, and in it, there is ONLy one cure. Guess what it is? The real LOVE of Jesus. I always wanted a twin, and then came Sarah. She was this, ray of sunshine, that through Jesus I just began to adore. Yet, I admit, every day, I would secretly wonder, somewhere, is today the day? I don’t think I have ever verbally admitted that, till now.
Because, I was taught, to put a smile on your face, and love in your heart, and just get through. But…Jesus Love, and His plans are so much MORE than just survival. ~
24 Nov 2016